Somebody To Call Mine (Completed)

KABANATA LIX

KABANATA LIX : Love Sick Fools 

Kahit kailan hindi naman tayo napapagod na magmahal. Nararamdaman lang nating pagod na tayo kapag sobra na tayong nasasaktan. Pero minsan kahit nga sobra na tayong nasasaktan pilit pa rin nating pinaglalaban kasi umaasa tayo. Umaasa na sa hindi natin pagsuko ay masuklian yung lahat ng sakit. Na sa pagdating ng tamang panahon, lahat ng naranasang pagkabigo ay liliparin na lang ng hangin kasabay ng pagbabago ng panahon at pagkapawi ng lahat ng sakit.

That everything will be okay, that every inch of my broken heart will be restored and just like how it used to, I'll be happy and contented with my life.

I sighed as I remember his grief stricken face as we disappear right before his very eye. It's been 174 days since we left and yet his face still lingers on my mind. He looks so devastated and lost. Hindi ko masasabing tanggap niya ang naging desisyon ko at sa itsura palang ng mukha niya ng mga oras na 'yun, alam kong nahihirapan siya-tulad  nang paghihirap ko.

That's why our time apart is very much appropriate. He has to survive without us and might as well recuperate from all the injuries and heartbreaks that we've both endured. Mahal ko siya pero kung magsasama ulit kami ng hindi maayos ang lahat sisirain lang namin ang natitirang pagmamahal na 'yun. We have to settle every shits and whims before getting back together.

 "Bakit kasi hindi mo na lang kausapin?" she asked, smiling mischievously at me. 

Napangiti ako at umiling. Inirapan n'ya ako at padarag na nameywang sa harapan ko. My dear sister is at it again. She'll nag again.

"He's just a phone call away for Pete's sake. I'm pretty sure he's ogling his phone waiting for your damn call at ikaw naman 'tong pakipot na ayaw siyang tawagan. Para kamo kayong tanga." panunukso ni Ate habang winawagayway ang telepono sa kamay niya. Of course, she knew everything. Wala naman akong tinago sakanya. At kung may isang bagay na magandang naidulot ng lahat ng ito, yun ay ang pagkakaayos naming ni Ate. We became closer to each other.

Kuya would always act jealous of our closeness. He feels left out, but I know deep inside he's happy. 'Coz after so many years, our sibling relationship became so much better. No more competitions and nothing but love for each other.  

I smiled and cradled my burgeoning tummy. "May isang linggo pa siya. He has all the time in this world, Ate. Hindi ko siya mamadaliin. I want everything to fall into its rightful place nang hindi pinipillit or minamadali." I explained.

"Liar."

Inirapan niya ko at muli'y padabog na naupo sa sofa. She's throwing tantrums at me again. Hobby na yata n'ya na kumbinsihin akong tawagan na si Ken para papuntahin dito sa America. A day won't end without her endless rants about our complicated relationship. Minsan nga'y naiisip kong botong-boto siya kay Ken kahit na alam niya ang mga pagkakamali ng lalaking 'yun sakin. Maybe she sees something in him that's very worthy of another chance.

"Ikaw lang naman ang may gusto ng set up niyo. He's more than willing to be your slave but you chose to be away from him and hurt yourself even more. So don't you dare use that excuse to me. I'm not gullible."

She rolled her eyes once again and gave me sarcastic smile. "It's too lame and corny, bunso. Nagmumukha kang trying hard sa pagiging okay." Napailing na lang ako sa matatalim niyang komento. Sanay na ko sa pangangaral niya but at the end of the day sumusuko pa rin siya at hinahayaan ako sa desisyong pinili ko.

Masayang kaming nagkwentuhan ni Ate tungkol sa mga bagay na dati'y hindi namin magawang iopen sa isa't isa. In a span of months we became best friends that no one would ever imagine. Well, everything will be possible as long as you spend time and effort on it. I believe that someday, just like our relationship, my love for Ken will fall in its rightful place.