Without You • K.TH

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"I'm still your friend"

This sentence has been repeating itself in my mind since last night.

Even though he told me that's it's okay and that we'll still be friends, I still can't help but feel guilty and selfish?

Like everything is my fault?

I held my head tightly and yelled my frustration out.

I feel like shit.

Is he going to change towards me?

Will I change?

No, I will not, I'm just going to act like nothing happened and keep on being his friend.

I just hope we act the same way and that we don't become awkward with each other.

I simply want everything to stay normal and not change.

But, I already feel like it changed.

Like I changed.

Like my thoughts changed.

Taehyung's point of view

I'm glad that I confessed to her, it feels like something is off my chest now.

But I still feel empty, like I'm cold from the inside.

Like I'm lonely.

I groaned as I threw myself on my bed.

Pictures of her kept playing in my mind.

At that moment, I realized how much she meant to me.

But at the same time how afraid I am.

Afraid of losing her.

Afraid that she would leave me.

Like Jenna did.

I shook the negative thoughts and laid my head on the pillow.

End of point of view

I opened my eyes and turned my alarm off, dragging my body from the bed and to the bathroom.

I turned the water on and took a long relaxing shower to help me freshen up.

Spring break is over and I'll be back to studying .

It's been three days and I've been home, cleaning.

Fun right?

I haven't seen Taehyung yet and it's not that we didn't want to see each other.

No, not at all.

We were just busy doing our own things.

"Can you get me your phone charger, I forgot mine"

I rolled my eyes at Lena's text and shoved my charger in my bag.

It's the first day we're back after a tiny break and she's already forgetting shit.

I slid my shoes on and grabbed my car keys before leaving.

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