Ice skate with your heart

Sixty

Rocco's POV
I woke up hungover as fuck. I don't remember what I did. All I remember is drinking and throwing my phone.

I got up had a shower to wash my body off and brush my teeth before going downstairs. Everyone was in the kitchen.
"Did you guys not go to school?" I ask grabbing orange juice.
"It's 4 in the afternoon Rocco." Declan told me.

"Do any of you guys know what I did last night because my head is banging." I sat sitting down.
"I'm going to kill him." Liam mumbles.

"What did I do?" I ask and Liam straight up attacked me.
"Dude what the fuck?" I ask back against the counter hands up.

"Liam let him go." Kate told him as he strangles me.
I strangle him back until he taps out.

"Can you not? What did I do?" I ask looking around.
Lia leaves and I go after her.
"Lia? What did I do?" I asked.
"You drank yourself to the point we thought you were dead somewhere. Not a call not a text nothing!" She shouts and everything thing comes flooding back.

"I'm sorry. I just needed time to think." I tell her but she storms off.
I walk back in the kitchen and sat down.
"If you want to kick me out I understand." I say siping on the juice.

"No were concerned about you."Kate told me.
"If it's about what I said to Declan last night it was drunk me talking." I excuse myself.
"A drunk mans words are a sober mans thoughts." Declan says.

"So now you want to talk to me? I'm fine. I'm working on it. It's all cool." I tell them leaning back.
"Rocco you told me you couldn't cope with Sami and now a new born is possibly on its way you freaked out. You even cried." No way I cried. I'm not that week.

"No. I didn't. Look I understand your concerned for me but I promise I'm ok." I say.
"No. Your sitting down to talk about it now. Coach texted me about what you talked about last night, you sounded vulnerable to him."

"Guys I know you care but I'm not vulnerable and I'm fine. Ok? So can we stop talking about this so I can talk to Lia." They nod and I got out that kitchen fast.

I went up to Lia and she gave me a look and I knew she didn't want to speak to me.
"Lia can you hear me out why." I say sitting on the bed.
"I don't want to hear it." I moved her to face me.

"Rocco get off me!"
"I need you to listen to me. Lia! I know your angry that I say we can't have it. Because as I told your dad and coach yesterday I can't get my head around it. I keep asked you if you think I'm doing a good job with Sami because all I want is the best for both kids. But with another one I can't cope. I'm stressed out already and yesterday was my breaking point. Your parents wanted to talk about me not coping but I didn't want to, do you want to know why? Because I don't want to be seen as weak. As I grow guy given responsibilities that he can't handle and I can't do this because there's a small thing inside of me telling me I'll never be good enough. Good enough for you, Sami, your family and not for this kid. I'm sorry." I tell her everything trying to to cry because I'm a man.

She hugged me and I broke down further. "I love you so much and I don't want to lose you over the fact that I'm not man enough to take care of our child." I sob. Rocco man, keep it together.

"I love you too. I don't think your any less manly for asking for help. We all need help and you are more than enough for all of us. Sami looks up to you and I adore you and before all of this your my dads favourite boyfriend I've had. Don't ever feel like your not enough because you are and if you feel like that talk to me. I'm your girlfriend I'm here for you and your here for me." I love this girl so much.

"Rocco, if you need help then you can talk to us. I've told you before it doesn't make you any less of a man to ask." Declan came in to say.

"I know but I don't talk about my feelings." I tell them.
"Why?" Kate asks.
"It's a sign of weakness. Suck it up and get over any problems you have." They just nod.

"Sorry mum and dad can we have privacy so we can talk more?" Lia asks.
"Yeah." They left us shutting the door behind them.

"So what should we do about this baby?" She asks.
"Let's keep it. I will learn to cope and I don't want to let it go." I say with my hand on her stomach.

"So I'm going through my pregnancy?" I nod and she smiles.
"We're going to have a little boy or girl." I tell her and she hugs me tight almost flipping us over.

"You know you'd have to be more careful. No more fighting and ice hockey and figure skating and dangerous things like that." I tell her.
"So stop being me." I nod and she hits my head.

"Ow! What?! Your a violent person and I'd like to keep this child safe." I tell her lifting her top just to under her bra.

"Ok that's fair." And rolls her eyes.
I get to eye level if her soon to be bump.

"Hey little guy."
"Or girl." She buts in.
"Or girl. I'm your dad and if you loved hockey then that would be great. If not you can like something like books or something like that. I still love you anyway." I say kissing her stomach.

"We have to tell the boys." I tell her.
"Send a video." She says and I get out my phone and roll down her top.

"So guys when a mummy and daddy love each other very much they push each other's belly buttons and create a baby" I say recording.

I lift up her top and pressing her belly button. Then she presses mine.
"So Lia what does this mean?" I face the camera up to her.

"I'm pregnant!" She does jazz hands and we just burst out in laughter.
I stop recording and send it to the hockey group chat.

Let's see how they respond.