I wanted someone to catch me.
Someone to glue me back togther and for some odd reason, i was still hoping that person would be him.
But i knew it wouldn't be.
He promised me he'd always be here when i need him, but where was he now?
I was hoping the same person who had broken me could fix me, but i knew it didn't work like that.
I kept hoping the thing that had knocked me down would pull me back up.
I kept wishing that if i were to crash and burn again,he'd be there to rescue me,
to pick me back up and catch me this time.
But with that hope all i was doing was breaking myself more.
I had to realize he wasn't there for me anymore and i couldn't expect him to be any longer.
I had to accept that he wasn't going to catch me.
The thing that had dropped me,catch me?
Sounds funny to think that right?
But that was what i was hoping would happen.
Though with that i sunk farther, and farther into depression.
Till one day i decided I'd try to save myself.
I decided to try and be myself,by myself and to love myself,again.
I decided that only i could do this.
That i am in control of my own happiness.
He might have added to my happiness but i couldn't let him take it away too.
But i am still walking though this raging war, trying to detach myself from this person,
And slowly but surely i am trudging forward and forward into better days.
I am going to be there for myself,this time.
I am going to love myself,with all my broken pieces.
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She's lost In A Sea Of Poetry
PoetryA sea of poetry, of metaphors and similes written by me