Mirror of Perfection (hisollumi story)

Chapter 9 - Anxiety pills

Killua's Pov:

I ditched school to try and follow Illumi. Gon came with me because he has a good nose. A pink haired boy was chasing after him. I've never seen him before, but he is a high school boy. I pray that this boy didn't push himself onto Illumi. I'm the only one who knows Illumi was almost raped 7 months ago. I know because it got late and I went to look for him. I found him a block away, slumped up against a wall, his whole stomach covered in blood. I had bandaged it for him.

After a couple minutes of walking in the forest, Gon points forward. I see Illumi on his knees staring away from us. He has leaves in his hair, and theres dirt on the back of his hoodie. I run over to him and sit in front of him. He seems dazed off, so I shake him to pull him back into it. He looks at me slowly. "Are you ok??? What happened??? Where'd the boy go???" I ask. He looks at me and says "Im ok, I had a mental breakdown, and he went that way." He points forward. 

"Why? What happened? Tell me everything" He looks at me and says "He pulled my sleeves up and saw my scars. I ran to get away from my problems and he followed me. I ran out of energy after not eating for 6 days. I collapsed right here and he pulled me into a hug. He comforted me and kissed me. He pinned me onto the forest floor and kissed my scars and told me they were beautiful. He tugged on my hoodie to have sex with me, but I panicked so he pulled away. Then he left."

I take a minute to process this. So he did push himself onto him, but he pulled away when Illumi got uncomfortable. Hes also one of the only people in the world who have seen his scars. How did he get here again? Running, running and fell, due to... STARVING HIMSELF! "So you were starving yourself." I say this calmly, knowing that he would break down if I got mad. "Did you eat at lunch?" He looks at me. Hes so mesmerized right now. Hes really out of it. "No I did not. I broke my promise." He starts to cry. I pull him into a hug. "it's ok Illumi, don't worry about it." 

(time skip) 

Illumi's Pov:

Killua walked me back home and Gon went back to school. Last period is almost over anyway, so Gon will come over soon. He usually comes here everyday. We sneak past our parents who are in the kitchen talking. I ignore them, still mad, and let Killua take me upstairs. He takes me to my bed and lays me down. I sit up and watch him search my room for my anxiety pills. I honestly don't know where they are, and I start to have an anxiety attack. What if he was using me? What if he tells everyone about my scars? Killua's probably mad that I didn't eat. I broke my promise. I lied to him. I'm a horrible brother. Killua notices that I'm having a panic attack and whispers "Goddamn it where are those pills" 

He calls Gon. No answer. He must have his phone turned off for school. My body feels so weak. I groan and fall over. Killua frantically starts texting Gon until he calls back. 

"Where are Illumi's goddamn anxiety pills?"