Poetry Book: Songs from the Heart [COMPLETED]

let me think!

It's taken me so long
To know that it's not wrong
To find my voice
And make my choice
Why is it so hard
To make my mark
And set myself free
Of eternity?

You thought you were lying,
Always caught yourself crying
Felt so isolated
Irritated
Emotionally constipated
Ill fated
And you drove yourself
Mad

So why can't I just stop
Stop thinking all these thoughts
These terrors that unbind
The fears that decide
I'm all alone at night
Can't stop crying yet tonight
So I just want to hide
Because my head always lies
It's like I'm not even alive

It's like you've always been dead
Trapped inside your head
Can't move from the bed
Isn't that what they've always said?

But then, something is RAGING
It's so good to not be trapped in encasing
Its like you're dissipating
Why so sad? You're welcome to feel exhilarating

STOP!
These words can't stop flowing
My eyes just keep glowing
Tears coming down unbidden
I want to remain hidden

But no matter what I do,
No matter how hard I try,
Things will always hurt
And loved ones always die
Pain keeps on building
Fears keep me wilting
It's like the world's just tilting
And here I am, standing here,
Waiting for the heart attack

Attack? You think you're being attacked?
What is it that you lack?
A sword? An arrow? An axe?
What do you need to take charge
And free yourself of this harm
Is it something you can do
To take charge charge your fate and get lost in the new?

Do you think I'm lying?
As you sit here, crying
Begging for the gods to take away your pain
Why ask for something so lame
Something you know they cannot do
What's happening to you?
You know all I say is true
Intrusive thoughts got you running like you have no clue
No choice in the matter? It's true
It's time to make a choice and undo
The pain you've wrought
The havoc you've sown
The tears that you once called your own
You're such a liar!

No! I'm not a liar
I'm an outsider
It's all a trick to make me sick
And change me to a crier

You've never been so bold
To hold onto your own
And challenge me eternally
Trapped inside my soul

What's the matter?
You're not raging?
Not so bad, it's isolating?
Maybe it's time I shut up
And take my little happy pills
Time to deny you your cheap fuckin thrills

So next time you think
That raging is your best bet
Just hold onto your link
And shut up and let
Me think!