Michael Cliffords Rebel Sister

32: silence

April

After luke fell asleep I went to take a shower.
I undressed and climbed into the glass box.

Warm water started to dribble Down onto my skin and bead off in places. I looked at my arms as I was going to wash them and saw all my old scars.

Yess old because I've stopped harming myself. I don't know if I'll stay clean forever but it's been almost 2 months with out a blade.

I ran my fingers over the 'I'm sorry' scar and laughed at how ironic this is.

I finished up and hopped out.

It was now 9 am and nobody was awake yet.

I got changed into lazy clothes and a big hoodie since I was cold. The hoodie gave me sweater paws as I curled up on the coach.

It wasn't very comfortable so I got up and walked around the bus.

I made my way twards the back to play video games.

I put GTA in the xbox and started it up. Usually killing a few people will cheer me up. Not in a psycho way I just love GTA it's the best game everrrr.

In the game I was driving really fast and found one of those ramps that are on the edge of the highways. I sped my car up since it was about to explode. Due to my reckless driving I made it to the ramp and flew off just as my car exploded.

"FUCK YESS BITCH" I yelled as I saw it happen.

I get a little too exited.oops.

I sat back down and started to play again.

Luke walked into the room glaring at me.

"Would you shut the fuck up" he yelled at me.

I flinched a bit knowing he probably would hurt me if he wanted.

"Sorry, someone's on their guy period" I mumble.

I stood up to leave but was slammed into the wall.

I whimper in pain as my head smacks into the wall.

"What was that" he grits through his teeth.

"Luke you're hurting me" I whimper.

" oops" he smirks.

He let's go and sits down on the been bag I was previously on.

I leave the room as a tear falls down my face. I grab my white converse and leave.

I walk to the nearest Starbucks and order a carmel coffee and sit down.

Silent tears slide down my face.
What did I do.
Why would he hurt me?
I should just go home.

"April" a familiar voice says.

I look up wiping away tears and see alex. What?

"Alex" I say.

"What's wrong? " He asks.

"Nothing I'm great. What are you doing here? " I say trying to change the subject.

"April you were crying you can tell me" he says.

"It's nothing really I just messed things up with a good friend" I say quietly.

"It'll be okay. Trust me." He smiles taking the seat across from me.

"Hey Umm, what are you doing in the US not being rude" I smile.

"Tour that's why I broke up with you I just didn't think long distance would work. I'm really sorry" he says sadly.

"No no I get it its okay" I smile.