For The First Time In A Long Time.
For the first time in a long time;
I actually have some direction.
For the first time in a long time;
I see the path ahead of me, instead of guessing my way.
For the first time in a long time;
I know what I want-what I need.
For the first time in a long time;
I feel.. Happy.
For the first time in a long time;
I'm relieved, a huge weight has been dropped from my shoulders.
For the first time in a long time;
I'm going to do something for myself.
I was a fool for trying to fix a broken relationship.
I was a fool for trying to help someone who clearly doesn't want help.
I was a fool for really believing my heart was talking.. When it was all my head.
I can no longer be held back in my life.
I can no longer destroy myself while I fix others.
I need to let go of everything.
I've been stuck in this for far to long..
I don't regret the years we had together.
You will always be my first love.
But now, you are like boulder, attached to my leg.
I'm trying-I'm trying so hard- to push forward.
But you don't allow me to move onward.
You hold me back.
I need to cut you loose.
I need to cut everything loose and go it alone.
I need to figure myself out.
I want to be alone.
I don't want a new relationship.
I just want to re-discover myself.
I'm climbing into the slingshot and now I'm finally ready to shoot forward.
For the first time in a long time;
I'm putting myself first.
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