The Showman

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After the drinking night followed by the "rescue" of the running lady, Bono tried to change what was going on in his mind. He woke up that day and knew he had to get back to Dublin. He was not strong enough to spend so much time on his own, especially family dates like Christmas or New Year's day. Those days killed him. He couldn't get Ali off his face. And without his band mates or friends It was hard to manage his emotions.

That same morning he booked a flight to Dublin for the next day. He understood his adventure was over. Maybe he needed to understand by doing this trip, that's why he doesn't regret about it.

Once in Dublin he went back home. Bono opened the door after almost 2 years, but he felt like there where 20. He unpacked his luggage and took the painting carefully and lay it on the table hall. He stared at it for some minutes to enjoy the view like he was there, to feel the smile of that girl one more time.

He was totally lost on his mind when the doorbell rang.

It was his best friend Guggi and The edge, his bandmate and guitar player.

"Hey. How do you know I was here?" Bono asked with surprise

"Bob, your driver told us. He said you looked like shit. And fuck he is right!" said Guggi

Bono frowned and closed the door after them.

"What a mess you have in here!" said Edge

"Well. What do you expect? I just arrived"

"So how was Miami? Seems like you attended all of the parties for this past 2 weeks" Edge said smirking

"I was not in Miami Edge" Bono said braced

"Where were you then?" asked Edge as Guggi was looking confused

"After all of you were gone in the airport I picked a random place to go and that place happened to be Buenos Aires. So there's where I've been for this past weeks" Bono gulped

"What the fuck Bono! What if something happened to you!! How come you didn't told us" Said Edge full of nerves

"You're not my mother Edge, calm down!" said Bono approaching his friend

"Hey stop you two" Guggi got in the middle of them "He's right. We were not going to control you. We wanted to know if you were ok. And I don't know if you remember but last time you were alone you were fucked up. And on tour and doing the album we were all around taking care of you. You didn't even fucking call Bono, not even once. Do you know how we got in here?! So don't get fucking mad about it" Guggi looked like a father trying to make his kid behave

"I'm sorry. I've been an asshole. I know you took care of me and I know I didn't call. I won't forget that" Bono said to his friends

"Ok now. I guess you did that because you needed sometime for yourself, to think. How was it? Did it help?" Edge ask a little bit more friendly

"First week was great. Nobody recognize me, so I could just get lost in town and I rested a lot. For the first time in years I went to bed thinking of nothing" Bono said looking down

"And what happened the second week?" asked Guggi while giving a look to The Edge waiting for the worst answer

"I met a girl. A girl with brown eyes, and a soft smile. We talked a little, she seemed a calm and a good person..." Bono was saying as he got interrupted by Guggi

"Oh my god you fucked her and now you love her!" said surprised

"Come on you asshole! No! let me finish!" said Bono and continued "Then New Year's Eve came. I talked to her that night. When she left I went to my hotel room and sat on my bed. I felt lonely as fuck. Like I needed someone to be with, to talk, you know. And that girl reminded me of Ali. She had that same smile, like she could heal all my wounds and take all the shit out of me, like Ali did. I bought some bottles and went to the riverbank, sat on the rocks and got drunk as fuck. I could have drowned" Bono said looking serious

"Oh my god!" Said Edge "See! See why we wanted to know were where you and how you were feeling?!"

"She picked me up the next day. I was lying on the rocks. Surrounded by bottles and pissed as fuck" Edge and Guggi were totally startled by Bono's story "She dragged me to my room, laid me in bed and stayed there until I wake up"

"I treated her like shit. I think I shouted what she was doing in my room. Jesus! What a dick head I am" Bono angrily remembered "But she stayed anyway. She always went for a run every morning and I fucked up her run that day...She answered she will always had a tomorrow to go for a run. She clenched my shoulder and waited for me to get my shite back together and then left. I think I told her Ali and touched her face while I was lying on the rocks... I don't know"

"What the fuck! And she let herself be touched by an alcoholic lunatic rock star?" Guggi ironically said

"She didn't know who I was. She called me Paul... so..."

"You told her your name was Paul?" Edge asked

"Yes. She seemed pretty normal when we talked and I didn't want her to look or talked to me because I'm a rock star, you know. I'm tired of that fake talking"

"And what happened then? Do you have her number? Have you seen her again?" Guggi asked and Edge was waiting intrigued for the answer

"Nothing happened. When she left I got to think a lot and decided to come back here. I can't be on my own during this dates. Christmas and New Year's is family time and that reminds me of Ali and then shit happens."

"But do you have her number?" Guggi insisted

"No. I just know her name. Sun" When Bono pronounced her name he felt her close to him

"Her name is sun, like the sun? And that's it?" Edge asked

"That's it..."

"So she talked to you twice, she saved you ass, saw you on your worst day and stayed with you after all. And you don't have her number to at least thank her?" Guggi said as Edge was nodding

"Shit! I didn't even thank her!" Bono said groaning

"Oh man, you are indeed an asshole" Guggi said