My bad decisions of today will reflect on my future and tomorrow... whether good or bad, I hope good, I can make it good if I keep my chin up and held high, but god damn lately especially today it has been hard, for the first time in awhile I let my head sulk low, I hit hard on the vape and hurt myself for the first time in awhile, will I regret this? Yes, but I'll take the words of other's and make this my weapon for tomorrow, the suicidal thoughts will haunt me for tonight though, whispering in my ear telling me that no one gives a damn if I die tonight or not, telling me death is a sweet sin of relief, but do I believe them is the question? I'm not sure is the answer I will speak, personally I wish to not hear or believe them, but tonight my light is turned off which is the hardest because tonight I am blind as I sip my coffee which I'm trying to use as a better way to distract myself then cutting and vaping. I will not fall into these bad habits like my ancestors did. I have to be stronger then them. I got too.
