Her Neverland [ Louis Tomlinson]

Chapter 25 : "Penny For Your Thoughts"

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Chapter 25

HARMONY'S POV

I maybe got to the lobby before I couldn't keep the tears that had been welling up from falling anymore. They fell relentlessly as I trudged towards the hotel door with my hair hanging in front of my face, willing myself to not look back. Everything hurt and my thoughts were dazed. I couldn't quite process what had just happened.

I guess I honestly saw it coming. You can only push something so far before it falls. My time with Louis was ticking away and I knew it but I didn't do anything to stop it. I'm weak and stupid and...

"Harmony?" A deep familiar voice called to me. His tone was confused and I couldn't blame him. I must have looked a little strange sobbing in the lobby of some nice hotel tugging my suitcase along hurriedly behind me.

"Harmony, wait up!" He called again but I didn't slow my pace or look back. I knew that he already didn't care for me. Seeing me leaving will just make him happy.

"Harmony," He started as he grabbed a hold of my upper arm but halted when I whipped around towards him. His green eyes filled with worry, which I didn't expect, and his lips flattened into a thin line.

"What? What could you possibly want Harry?" I know I sounded harsher then I meant but after I had remained strong before Louis, I felt all of my anguish finally overflowing.

"W-what's wrong, Harmony?" Harry inquired sounding unsure of himself, like he knew he probably shouldn't ask. But against better judgment, he still asked.

I stood up straighter and wiped at the tears that were still sliding down my cheeks. "Nothing's wrong. Everything is fine, Harry." My lie could have easily passed for believable till my voice wavered at the end. The twang of pain that passed through Harry's eyes at my broken state was my breaking point.

Turning, I tried to get away from Harry as quickly as I could; to run away from all of this madness and hide in my self-piteous state. But Harry swiftly lunged forward, firmly grabbing ahold of my arm yet again. I weakly let my body be dragged towards him so we were face to face. Feeling physically exhausted, I gave up whatever fight I may have had left.

"I don't buy that for a second. Something is seriously wrong and I know that I may have seemed like an uncaring dick before, but I care, Harmony. Please tell me what's happened." Harry pleaded with me and I searched his face.

Skimming over his deep caring green eyes, I sighed deeply before looking down to the worn hotel floor. "Louis broke up with me so I'm currently on my way to catch the next flight back to London." My voice was barely above a whisper, as I knew that I couldn't possible speak loudly with this crushing feeling inside of me.

Harry's eyes widened and his mouth gaped the slightest bit. "Is this about what happened yesterday?" He inquired as his grip on my arm lessened and I was able to take a step back. Obviously my scene I'd made yesterday had gotten around. Now it will seem that everyone is talking about me and just how crazy I am.

I shrugged my shoulders uncertainly. "I'm not quite sure but I would have to say that that is the reason. He's done looking after me." I began to drift off dazedly. "It was fun while it lasted." Snapping back to attention, I wiped at my eyes one more time and straightened myself up again. "Well Harry, it was a pleasure to meet you and I will honestly miss you all terribly. But I'll be heading off now. Good bye."

Wrapping my arms halfheartedly around Harry's shoulders, I pulled myself away and sent him a sad smile that probably looked more like a grimace and finally made it out the door. But unfortunately before I could ride away in a taxi or something, Harry stopped me again.

"Let me take you to the airport and pay for your ticket, please." He pleaded gently and I couldn't help but narrow my eyes. I'm not a big fan of being pitied and that's all he seemed to be doing.

"I don't need your pit-" I began but Harry interrupted me.

"I know but I want to make right my wrongs. So I want to be there for you, be a friend. You need a friend, Harmony. It's not good to build up walls and block people out." Harry stated and I couldn't help but feel an eerie familiarity to his words. It reminded me of something my mom had requested of me when I had laid in my bed, locked away in my room for the longest time. I didn't let any close to me then and I felt the need to do it again. But Harry's expression was breaking down my walls.

Taking Harry's large hand in my small one, I looked towards the bustling street before us. "Lead the way, Styles."

"Here's your ticket." I barely heard Harry through the fog my mind was under. My mind kept replaying everything that happened and I couldn't seem to really understand that this was all over. Louis' vacant expression as he said what he had. He looked as if he wasn't really there, as if someone else had taken him over. As if someone was trying desperately to break me down. Well they had achieved because I really loved Louis and now I can't have him. This was what I was afraid of before all of these feelings started to occur. He'd just realize it wasn't worth it.

"Harmony? Your ticket?" Harry questioned cautiously while nudging my flight ticket in my direction. Finally pulling my mind from this fog, I sent Harry a thankful smile and grabbed the ticket from him. Harry smiled reassuringly but I could still see how tense he was.

Turning back to stare out the huge windows looking out to the boarding planes, I began to wish I could be something like a plane. Or just fly, to never have to stay and get acquainted with anyone or anything besides the vast and never ending sky. I could tell that Harry took a seat beside me. Sighing deeply, Harry nudged my arm trying to get my attention.

"Penny for your thoughts." I could hear the weary tone drenching his words.

Turning back to look him in the eyes, "I shouldn't have opened my window that first night. I shouldn't have taken his table once I recognized him. I shouldn't have fallen in love with him. And most of all, I should have died with Ben." As those words left my lips I realized how true they were. I'm completely numb now as my last single tear slips dangerously slow down my cheek almost as if time has slowed down tremendously.

A strong hand grabbed my chin roughly making me look into his eyes. "I honestly never want to hear you say something like that again. Harmony, I know that Louis loved you, just the way he looked at you. I'm not completely sure how what happened yesterday would turn everything around so much but he still loves you. And he would be devastated if he heard you say that." Harry warned me with a dangerous edge to his voice. "You shouldn't have died with Ben. You are meant to live happily and please never think like that.

My breathing had picked up in pace as I tried greatly to not let any more tears fall. I could feel my chin trembling and lips pulling together in a thin line. Nodding roughly, I moved my chin out of Harry's grasp.

Thankfully before Harry could get out another word, they called my flight and I shot from my seat. Fleetingly sending Harry a single glance, I smiled tightly. "Thank you for this, Harry. Goodbye." I murmured before leaving him sitting there with a harsh look.

Handing the lady my ticket, I found my seat promptly and straightaway leaned back, shutting my eyes, trying to block out my tumbling world. The flight began seamlessly but I couldn't seem to catch a break. I remained completely conscious through the beginning, catching people's knowing and judging glances, which could have been easily imagined but there were too many to be imagined.

The feeling of being watched lessened as sleep began to consume me and before I knew it, I was waking up on a desolate plane, reaching for my carry on and heading out. Leaving behind my Peter Pan and those silly Lost Boys.