Be my Shield (Roman Reigns)

Chapter Forty-One

Exactly the kind of reactions I was hoping for but don't worry guys, although I did say there would be some drama this is a love story, have faith that things will work out. This is Mia and Roman after all and to the people messaging and abusing me get a life, it's just a story. X Jade

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I was completely numb, my heart ached and I felt weak but it was entirely my fault. I turned him down, I turned down the man I love when he asked me to marry him and I still couldn't figure out entirely why. I guess the main reason was that I was scared, after what happened with Randy I was afraid of getting my heart broken again. But what was hurting the most was the fact that Roman hadn't spoken to me since that night

*flashback*

"You can't?"

Roman looked broken and as I slid off the hood and reached out for him he stepped away flinching from my touch

"Roman please just listen-"

I pleaded but he just shook his head and headed for the the drivers side of the truck

"Just forget about it, forget I asked"

My heart clenched tightly in my chest as I made my way to the passenger door and climbed in. Tears were falling fast and I did my best to wipe them away as he peeled out of the lay by and sped off towards home.

"Roman?"

I tried to talk to him but he quickly shook his head stopping me

"Please just don't talk to me right now"

His tone was angry and hurt at the same time and I knew it was my fault so I kept quiet the rest of the way home.

As soon as we were in the driveway and he had cut the engine off he was out of the truck in a flash slamming his door shut and storming inside. I was filled with the overwhelming sense of guilt.

When I got up to our bedroom I began to sob when Roman pushed past me with his pillow and headed for the spare bedroom. I wanted to talk to him so I followed but when he shut the door in my face I knew he was too hurt to listen so i went to bed and cried myself to sleep, an amazing night had turned to shit and it was all my fault

*flashback end*

"Mia you two need to talk, I don't know what happened between you guys but you gotta sort it out"

Seth stated as he dropped down on the sofa beside, we were in our dressing room getting ready for Raw and since we had arrived this morning Roman had been ignoring me. I curled into Seths side and wiped a few stray tears that were rolling down my cheeks

"He asked me to marry him and I said no"

He jumped a little in shock but held me close

"What? Why did you say no? I thought you two were like a forever thing?"

I sat up as my tears began to fall faster

"Seth I'm scared! I love Roman more than anything and the thought of making that commitment only to have my heart broken again, it terrifies me"

Seth got to his feet and began pacing back and forth

"Mia you're letting your insecurities get to you. He's not Randy"

I could hear the frustration in his voice and I understood because I knew he was right

"Damn it I know that Seth, I know hes not Randy and I'm trying to push past what happened with him but it's hard, I don't think I'd survive if I lost Roman"