The Daydreamer - A Werewolf Novel [Taylor Swift Playlist]

The Daydreamer - Chp 22 [Back To December]

~So this is me swallowing my pride, standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night/And I go back to December all the time/It turns out freedom aint nothing but missing you, wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine/I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind/I go back to December all the time~

I could feel his warm embracing gaze on me as I kept my eyes shut loving how I was curled up against him, his arm around my waist and running up and down my back seeping warm tingles all through me. I couldn't help but smile a little as I pretended to sleep. He saw it making him sight "You're so beautiful." He whispered kissing my cheek.

Wanting to see his beauty more than anything I opened my eyes to see him watching me. I couldn't help but sigh. "How long did I sleep this time?" I asked huskily still from sleep as I arched my back and stretched his fingers trailing along my stomach making me shiver and press tighter against him.

"Under twelve hours." He murmured stroking my cheek softly making me melt in against his touch.

I knew I was basically caught up on sleep now but I couldn't help but feel sorry for keeping Jace waiting. "Did you go to the cafeteria whilst I was asleep?" I asked. He shook his head still watching me intently. "See Mamma or Aunt Lilly?" another shake. "Did you leave this room?" shake. "This bed?" I asked perplexed.

He shook his head pulling me tighter to him "I don't think I can ever let you go." He murmured in my hair.

And suddenly I realised I had a lot of explaining to do and I felt utterly sick and wretched. There was silence as I tried to think of a way to say it, to explain all the mistakes of mine. "Jace." I whispered softly, tentatively. He stiffened against me sensing my emotions as our link was nearly perfect. "I am so sorry." I whispered burying my face in the crook of his elbow.

He pulled his fingers through my hair "You scared the hell out of me Emmy." He whispered as I nodded my hair hurt by his words but knowing I had hurt him more.

"I wanted to tell you, I swear, but once Aunt Lilly rang the second time I realised that if I told you than I'd be admitting I had lied before and I freaked out and then..." I trailed off taking a deep breath no words able to show how truly sorry I was and no explanation good enough.

Jace kissed the top of my head "You can't blame yourself." He whispered against my hair as I nodded meekly still hiding my face. "None of this is your fault, true you should have told me but I see your point of view. But you've got to realise my baby girl that where you go I go and that you not telling me just hurts me more, I begin to doubt things too. We're a team right 'til the very end." I didn't speak and that worried him. "Emmy?" he whispered anxious. I raised my head and his face shattered as he saw the tears in my eyes. "Oh gosh baby I'm sorry, truly."

I shook my head making him stop "I can't believe I nearly lost you." I whispered sobbing. His face fell into understanding as if he could relate. Which was absurd, Jace could never lose me unless it was needed.

He kissed me softly cupping my face in his big hands my lips already wet from the tears. He pulled back stroking away all the tears with his thumb. "You never once lost me."

I shook my head in disagreement "But you were so angry and didn't want to be near me. I could see it." I argued sobbing.

His face fell "Is that what you thought? Is that why you were holding back? Baby I wasn't making a move cause you hadn't told me whether you wanted me." He said gently as I hiccupped a sob.

"I have always wanted you." I whispered making Jace sigh kissing me deeper this time. Pulling back I frowned realising he'd only made a move once he heard me talking to Mamma making him realise I did want him.