𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗒 𝖼𝖺𝗋𝖾𝗌 • 𝘯𝘤𝘵

"𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘶𝘴"

"WE WERE FRIENDS, MORE
THAN FRIENDS AND NOW
WE ARE WHERE WE FIRST BEGAN.
AS STRANGERS."

⤷ NEW MESSAGE

2:48 am
JAEMIN

JAEMIN
did you really think i wouodnt
find about you and your stupid
best feinef

MIHYUN
are you drunk texting me
if you are, please wait until you're
sober

JAEMIN
no

JAEMIN
i played it off like it was nothing,
i know you and xinyue dated before
us and i know you slept with her
while we were dating. stop trying to
make it seem like i was the only bad
person in our relationship

JAEMIN
i really really really fucking
loved you mihyun, so so so so much
but you didnt even see that at all

JAEMIN
i know that what i did was wrong
but you did it first to me and all i ever
did was just get back to you

JAEMIN
i should be asking you why didnt
you care for me not you

JAEMIN
you were the first girl i really loved and
you ruined that for me, you ruijed it so
fucking much for me that i cant evene like
someone without ruining it for the bith of
us

JAEMIN
i tried staying quiet about it but i knew
the second it happened

JAEMIN
and im so positive that not even your
damn friends know

JAEMIN
not even eunjin bc she seemed so clueless
when she found out we dated

MIHYUN
jaemin, please im sorry but
i dont want to talk about this right
now

JAEMIN
i want to

JAEMIN
you always got what you want

JAEMIN
"princess mihyun"

MIHYUN
stop calling me that

JAEMIN
you saw how much it broke me even
though you didnt know i knew, i dealt
with it bc i loved you so much but then
you kept doing it and then you accused
me of cheating to the point where i actually
did because i couldnt take it anymkore

JAEMIN
youre just as fucking toxic as me

JAEMIN
because when we broke up, you barely
even fucking cried. you didnt even look
like you cared about me, not one fucking
bit

JAEMIN
then you left with no explanation

JAEMIN
i was left with your fucking
consequences

JAEMIN
and you left to have a "better life" while
i was here struggling because of you

JAEMIN
all you do is feed of your parents
money and think it'll solve all
your fucking problems

JAEMIN
and stop trying to control eunjin,
shes 21, shes not a damn child, idky
everyone treats her like one

MIHYUN
just leave her alone

JAEMIN
i should be saying that to you
read just now

♡

"You've been sighing so much. Something wrong?"

"Yeah, I don't want to talk about it though."

Jeno glanced over to his best friend, he was still very mad at Jaemin, but his apology seemed genuine and he couldn't bring himself to argue with him anymore. "You sure? This is the tenth time you sighed and it's actually worrying."

"Just my fucking past relationship, that's all." the boy mumbled, scratching his cheek as Jeno laughed. "I was the same with Jooyoung, it's crazy what being so in love can do to you." Jeno said with a light chuckle as Jaemin softly punched his shoulder.

"You'll get over it, we all know that your first love is someone you can't really forget about. That first relationship is something, good and bad."

"Right. I just wish I left before things got really serious, otherwise things would be so much easier." Jaemin quickly blinked, at his breaking point as the small tears dropped down his eyes. "I think I loved her too much that I took the blame for everything that happened even though it was all her fault."

Jeno glanced over to Jaemin, soon realizing that he was crying as his eyes widened. It was the first time in years that he saw him cry. "I just wish I could restart everything. Like we were friends, more than friends and now we're just back to being fucking strangers. Is it sad that I miss her?"

"It is, i'm not going to lie to you. It's really sad, but I think at some point you'll realize that you haven't thought about her all day and soon you'll realize that you haven't for a whole week, a whole month, then years. You'll find someone better, just miss her until that feeling is gone."