Pleas of Futility

Pretty Little White Lies

October 4, 2023 10:30pm - October 6, 2023 2:18am

Oh I'm a liar
But I would never lie to you

Never lie about my feelings
Or my problems
Or that it's been years
And I can't solve them

I'd never lie about the tears I shed
Or how it's not often enough I shed them
Not about how desensitized I am
To all sorts of fucked up trauma

I'm a liar
But only on my worst days
When I pull my lips tight
And hide the answers written on my face

I'm a liar
And one hell of a control freak
And I'll repress everything bad
And all the rest I call "the real me"

I'll crack dark jokes
And hope that you trust this exterior
This outer layer
My whole demeanour

But I'm not an onion
I'm a vault.

And you're not getting any deeper.