Mirror of Perfection (hisollumi story)

Chapter 46 - I remember

Gon's Pov:

Hisoka hugs me, it feels good to be comforted. I love him like a brother. I love Illumi like a brother. It hurts, I got attached. Did I set myself up for pain. Hisoka stays hugging me for a while. I can feel him shaking, he loves Illumi just as much as I do. He needs to be comforted too. He doesn't have anyone, his parents died years ago he said. He hasn't had anyone for years until he met us. He fell in love with Illumi, he loves us like family.

Now he could have that family torn away. Ripped to pieces. He needs to be ok too. I hug him back. He starts to cry. I feel his body shaking, mine starts to shake too. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts more then imaginable. A pain that digs deep into your heart. One that burns into your memory. Something you will never forget. A pain that you could try to get rid of, but in a thousand lives, it still hurts inside you.

I remember everything about Illumi, from when I first met him, up to now. Killua introduced me to him first

Killua: "This is Illumi! My older brother, Illumi this is my best friend."

Illumi: "Its really nice to meet you!" 

Instead of shaking my hand, he hugged me. He told me he liked me already. I remember when I painted his nails. I remember when Killua was in the hospital and I was scared, so Illumi let me sleep in his bed. He hugged me and told me Killua was gonna be ok. I remember when Illumi would take me skateboarding so I could keep up with Killua. I remember on my birthday when he cried because he felt bad for not knowing. I remember when we told him we were dating, and he was so supportive. I remember when he took me shopping for Killua's birthday. I remember when my Aunt Mito was sick, and he stayed with me everynight while Killua was in the hospital to make sure I was safe. I remember when on my next birthday, he got me a green custom made jacket, just to go with my green shorts and boots.

He protected me. He cared for me like he cared for Killua. He loved me like he loved Killua. I always had someone there to care for me, Hisoka never had that. Its not fair. He needs that. He deserves it. He cries into my shoulder, I let him. He has to be ok too. He wasn't given a fair life. I never thought about it. Hisoka was always protecting Killua and Illumi, just like me. Why didn't I think about it more. Were exactly alike, only so different. He deserves another chance at life. He deserves so much better. 

Killua starts to wake up, crying when he sees us. He hugs us, and cries. He always knows what I'm thinking. He can see my pain, but what hes seeing, is me and Hisoka's pain. Because I'm feeling both. I know how Hisoka feels. I know what his pain is. I want to take it from him, because he needs to be ok. He needs that person to protect him, like I've always had.

The phone rings, we all pull away from the hug, even if we miss the warmth. Its Illumi.