Selfharm/depressed/Dark poems

part 5

-So hi to anyone who bothers reading my poems :D aha, im not happy, been kind of depressed lately.. this guy im inlove with is leading me on, saying im his one and only... bullshit :/ i seen photos of him and another girl gosh.. i hate but love him.. im confused.. so im going to write self harm lyrics down,

-" I try to be different but im constantly victimized,

i know deep inside thats its wrong to be this despised

still you cant help but believe your to blame

your hearts aching strongly

when you breath your in pain

you keep what your feeling hidden from your family

you dont want them knowing you dig in your anatomy

then you fall into another deep depression

your eyes turn teary before you start your session

as you hold the blade you say

"this will fix it all, the new scars will never be discovered if the slits are small"

then once again you puncture your skin

one can think what you wonder within

you have something near to help whipe the blood away

in your life this is just any other day

you hate life you cant wait for morality

as self harm becomes your escape from reality

tears stream out like a current in a river

you try to self reflect but theres nothing in the mirror

your life seems to crumble and fall to pieces

your questioning life and all its reasons

"why am i still alive the world is better without me, i already know theres no one out there to help me"

then you remember how the pain away as you think

"ill use this razor blade on my vein today"

so you line the blade up

amongst the other scars

you push it down and pull it back and make another cut

a couple minutes pass and you still havent asked what your gaining from this risk?

So this is the song, i forgot who wrote it and whats its called but i like the lyrics its understands the thoats that went threw my head when i got bullied alot and self-harmed alot,

im inrecovery again.. my arm is wicked scarred up :// im trying to stay strong believe me! i am i know its hard to just 'stop' but im not gaining much from this addiction.. an addiction is a slow suicide, i really got to stop completely instead of slipping up now and then, im staying as strong as i can be, so you should be strong to, its okay to break sometimes, but remember pick yourself up, and stay strong ♥ i love you wonderful people (:

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