Katerina's POVAs I spend the next few hours alone in my room, I am unable to lock out my damning thoughts as I replay this afternoon's events over and over in my mind.
I want to scream.
I want to cry.
I want to break down.
In the end, I eventually do those things.
I scream into my pillow.
I allow my tears to stain my cheeks.
Although, I try my best to avoid the breakdown that threatens to overcome me because I worry that if I break again that I won't be able to fix myself on my own.
What the fuck even happened today?
Why did this happen?
I sit up in bed, pulling the pillow away from my face, determined not to shed another tear.
I can't fathom what I could have done to make Michele that mad at me, although in the back of my mind, it makes me question if I should have been so trusting in them.
They lied.
They all fucking lied to me.
I laugh bitterly at the thought. Why am I even surprised?
Hell if I know.
They can all go to hell for all I care. All that crap about them never hurting me again was just another load of garbage delivered on a shiny platter.
I accepted their words like the fool I am.
I exhale deeply, pressing my palms against my forehead as I try to comprehend everything that has happened within the last hour.
Shit, I'm thinking too much, and I don't even know everything that might play a factor.
Doesn't make me any less pissed or disappointed.
I sigh, shaking my head at my raging thoughts.
I need to stop thinking at least for the next few hours before I do something rash, since my mind is overrun with different scenarios, each one worse than the last.
I drag my hands down my face, slowly glancing around my room before my gaze lands on a drawer in my opened closet.
Standing up, I quickly move into the adjoining room, almost tripping in the process as my leg tangles in the sheets. Yanking the sheets away, I barely manage to catch myself from tripping again before my face smacks into the wall.
Maybe it would've knocked some sense into me.
Or at the very least, a bit of memory loss so that I can just forget tonight.
Although, I'd be a fool to forget or ignore what happened earlier.
Stepping into the walk-in closet, I slam the door behind me before dropping to my knees in front of the drawer and wrenching it open. Shoving the clothes aside, I swiftly open my white box. I quickly push most of the contents aside to reveal a small portion of my knife collection. Dimitri is looking after the majority of my weapons. I miss them. And my best friend, of course, but I miss the former more. I pull out a set of daggers before closing the lid once again. I tightly grasp the sheath in my hand.
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Being Saved
Teen FictionA mafia siblings book with a love interest as the two central themes. -- Katerina is a 15-year-old girl who has been abused by her mother for as long as she can remember. As time goes on, the worst years of her life seem neverending, and she can onl...