The Unreachable Wife

42-A Man's Word

Lander gently kissed me on the forehead. He was still on top of me. Panting and sweating. Nakatulala ako habang humahangos na nakatitig sa kisame. My arms were wide open and my legs were parted. I was ecstatic but at the same time stunned. We just had our most sensual sex. Kung gaano kagaspang ang huling sex namin sa Villa Rafael, ganoon naman naging kasobrang gentle at passionate si Lander. My heart was still pounding and the pleasure wasn't fully subsiding. Ito na yata ang isa sa pinakamasarap na sex namin. It would be my most unforgettable one... because he exploded inside me.

Umalis siya sa ibabaw ko at latang latang dumapa sa braso ko. I stared at his tired face with an open mouth. Tinitigan niya rin ako sabay ngumiti nang tipid. "Nagustuhan mo ba dahil ako gustong-gusto ko," he whispered sexily while catching his breath.

"Y-Yes..." sagot ko. Walang dahilan para magsinungaling at di ko rin kailangang itago ang katotohanang nagulat ako sa ginawa niya. "Love why did you do it?" maingat at malumanay na pagkakasabi ko.

"Because I have no more reason not to," diretsong sagot niya. " We're not getting any younger, umpisahan na nating buuhin ang ating pamilya." Inipit niya ang buhok ko sa aking tenga. "Ilang anak ba ang gusto mo?" ngiti niya.

Napalunok ako. I didn't expect him to bring up that serious matter.

"Ayaw mo pa?" His brows furrowed. My facial reaction could not really lie to him.

"H-Hindi naman sa ganun love. Kaya lang sana kapag talagang open na yung relasyon natin sa public saka natin planuhin ang tungkol sa bagay na yan."

He lied on his back with dissatisfaction on what I said. "Ganun din yun ba't pa natin hihintayin. Kahit makabuo tayo ngayon ilang buwan pa bago mahalata ng tao yang tiyan mo."

"P-Pero love baka di na ako makapagtrabaho nang maayos."

"Problema ba yun? Maglie-low ka muna sa trabaho," determinado niyang sabi.

"Love naman may mga commitment pa akong dapat tuparin," kumbinsi ko.

"This is my decision. This time ako naman ang masusunod. When we plan things, naeextend lang lagi o di natutuloy. Nagtiis na ako. I was the only stupid husband in this country who wouldn't climax inside his wife. But that changes now. Simula ngayon ikakakalat ko na sa loob ng katawan mo hanggang ang kahuli-hulihang similya ko." Ipinatong niya ang kanyang braso sa noo. Nakatiim bagang siya at magkatagpo ang mga kilay,hudyat na hindi ako pwedeng makipag-argumento.

Nanahimik ako. I slowly covered myself with blanket. Still feeling his juice between my legs. Mabubuntis na ba agad ako? Sabi nila at my age di naman daw ganun kadaling mabuntis. Pero kapag di na nga siya magwiwithdrawal, tiyak na mabubuntis pa rin ako. Hindi pa ako ready. Not that I wasn't excited to give him our first born. Kaya lang kung magbubuntis ako, ayoko ng pressured, maraming iniisip at stressed. These things could have effects on the baby. I want to enjoy my pregnancy days as much as possible. Tatapusin ko muna lahat ng commitments ko hanggang maari. After that, I'll focus on pregnancy matter. But Lander will definitely not listen to these reasons. I can't blame him, he's frustrated enough about the delay of the revelation of our relationship.

Should I take contraceptives secretly? Isip ko habang naniningkit ang mga matang nakatitig sa kisame.

"Huwag na huwag kang magkakamaling uminom ng pills o anumang mga contraceptives." Napalingon ako sa kanya sabay lunok. Why is he so good in reading my mind?

Then should I follow rhythm method? I quickly counted inside my head from the day I had my period.

"We aren't going to schedule our sex. When I want it or you want it, we'll do it. No deprivation of our basic rights."