Hearts full of tickets

We'd have to say goodbye

On our way home something felt awkward. I sat in my chair and just shook nervously. I was always comfortable around Chanyeol but I felt there was something he was holding back. As we got closer to the house Chanyeol pulled over. He rested his head on the wheel. He looked back up and I could see a tear stream down his face.
"Baby babe. " I placed my hand on his shoulder. He looked down and away from me.
"Chanyeolie. " I said softly as I wiped his tears and grabbed his hand.
"Emi. " he sadly replied.
"Yes? " I asked.
"This life sucks. " Chanyeol said before falling into deeper and harder tears.
"You know you don't mean that. " I told him as I rubbed his head softly.
"Yes I do. " He shook.
"Chan what's the matter." i asked.
"I don't.. " He couldn't reply to me.
"Chanyeol? " he took a deep breathe in, started the car, and finished going up the road to the house. When we parked he got out and walked inside without me. I sat in the car and layer my head back tears in my eyes.
"Why? What did I do again?! Why do I suck at being a person? I can't date a celebrity. Who do I think I am? I'm just a normal person. " I placed my hands in my palms as that was the only thing to hold me in this confusing moment. Just as I went to look up a heard a knock on the window and saw Sehun. I opened the door and grabbed my bag. As I stood up in front of him he pulled me into a hug.
"Sehun. " I sighed.
"It's okay. " He said squeezing me a little tighter.
"What did I do wrong this time? " I shook.
"It wasn't you." He said.
"Then why am I crying? " I asked.
He pulled me off of him and wiped my tears.
"Because you have always cried if Chanyeol was. Life isn't fair princess and your new to this life. This life isn't fair." he explained.
"Sehun I want to go home. " I admit.
He stayed silent and took in a deep breath.
"Let's go inside. " he said as he took me under his arm. As we slowly walked in I wiped away my tears. Suho looked at me and grabbed my hand.
"Come with me. " he said as we walked away from all the other members in that loving room. We want to the other living room and I sat on the couch.
"Suho what's going on? " I asked.
"The manager thinks we all are getting distracted. " he said
"What I don't understand? " I explained.
"Emerald... The manager said the way you received an opportunity of being an artist is unfair. Students become trainees and no matter if they have talent they have to go through the struggles and stress. The fact of you being in our house seems to take away from us actually working. We care and pay attention to you since you are a female and different from us all. Soon we will go on tour in a few days and... " Suho paused.
I placed my hand on his and just knoded my head. I understood and realized why Chanyeol was crying.
"I get it... I can't go. " I said. Suho knoded his head.
"I'm sorry I'm the one who has to tell you this. I don't... I.. I don't want you to go. " he said as he placed his hands over his eyes. I wrapped my arms around Suho.
"Suho I don't want to go. " I cried.
"None of us want you to go." He said.
"And now I have to cancel with K. Will. " I stated.
"Yes. " he sighed.
"Suho... " I said.
"Ne? " he replied.
"Do I have a flight home already? " I asked. He shook his head.
"When? " I asked.
"In the morning. " he said.
"Do I? " I looked at him and he half smiled out of sorrow.
"You have to say your goodbyes now. When you go to bed we will wake you up and our security will take you. Your flight will be landing at a home not an airport but a location in the woods of Tennessee where Suga has a home for you and him. There is security and such there. BTS is on tour but the home will be for you until they come back." He explained.
" Okay I'm going to go say my goodbyes now. " I pointed.
"Don't worry about your bags. Chanyeol already packed all your stuff. " Suho said.
"Can you check on him? Before I go up there." I asked.
"He doesn't like being disturbed by anyone but if it's you he will be okay. " Suho explained.
I stood up and made my way to the living room where all the members were.
"Well. " I said as I walked into the room.
I could hear sighs and sniffles from everywhere.
"I truly truly as an ExoL enjoyed my time at this house. Not only this house but in the presence of all you wonderful members. Never would I have thought I would have made it here. Literally my dreams coming true and the men I love before my eyes. Meeting all the celebrities I have met this year is absolutely mind blowing. This year and so of being in this presence and areas of famous people has been a life changer for me. Yet life isn't fair and... It's time for me to go home. I don't know when I'll see you all again or even I will." I began crying. Never could I have thought I'd go back home not being able to spend time with Exo. This was my family.
"I'm going to miss you all. " I walked up one by one to each member and gave them a hug. When I got to Baekhyun he squeezed me so tight my heart in a way hurt. I couldn't believe this was it. That this was the last of it. I was one away from a goodbye and a flight back to my new hometown of Tennessee. When I let go of Baekhyun he handed me a card.
"What's this? " I asked looking at it.
"It's an ID card. " he said.
"For? " I looked at him.
"Where ever we are. You can get into the concert free and backstage. It unlimited and it never expires. When you get the chance please I beg of you come see us. " I hugged him once more.
"Thank you thank you. I will take care of this. " I smiled. I waved and bowed as I walked out of the room. I slowly made my way upstairs. When I made it to Chanyeols room I went to go knock but I could hear him crying...at the door. I bent down and sat on the floor. Facing toward the stairs I placed my back on the door.
"Take me home. I'm the idiot that smiles at everything. My heart is breaking please I don't want to do this. I'm not happy. Emerald I'm sorry. I'm a horrible boyfriend. I already miss you. " He said.
"Chanyeol.. Breath.. I don't want you to hurt. " was all I could say through the door. I could hear him sniffle and wipe his tears.
"Oppa you didn't do anything wrong. I'm not going to say that it's going to be okay because I know it won't be. I've only ever gotten through life because of you and the thought of me having to leave...it's just killing me. Chanyeol your my everything. The last thing I want to do is spend my last few hours talking to you through a door.. Baby please open the door. " I said as I placed my hand on the door.
"I'm not ready. " he coughed.
"Neither am I but we knew we'd have to say goodbye. " I admit. I heard the door knob turn.
"There you go. " the door slowly creaked open.
I seen him sitting on the floor he still looked angelic although his eyes we're red. I crawled to him and looked at him. He quickly sprung forward and embraced me in a hug.
"Can I. " shhh he cut me off.
"Don't say anything just just sh." I squizzed him tighter and let one last tear go. He let me go and fixed my hair.
"What am I going to do? " he asked.
"Your going to live. We both will. " I said.
"You sure." He asked.
"I'm positive.. But I'm curious. " I said as I sat down and grabbed his hands.
"What are we going to be? " I asked.
He held onto my hands tight.
"I.. I don't know. I don't know how long I'll be gone or what's going to happen." He explained.
"Can we fight? " I asked him.
"Fight? " he asked.
"I'm not going to break up with you Chanyeol. I can't and I won't. " I explained.
"I won't either." He smiled
"That's the Chanyeol I like to see.. Now baby what bothers you? " I asked.
"Not much just unfair life." He stated
"Ah I understand. " I said as I leaned in to kiss him.
"I'm going to shower and then I'll come back. " I said.
"I'll be waiting." he said.
I quickly rushed to get into the shower and out. With my pajamas on I went to his room and got into bed cuddling with him.
"I love you. " Chanyeol said.
"I love you too. So so much Park Chanyeol. " I hugged him and layed my head in his chest.
"Babe I want to give you a promise." He sat up in bed and grabbed a little box. He slowly opened it with a smile.
A small diamond ring.
"It's a promise that I will come back to you. No matter how long, no matter what I do. I'll always come back to you because you are my one and only. Also that my manager won't be able to separate us. " he winked at me. He gave me a kiss and the rest of the night was history.