Sidnaaz an emotion

Chapter 89

Sid didn't knew what to say or what to ask what will he ask her ki kab hua kyu hua jabki wo issi ghar mein saath mein tha tab bhi wo sajh nahi paya she is his wife but right now he was feeling like she is stranger to him about whom he knows nothing at that moment he wanted to ask why she take those pills she hated those pills few days back he had to pushed those tablets in her mouth and today she herself take it means something bothered her triggered her so much that she had no option left but to take them .

Sid want to ask her many things want to hug her console her want to give her assurance that nothing will happen but he is not getting courage to do so only words that came from his mouth were - kab ?

Sana- mujhe baat nahi karni iss bare mein and tried to remove his palm from her face but can't as he hold her firmly .

Sid- baby humare beech yaha jo bhi hua meri galti hai mai jaanta hoon tu mat kar mujhe maaf mai jaanta  hoon bohot mushkil hai wo par abhi mujhe ye bta ki kyu aisa kya hua ki tune wo pills li tu to khud lena to door dekhna bhi pasand karti kyuki tujhe apne past ki yaad aati hai unse par tune aaj liya matlab kuch bada hua hoga na tu chahe mujhe maar chahe kuch kar par mujhe aise anjaan jaise treat mat kar kya hua hai bta .

Sana didn't said anything only silence was the answer he got .

Sid- baby humara rishta yaha se nahi hai bahar se hai mana ki maine galti ki hai par abhi jo hai wo bohot alag hai tune pills li hai koi choti baat nahi hai ye mujhe bta .

Sana kept mum.

Sid- meri taraf dekh sana looked at him .

Jaan kya baat hai mujhe nahi btayegi mai hoon tera pati hoon mujhse kyu aise anjaano ki tarah pesh aa rahi hai haa galti ki hai maine koi saza de par ye chuppi nahi ho rahi bardasht mai sab kuch jhel sakta hoon tera aise gum soom rehna kuch na bolna  teri aakhen khali hai humesha inmein kuch na kuch hota hai mere liye kabhi pyaar kabhi gussa par aaj kuch nahi hai inmein mai nahi padh paa raha hoon inhein tu jaanti hai na mai padh leta hoon inhe jab bhi tu naraaz hoti hai mujhse par aaj kuch nahi hai inmein padhne ke liye mai kaise samjhu bta mujhe please bta kya baat hai kyu li hai pills kisi ne kuch kaha tujhe rashmi ne ya aarti ne ye shefali ne kuch bola ya meri koi baat tujhe itni buri lagi hai please bol baby kya hua hai .

Sana still didn't said anything .

Sid didn't know how to make her agree to talk to him so he take her in his arms and placed her head on his chest - ye dhadkan sun rahi hai ye tere liye hai mujhe nahi pta kya hua hai par mai itna bol sakta hoon ki mera hona na hona tujh par depend karta hai chahe mai kitni bhi bewakoofi kar loon par mai hoon sirf teri wajah se tu hai mere paas mere saath to mai hoon warna mai nahi hoon kuch bhi tere bina mai jaanta hoon maine hi tujhe khud se itna door kar diya hai ki tu kuch bol nahi rahi hai apna dard nahi bant rahi hai mere saath par mai abhi sirf maafi maang sakta hoon tujhse mai kya karu baby please bta aise aur chup mat reh mai nahi dekh paa raha hoon aise kya hua bta .

Mere liye nahi to maa ke liye bta please mana meri galti hai jo chahe saza de mujhe par maa to bohot pyaar karti hai na tujhe wo sab dekh rahi hongi kaisa feel ho raha hoga unhe kya lagega ki unhone jo tujhe iss ek saal mein itna strong banaya tujhe aise haal mein dekehngi to wo toot jayengi tu to strong bachhi hai na unki sab kuch handle kar leti hai wo kehti hai na ki tu sherni hai aur tu aise rahegi to unki mehnat to waste jaayegi na .

Sana eyes get teary listening to maa's name sid sighed in relief finally she is showing some reaction .

Sid hold her protectively like a baby in his arms - kya hua hai bachha bta .

Sana- maa chaiye only these words came from her mouth .

Sid- but for him these words were assurance that she will open up to him soon - haa baby i know wo to humesha humare saath hai he gave her photo frame from side table she hugged it immediately like her life depends on it .

Sid saw this but didn't said anything for few moments then take her hand in his and kissed on that then take her face in his palms and kissed her whole face she is there with him as she is showing emotions her face is covered with tears but he didn't mind as he just want her at that moment he was getting assurance that she didn't went again in  depression he can handle her he will be there he will do whatever it takes to calm her to bring her to herself again.

After few minutes sid asked her- kya hua hai jaan kyu li pills .

Sana- mujhe kuch dino se acha nahi lag raha tha phir teri meri ladai hui tune mujhe khud se door kar diya tha mai aai tere paas par tune suna bhi nahi bohot kuch ho raha hai samjh nahi aa raha .

Sid cursed himself under his breathe for making her feel like this  but again asked - aaj kya hua jo itna triggered ho gai .

Sana- wo Jassie aaya na to purana sab yaad aa gaya controversy kaise mujhe log pasand nahi karte wo saare comments wo sab kuch saas nahi aa rahi thi badi mushkil se yaha tak aai aur wo pills li kuch aur samajh nahi aa raha tha aisa lag raha tha saans gale mein atak gai hai dimaag kaam nahi kar raha tha sab kuch kitna ek saath hua handled nahi ho raha tha mann kar raha tha bhaag jau yaha se kahi ,kahi door jaha koi na ho bas mai hoon.

Sid- mujhe kyu nahi bola tab hi .

Sana- tu khud itna door lag raha tha mujhse aisa laga koi nahi hai mera akeli ho gai hoon bas maa chaiye mujhe .

Sid- koi kyu nahi hai tera mai hoon  na chahe kitni ladai ho jaaye humara rishta nahi badlega kabhi tu mujhe apne se kabhi alag karne ka sochna bhi mat .

Sana-tune jo kia mai bohot hurt hui hoon usse mai nahi bhool sakti itni easily mujhe time chaiye.

Sid- le baby chahe jitna time le chahe mujhe maar kuch kar par apne paas rehne de .

Sana- mujhe sona hai aakhon mein dard ho raha hai .

Sid- thk hai so jaa kal baat karte hai and patted her head to make her sleep soon he also slept as he didn't slept properly from 2 days as sana was not on his arms .

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