Missing - JJ Maybank

Not okay.

Warning: The story is about to get very dark, so read at your own discretion. Rape is the main trigger warning and is mentioned a lot from here on out so I won't add a warning to every chapter.

Trigger Warning: Kidnapping, murder, violence.

Three days.

That's how long I've been hiding from everyone, it's stupid, I know. But I woke up remembering what happened while I was in that weird trance and I physically felt pain, and like I was going to throw up. I am incredibly thankful that my best friend is the amazing man he is because he stopped me from cheating, even though I was obviously in some kind of mental breakdown, but he kept my best interests at heart, JJs as well.

It doesn't surprise me since I know Matias is a gentleman and would never actually take advantage of me or any girl, that was always a lie to make Maceo not kill us. But that night still happened, I still kissed him and touched him while in a relationship with JJ and that hurts. He doesn't deserve that, even if I didn't know what I was doing.

I think I'm hiding mostly because I'm embarrassed by my broken brain, and I'm scared it'll happen again, I'm scared I'll think JJ is Maceo and spill more secrets or do something stupid. Not to mention my sweet Jay shouldn't have to see me like this or feel like he's doing something wrong or.. or been seen as my abusive dead husband.

I'm not okay, that much is clear to me, everything else is muddled in my mind.

I guess these three days could be considered a binge, I've been doing more coke than I should, drinking shots down like it's water and sleeping my days away when I get bored of watching the marsh behind this run down trailer behind me. I turned my location off the morning I snuck out of Matias house, so he hasn't found me yet but I know he's looking for me.

"Baby girl," Barry's voice pulls my attention off the birds in the distance, I turn away from the marsh, giving him a questioning look, "Rafe is swinging by real soon for some yayo, you may want to bounce for a bit. He's been doing double now that you're missing."

"Shit." My head pounds when I jump to my feet, not saying anything else before running inside to change.

I put on my usual black attire and sling my backpack on before rushing outside to my motorcycle, Barry seems amused by my actions, making me chuckle to myself because I probably look a bit crazy but its whatever. He knows why I'm hiding, I drunkenly told him all about my stupid brain and guilt surrounding it, he told me JJ will understand the situation, which he probably will but still, I need space to at least process all of this shit.

My thoughts continue to run rampant in my mind while I fly through the island, not having anywhere specific to go. After a while of whipping it down street after street, I realize someone's been trailing me. Shit.

I can handle this, I don't need Matias to have to risk his life all the time to protect me. I can handle this, him and Maceo taught me well, I know how to protect myself. There's a red light up ahead, my only choices right now are to chance this person catching up if I stop or chance being roadkill if I run the light and get hit.

Fuck it, my hand twists the throttle, my speedometer reads 80 when my eyes land on a black Ashton Martin car from the opposite side of the traffic light, my hand comes down to my side, a peace sign on my fingers when I pass my best friend.

I'm going fast but time seems to slow when his honey brown eyes meet my gaze through my helmet visor while I drive through the red light, fear and confusion seem to be his main emotions when he flickers his eyes to the the black SUV behind me, who doesn't seem to care that we're totally driving illegally.