Somebody To Call Mine (Completed)

KABANATA XLIII

KABANATA XLIII: Pieces

KEN'S POV
 

My heart was pounding and my mind is racing. I don't know what to do or think right now. S-she just broke up with me right after we shared our first night together. After all the love I've showered her she chose to leave me.

She chose to break my heart. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko magsisimula ngayon. Naguguluhan ako sa mga nangyare. I thought we're okay. I thought we're good and settling down in time but I woke up feeling so empty knowing that this day or my whole life will be fvcked up because she chose to shattered my heart into bits and pieces.

I slowly got up and immediately my eyes searched for her. Did she really leave me? Totoo ba ang lahat ng ito? Lumabas ako sa kwarto niya kahit nanginginig sa takot ang buo kong katawan. She turned her back without even glancing at me.

We're over, Ken. This is our endgame.

Until now, her voice is resonating. Endgame? Bakit? Bakit kailangang may end game kami? Hindi ba pwedeng unlimited ang level ng relasyon at hindi darating sa puntong kailangan ng end game. Hindi ako nakikipaglaro sakanya kaya hindi ko kailangan ng end game na sinasabi niya.

But she's true to her word. She left. She treated me like a dirt na ganun lang kadali alisin sa buhay niya. Na isang sabi lang niya ng tapos na kami ay tapos na talaga.

Why is it so easy for her to break up with me when she spent decades loving that guy from afar. Why is she doing this to me?

I never beg for someone's love. I never exerted so much effort for a girl but for her I did everything out of my league. Kinaya kong masaktan ng paulit-ulit basta kasama ko siya. Basta alam kong sa pagtatapos ng araw sakin siya.

Pero ngayong siya mismo ang tumapos ng lahat at nagsabing hindi niya ko mahal nawalan na ko ng pag-asang sa pagtatapos ng araw na to sakin pa rin siya.

That her heart still beat for me. That her mind still thinks of me.

After all this time, she still loved him. Mahal pa rin niya ang lalaking paulit-ulit siyang sinaktan at pinagpalit ako na handang ibigay ang lahat sakanya.

It is a fact that I can't accept. It hurt so much that I wanted to die.

"Mandy, where are you?" sigaw ko sa ulanan.

I'm desperate for her. Hindi pwedeng dito na lang to. Kailangang may lumaban para saming dalawa at kung hindi niya kaya yun I'll do my fvcking best to fight for our love.

"Baby, please show yourself. I love you!" but no one came.

She didn't show up.

I smiled bitterly under the cold shower of the rain. Is this really the way you wanted to end everything? Ganito ba talaga?

With my mind clouded and my consciousness almost slipping away I reached our humble abode. Kailangan ko ang kaisa-isang babae na alam kong hindi ako ipagpapalit kahit kaninong tao sa mundo. I know she'll accept and hug me no matter what.

I need my mom.

I kept my gaze on her back. She's my ideal woman yet when I found someone like her she ended up being the worst nightmare of my life.

"M-Ma." My voice strained.

I am this weak without Mandy. Ganito ako kavulnerable sa lahat pag wala siya. She's my happiness and without her my life will be nothing but a plain canvass.

No life.

No reason to live.

I ran into my mother's arms and poured everything I feel inside. "I lost her, Ma. I lost Mandy." At tuluyan na kong nawalan ng control sa emosyon ko. I started crying in her arms.