Starman | BTS 8th Member | *ੈ✩‧₊˚(editing)

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"Ah yes, the expert" Jungkook snickered, leaning on me In boredom. He was trying to be smooth, but it was obvious that I found it adorable.

"You smell nice" he sighed.

"He never thinks when he speaks" jimin said, finally finishing. He had conjured up some highlighters and started making a bold title.

"jin-hyungs birthday"

"i think we should put him in the bathroom instead." taehyung said thinking before scribbling down his idea which jimin gave him a dirty look for as taehyungs handwriting was messy and going off the line, clearly rushing in excitement.

"Who will keep him company?" jimin said, thinking to himself.

"jisung?"

"he's our only hope for decorating the cake-" jungkook said, hugging me to his chest.

"point made."jimin nodded.

"maybe we say we'll lock him in the bathroom but we actually give him the game we brought?" Taehyung said, referring to the game he brought for the xbox.

We nodded.

"Then we decorate his cake with dicks" Jungkook said, watching Jimin write his exact words.

"Anything else?" taehyung said.

"play karaoke then sacrifice someone i don't know? Birthday boy?" i snickered. We nodded collectively.

"evil. I love it."

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Hoseok got his wish as when he was watching tv in his room i decided to join him.

"oh hello" he smiled sleepily. I had clearly joined just as he was about to fall asleep.

I nodded while sitting next to him. He still was smiling to himself.

We stayed there for 5 minutes and I was quite enjoying the tv show he had on.

It finally included a main lead with a brain that respected women.

I become uncomfortable just sitting.

I was sitting up slouching and my neck was hurting.

I used this as an excuse to sit with hoseok.

Its only because my neck hurts.

Nothing else.

I swear-

I placed my head on his chest feeling just as tired as him. I stayed there for about 2 minutes feeling relaxed. My eyes even closed.

"You don't actually want to be with me do you. " hoseok said weakly as my hands wrapped themselves around him. "you're only doing this because i complained"

Is he being serious? What kind of response is that?

"what-"i said sitting up utterly confused.

"you heard me" he groaned, shutting his eyes Turning away. But i could still see his face.

"i do-"

"liar."

I felt more hurt than I needed to be. I always have a habit of taking things to heart, when things aren't actually that deep. But I'm not a liar.

"if that's what you think. I really don't know what you want from me" i said quietly moving to the opposite end of the bed, i bit my cheek anxiously.

This is exhausting.

"you ask me to be with you one minute but then act like you don't even want me around when I'm actually-." I stopped. He clearly wasn't listening.

It was true i was trying. The only reason I stopped was because I had always felt like I was too clingy towards him.

So I tried to stop. It's not that I never wanted to be near him, the opposite. It's more that I stopped going into his room for a hug whenever i felt like it.

The smallest changes make the biggest differences. I stared up at his tv not actually watching. It didn't seem as good now.

I felt the urge to cry.

But it wasn't that serious.

You're overreacting.

I Sighed sick of the tension so i got up to leave. Maybe he'll improve tomorrow and hes in a bad mood.

But I heard hoseok mutter.

"Oh, of course. Run away again." he rolled his eyes.

Says the one who wasn't listening.

I felt helpless as I didn't know what to do. But then slightly angry.

Why is it always hoseok that i argue with. Its always the least expected one.

"soulmates my ass." he muttered and that was my breaking point.

"don't be a prick, hoseok." i felt my throat ache from holding back tears, so i swallowed, it made my voice sound so hollow it was obvious I was holding back tears.

God you're so annoying.

I left his room and closed his door firmly, trying to act normal, but in reality I probably was red in the face. A mix between anger and confusion.

I gripped my sleeve, staring at his door until stars appeared in my eyes. I was glaring that hard.

I am most definitely the problem this time. It's my fault for being so clingy in the first place. Then he wouldn't expect anything of me.

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