Bad Boys Toys (english)

Chapter 31 Home

"Home at last! Home is always the best!" sighs Fourth as they finally arrive at their apartment, "Are you hungry? Want me to whip us up something small?" he puts his bag in the hallway and disappears into the bathroom.

Gem just toddles after him and washes his hands, too.

And Fourth sees the absent look on his best friend's face in the mirror.

"What's the matter with you? The drive was so long. You must be hungry, right?" he dries his hands and turns to Gem.

And Gem just gives him a cute dachshund look.

And his lips pout in such a heartbreakingly cute way that Fourth pulls him right into his arms.

"Gem, now say something! What's wrong?" he gently caresses the beloved neck.

"Mhmmm!", Gem growls, digging his face deep into the crook of Fourth's neck.

"Mhmmm?", Fourth imitates him questioningly, "Mhmmm, I'm hungry? Mhmm, I'm tired?" he can only hold Gem tighter and tighter in his arms.

"Mhmmm, I'm so happy!" his soft bass chimes in.

And Fourth pulls him out of his hiding place and looks into his eyes in disbelief.

"Maybe I'm still too inexperienced, but is this what happy eyes look like?" he dives into Gem's gaze.

And Gem swallows his strange melancholy.

He really is that happy.

He is.

Fourth is his everything.

Always has been.

And now he's his boyfriend.

His love is his.

And yet Gem feels so unsettled.

Now that he's letting the wings of love beat inside him.

Now that he's finally letting himself arrive.

Home.

Filled with the messengers of Free Love.

Now.

Here in Fourth's arms.

Gem feels so scared.

A whole new world is showing itself to him.

And this new world holds such great danger.

Everything he had built up in years of denial.

All the safe trivia.

All the lust-filled inanities.

Everything is finally gone.

And now he knows he holds the most important thing in his arms.

The most significant thing.

The deepest, the highest, the farthest.

Fourth.

He has finally arrived.

And passes out with fear.

That fear of loss.

As strong as the Bad Boy always seemed.

As persistent as he was in suppressing his feelings and building a world without consequence.

So deeply the fear of loss remained buried within him.

In Fourth's arms now, it all bursts out.