Forbidden Desires [jikook]

Chapter 13

CONTINUATION...

Jimin paced around the lounge. He knew Jungkook would be here any moment now. He had taken a shower and changed into shorts and a white dress shirt. He looked pretty and simple. He smelled good like every day. He heard the car coming up the driveway, and he took a few deep breaths. Calming himself.

Jungkook got out of the car and strutted inside, even fixing the suit, which was his work uniform. He looked like the owner of this house. He rang the bell, and Jimin hurriedly rushed to open it.

"Hey." Jimin said nervously while looking up at Jungkook.

"We need to talk." Jungkook said, making his way inside. He walked towards the couch and sat down. The smaller followed behind slowly and sat right next to Jungkook. He placed his hand on Jungkook's thigh, but Jungkook removed it and shifted. He then sat and faced Jimin.

"O-kay... you seem serious." The smaller whispered.

"Jimin... I was doing a lot of thinking while driving here. And I know that you like this little arrangement that we have. Your husband goes to work, and we stay behind and fuck and make each other happy. Then he comes back, and everything goes back to normal for you. You become happy with him, and you don't think of me..."

"Jungkook, I think of..." Jungkook placed a finger on Jimin's soft lips.

"I'm trying to talk. Let me talk while I'm calmer." Jungkook demanded, the smaller gulped and nodded. He now had to keep quiet and let Jungkook speak.

"Jimin, do you want the truth? That night..  I didn't just kiss you because you were drunk. Ever since I met you, I've... I've had this really huge crush on you. I would look at you every day with your husband, and my heart ached because I wanted what you and Jaebeom had. I wanted you. But I have controlled myself since then. But that night... you wanted to kiss me and I... I saw the chance and decided to use it." Jungkook spoke, all while Jimin kept quiet and listened.

"Yes, we had sex... and it was wrong, I admit. I mean, fuck you're a married man. But for me, it wasn't just for fun. Do you even realize that I've been trying every day to find out what you like and don't like, I've been doing things that I know make you happy. Have you ever bothered to get to know me? Jeon Jungkook... a guy who has a huge fucking crush on you. Not the chauffer you're fucking behind your husband's back." Jungkook spoke from the heart. The smaller could only keep quiet. His heart was starting to ache. Jimin expected to be scolded and fucked afterwards. But it seems Jungkook has a totally different plan.

"Do you know how old I am? What do I like? My favorite color? Jimin, you don't know the basics about me, and I'm here looking like your diary, knowing everything about you. All this makes me wonder... is this really just about sex to you?" Jungkook asked.

The smaller kept quiet and looked down, fiddling with his little fingers. This is going totally different from what he planned.

"Answer me." Jungkook said.

"Oh, I thought you didn't want me to talk. But uhm... this, us... it's not just about sex. I mean, you're a cool person. You make me laugh. You care for me. You have my best interests at heart. You make me feel what my own husband doesn't make me feel. So... it's not just about sex." Jimin said in a soft voice.

"You know what I just realized? Everything you just said was about you. What I do for you. I make you happy, feel things, I care for you. What about me? What do you do for me?" Jungkook asked while looking at Jimin.

"You were attracted to me, and you wanted sex from me, so I gave..."

"IT WASN'T ABOUT THE DAMN SEX, GODDAMMIT. JIMIN, I AM ATTRACTED TO YOU BUT NOT ONLY SEXUALLY... like... let's be alone together and talk for hours, get to know me, let's go out to a really quiet place and enjoy nature. That's what I wanted. But I had to settle for whatever you gave me just to be part of your life. Sex was gonna come afterward." Jungkook said. He seemed really sad, and his face looked sincere.