Your UnSlut Project

Submitted by Anonymous

This recently happened a couple of days ago. I had given my Kik to a boy. I had also given my phone number, too, just because he asked for it. I didn't know what we were going to talk about, so I thought I'd just let nature take its course. We were what he would call friends, but me being me, I would label him as an acquaintance along with everyone else I talk to. He had already sent me a Kik message two days prior, and I had said hi back, but now I fully regret this whole situation.

He replied with, "Finally!" then referred to me as "A Cup." He had done that before, but then denied it after I questioned him.

I told him, "If you're trying to guess my boob size, that's not it."

He said, "I am, because I'm freaky."

I told him he was a pervert; he said, "No I'm not, but you are."

Now enraged, I said, "I'm not trying to guess your fucking dick size, am I? No, so how am I the pervert?"

He said, "Just talking about it gets me hard."

I responded with, "Stop that's gross."

He said, "But I want you."

I replied, "I don't care, pick someone else."

He said, "No."

I said, "Why?"

He said because he kinda likes me. I responded minutes later with, "Well that's a first." I was going to respond with a paragraph on how no one really likes me, so I didn't know how to be nice about it, but I thought that was too touchy-feely, me being a person who always hides their feelings.

So he asked later, "Do you like me?" My heart dropped. I didn't want him to get hurt. I didn't respond. He then later said, "I guess that means no."

Then the next day, he said, "You want to know the truth?"

I said, "Sure. I'm not really sure what we're talking about, but okay."

He then said, "I'm hard right now and it's because of you." I felt like crying. I dropped my phone and walked away.

He then said, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that." But then later, he said, "Can I ask you dirty questions?"

I still didn't respond to him. He later said never mind, he really wasn't sorry. He lied to me and now I'm the one feeling trapped and violated. 

I later realized what actually happened - he used my body for his sick perverted dreams. I'm ready to cry because I don't know what to do. I felt violated. I don't usually cry, I'm always keeping my feelings in captivity, but now I can't keep it in.

I can't tell my mom, because she doesn't approve of Kik, and if she finds out I'm talking to boys she'll tell everyone, including my stepdad (who thinks he has authority over me). Plus the day it happened, my stepdad said, "You better not be talking to boys."

I told one of my acquaintances since she's the closest to me, but she took it as a joke. I can't even say it out loud, I get too flustered and start stuttering. I know it seems like I'm overreacting but the other day I was panicking and shaking, and tears welled up in my eyes stressing over it. I didn't know what to do and I still don't know, no one is really here to help me.