It seems I can never be happy.
Not in the way that I can't "feel" happiness but in the way the universe will not allow it.
Because it appears that my joy becomes aggravating to the people around me.
That my hyperness is irritating and angers the ones I share it with.
So with that i'll stop.
I'll stop showing my joy.
I'll quiet my laughter and limit my smiles.
If my joy hurts the ones around me I'll stop.
If it makes them happy I'll even disappear.
If it'll bring everyone together with joy I'll change.
For them. Not for me. I'll change.
- change is what everyone demands thats why no one accepts flaws anymore
