moonlight - louis patridge

( confusion ) - 42

I finished my shift, so I walked home. It was late and I had school tomorrow. My breath created clouds of fog, the night air cold and chilly.

I get into the warmth of my home and quickly get ready for bed.

-

It was lunch time and I was with Jacob. We were sitting in the back seats of his car, making out. Well, more so he was eating my mouth, but you get the point.

I sit there uncomfortably, trying my best to "kiss back"

I mostly just sit there though, but Jacob doesn't seem to mind. He pulls away, panting and looking at me.

"are you even trying?" he asks

hm, maybe he does mind.

"sorry, I'll try harder" I say and let Jacob continue kissing me.

I make more effort to kiss back, but I didn't really feel a spark, if you know what I mean.

I can think about my day whenever we have "makeout sessions", that's how boring it is. I'm really excited for the Halloween party that's coming up in the next few days. I have my outfit all planned, my makeup, and it's gonna be so fun.

Suddenly I feel Jacob push into me deeper. He pushes me down so I'm laying down in the back seat, and he's on top of me.

I feel a rush of weirdness, and I felt really uncomfortable. Jacobs kissing shifted from my mouth, to my neck. I took the opportunity to talk to him

"Jacob why are you on top of me" I ask

he grunts in reply, and continues his slobbery kisses on my neck. He finally pulls back, looking down on me.

"wanna do it now?" he asks

"do what?" I question, then widen my eyes when I realize what he wanted to do.

"I thought we already talked about this" I say, sitting up to force Jacob off of me.

"I know, but-"

"I'm going back inside" I cut off Jacob, and leave the car.

I cringe at the situation. He's been trying so hard to convince me to have sex with him. His attempts are not slick.

I almost feel grossed out by him now. I thought he was this hot, attractive guy who was flirty, but now I think I was just trying to convince myself in the beginning. Jacob's just so slobbery and gross, I don't know how I still call myself his girlfriend

I walk into the cafeteria and I see Ella sitting in our usual, except, Louis was there. Louis was talking to Ella. I furrow my eyebrows as I come closer, but blending in with the rest of the crowd.

"I don't know what to do, I mean-"

"don't worry Louis, I'm sure she'll come back around and you'll feel better" Ella comforts Louis

"that Jacob, I'm going to kill him. hes all over y/n, as if she's his property. y/n was mine in the beginning, wasn't she?" Louis rants

I slightly blush at the thought of Louis saying "y/n was mine"

All of a sudden, Ella looked over to me and turned to Louis with wide eyes.

I decided to make myself visible, since Ella had already seen me

"Louis?" I say, acting as if I had just seen him.

I wonder if I was blushing, since I felt my face all hot. Louis turned around and stood up

"y/n, h-hi" he says, stuttering

we connect our eyes and his gaze fills me with warmth. I intuitively inch closer to him, but pull back when I catch myself getting too close.

Louis' eyes go from my eyes, to my lips, and to my eyes quickly again. I entirely blush and feel hot.

"so.." I say, breaking the eye contact

Louis turns away and takes a breath, realizing what we had been doing. His cheeks were red and he shifted. He turns to Ella.

"I better get going" He says before taking a quick glance at me, and scurrying away.

I sit down, and look at Ella with a look.

"I know, I'm sorry" she immediately gives in

"Louis just came up to me and his eyes were all red, as if he's been crying. he started talking about you, and everytime he mentioned your name he would blush. he talked about how he hates and despises Jacob. something about a bet, and I swear that's all we talked about" Ella quickly spilled

"wait, bet?" I say

Ellas face turns red

"n-no, I didn't say that" she quickly pinches her mouth

I sit back, knowing damn well she did.

"tell me about the bet" I say

"there wasn't a bet!" Ella avoids my eye contact

she was obviously lying.

"Ella" I give her a warning glare

"I promise!- wait no I don't promise. still, there was no bet" Ella struggles to form her words

I was gonna crack her eventually

"fine, if you don't tell me about the bet, I'm not going to the party" I sigh

Ella eyes immediately widen

"don't do that to me" her face changed into panic

I give her a playful glare, that scared her even more.

"fine, I can only tell you a bit though" she bites her lip

I roll my eyes but agree

"it's between Louis and Jacob." Ella carefully picks out her words

"they're fighting over someone- something. they're fighting over something"

I nod

"and the winner of the bet wins a prize, and the prize is y-"

Ella gets cut off when Jacob walks up to us

omfg get the fuck away right now before I kick you in the balls and rip your tongue out and dissect your body piece by piece-

"hi" I smile

"hey" Jacob says, not returning the smile

I give a frown

as if I'm sad that he didn't smile back

"im sor-"

"shh" I say, cutting him off

he smiles and leans in to kiss me. I let him

oml bros obsessed with kissing. so clingy and for what.

"so I assume we're good now?" he asks

I nod, smiling, and he walks away.

I turn to Ella, rolling my eyes.

"if you hate him so much, break up with him" Ella says

I take a minute to think about it, but shake my head

"if I do, it'll be so awkward during class." I sigh

"so you wanna date Jacob forever?" Ella raised an eyebrow

I giggle, and we continue our lunches together.

I think about what happened in the last hour, and my mind starts to hurt. Everything's so confusing, and nothing makes sense.