All I've ever wanted

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I don't know how long I've sat here. I'm in my own horrid thoughts as I feel movement. My fingers are laced between Camila's and I feel them shifting in my own. I look up and see her opening her eyes. The realization she's in the hospital starts to make her breathing escalate and I try to soothe her.

"Baby it's okay I'll tell you everything you need to know. It's just me." I comfort her with my hands soothing her hair softly trying not to hurt her and rub my thumb against the back of her hand.

She nods and I press the button for a nurse or doctor to come see Camila since she woke up.

Her breathing returns to normal and she's staring at me. Trying to understand what could have happened.

The knock on the door disrupts us and a doctor and nurse stride in standing by Camila's side. The nurse attains to her while the doctor speaks.

"Hello Camila I'm Dr. Rosen. Do you have any idea how you got here?"

She looks at me then shakes her head no.I lace our fingers together and squeeze her hand for comfort. She squeezes back.

I love you

The doctor then goes on to tell her everything. Her eyes are watery, shock is written all over her face but she doesn't shed a tear in front of him. The nurse checks on Camila and proceeds to change her bandages. Once they both leave she crashes down and starts silently sobbing into her hands. Dr. Rosen told her she wasn't able to leave the hospital yet because since she's pregnant they need to assess her and make sure she doesn't hemorrhage from the surgery or anything else that's serious. They gave her two more days and then if she's okay we'll be able to leave. We because I am not leaving her side ever again.

I get up to comfort her but she puts her hand out to stop me.
"Can you give me a moment alone?" Her voice comes out hoarse and a bit of a bite into it.

Please don't

Please baby

Please

Inside I'm begging her for not to shut me out but I have to let her do things on her own too. I nod and walk out of the room. I lean against
a wall and start crying sliding to the floor.

Why?

Why her? Why us?

There's a clearing of the throat and I look up to see Camila's mom here, Rebecca.

She's been very sweet. Unfortunately we met under the worst circumstances, however she knows I love her daughter and I'd do anything for her.

Anything like not being there for practice and my next game because I'm not leaving her side. I haven't even answered back to the scout from New York. My heart is in a different place right now to deal with pointless things like basketball. My heart is in this hospital door behind me.

"Todo esta bien? Que paso?" Is everything okay? What happened?

I get up and wipe my eyes with the arm of my jacket. "She woke up"

She gasps "eso es bueno no? Porque tu esta llorando?
That's a good thing isn't it? Why are you crying?

I swallow feeling my emotions return but blink my eyes a couple times to push it away. "She wants to be alone" scrunching my nose to control the sting.

I look around the hospital seeing other families waiting for their loved ones to get better. Some are crying, sleeping, laughing and just plain tired. Being in the ICU for two days was the worst moments but now being in a regular room it still haunts me. It's exhausting. I haven't been able to sleep. Seeing her lay there lifeless, with bruises and connected to millions of wires completely shatters me.

"She's stubborn. I'll go check on her. Take care of yourself in the mean time nene, por favor."she pats my back and then enters the room. Boy, please

I'm finally alone again and I don't have to hold it in. I can't blink them away this time.

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A/n:
This is so heartbreaking!

Don't worry it'll get better soon!

mamaafterdark❤️‍🔥