Sidnaaz an emotion

Chapter 26

Next day all get up listening to morning song , everyone get busy in their daily chores but Sana and Sid were laying in bed as sana was not feeling well due to yesterday event she is feeling little weak she knows sid said that in anger but her mind knows that even after so much assurance from sid her heart was not at peace right now at this point she needs one person other than sid so that she can share her feelings as she knows if she talk about this to sid he will only feel guilty and she didn't want that.

Sid was laying beside her and can see a paranoid of emotion she is going through she need to relax  so tired to divert her mind as this trick always works in her .

Sid- baby tujhe yaad hai jab mai pehli baar tere ghar aaya tha aur humne pehli baar ek dusre se baat ki thi pta hai maine tujhe aaj tak nahi btaya tu uss din bohot sunder lag rahi thi bilkul angel ki tarah meri angel.

Sana- haa yaad hai tu ghoor raha tha mujhe .

Sid- to haq banta hai mera pta hai tujhe milne se pehle jab mujhe pta laga tha na ki tujhme aur mere mein 13 years ka difference hai mai darr gaya tha ki kahi mai apni wajah se tujhe hurt na kar doon kyuki meri past relationships kuch jyada ache note par end nahi hui thi par maa ne samjhaya ki pyaar mein age matter nahi karti do logo ke beech ki understanding karti hai do log apne us rishte ko kaise nurture karte hai wo matter karta hai  bohot mehnat lagti hai ek rishte ko jodne mein pyaar to har koi kar leta hai par nibhana har koi nahi jaanta mai bohot insure tha tere meri life mein aane se pehle par tujhe dekha tab pehli hi nazar mein pyaar  ho gaya aur bohot time tak aceept nahi kia ki mai tujhse pyaar karta hoon phr jab tujhe khone ka darr aya maa ne kaha wo rohit ke liye tere rishte ki baat chalayengi tab mere saare darr jo bhi age ko lekar , maturity ko lekar understanding ko le kar wo sab chut gaye bas ye raha ki mai tujhe nahi kho sakta kisi bhi kimat par .

Tab mujhe ehsaas hua ki mai jo feel karta hoon wo sirf pyaar nahi hai usse kahi badh kar hai bohot paak hai  aur jab maa ne tere life ke baare mein btaya teri struggle ke baare mein btaya to laga bohot himmat hai tujhmein par jab tujhe dekha ki jin logo ne tera saath nahi dia tune tab bhi unka saath nahi choda tab tere liye respect bohot badh gai mere mann mein  mai jaan bujh kar to door ki baat hai anjaane mein bhi hurt nahi karna chahta .

Haa mai gusse mein bohot galat bol jaata hoon aur iska koi bhi justification nahi hai wo galat hai bohot galat hai aur mujhe isse sudharna hi padega par mai ye akele nahi kar sakta mujhe tera saath chaiye tu chaiye tere bina mai nahi kar paunga tere bina mai khud ko hi kho dunga tu meri sirf wife nahi hai mera sukoon hai mere jeene ki bohot badi wajah hai tu hai isiliye mai hoon sidharth shenaaz ke bina kuch nahi hai .

Jaan mai bohot galtiya karta hoon jaanta hoon tujhe hurt bhi kar deta hoon par please mujhe maar le gaali dele  jo chahe kar le par mujhe kabhi chodna mat mai nahi jee sakta tere bina sab ko lagta hai tujhe meri zaroorat hai aur shayad ho bhi par zaroorat waqt ke saath badal sakti hai par tu meri zaroorat nahi hai tu usse kahi badh kar hai itna ki mai shabdo mein nahi bta sakta please mera saath mat chodna kabhi while saying his voice start choking.

Sana- mai jaanti hoon ki tu kal ki baat se abhi tak shocked hai par kal jo bhi hua wo mujhe bohot hurt kia out of all people tune wo bola jo mujhe ache se jaanta hai mujhe samajhta hai asim mera friend hai aur humesha rahega mai jo rishta nibhati hoon wo dil se nibhati hoon aur end tak nibhati hoon aur wo galat bhi nahi hai humne nahi btaya ki hum married hai pyaar kisi ko bhi ho sakta hai maanle jab tune mujhe pehli baar dekha mai married hoti to tune pyaar karne se pehle mera background check kia tha tuhi bolta hai na mujhe dekhte hi pyaar ho gaya tha us waqt to tu mujhe jaanta bhi nahi tha bad dekha tha par asim ke saath mai rahi hoon hum dono rahe hai time spend kia hai kya friends mein pyaar nahi ho jaata iska matlab ye nahi ki wo galat hai aur ye jaan ne ke baad wo ek baar bhi mere paas tak nahi aaya baat bhi nahi ki usne wo agar chahta to ye jaanke ki hum married hai wo sab ko bts deta par usne aisa nahi kia na hi kal ladai mein tune jb bola usne kuch bola wo chup tha .

Feeling humein kisi ke liye bhi aa sakti hai aur wo try kar raha  hai  apne aap ko handle karne ke liye na chahte hue bhi un logo ke saath rehta hai kyuki humein weird na lage ,dekh jo hua wo ho gaya hai hum use nahi change kar sakte par please ye baat dubara mat lana mai nahi le paung iss baar .

Sid- nahi baby kabhi nahi galti se bhi nahi .

Sana- aur ab tension na le mai thk hoon kuch nahi hua mujhe .

Sid- mai bohot darr gaya tha tujhe aise dekh kar please tu apna gussa mujh pr nikal lena par kabhi apne aap ko band mat karna aise mai nahi sehen kar sakta teri chuppi.

Sana- haa bebu ab please kuch aur baat kare mai pak gayi hoon iss topic se .

Outside in garden area:

Asim was sitting alone and thinking- ye sab kal jo bhi hua wo meri wajah se hua hai mujhe apni feelings bolni hi nahi chaiye thi sana ko na mai bolta na kal sid sana ko wo sab bolta sana kitni hurt thi uski aakhon mein kitna dard tha meri wajah se  mai pyaar karta hoon usse phir usse kaise hurt hone de sakta hoon mujhe apni feelings ko dabana hoga meri wajah se usse aur hurt nahi hona chaiye wo khush hai apni life mein pai faltu mein koi bhi problem nahi create karna chahta uske liye mai door hi rahunga usse isse meri feelings bhi control mein rahengi aur meri wajah se sid ko bura bhi nahi lagega aur wo sana ko kuch nahi bolega jisse use hurt ho .

Three different person and all have different aspect of love.

For sana:

love is  another name of understanding your partner, trust him ,be with him at every step of life . She loves sid very much and can do anything for him but can't take if he didn't trust her .

For sid:

love is the main reason he again started to live his life after sana came into his life he really started to enjoy life ,starting spending time with his family .

 For asim:

love is sacrifice you cannot force someone to be in your life love is not only caring other person or pampering but love is  sacrifice also sometime love need sacrifice .

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