Breaking Silence

Chapter Nine

A week has gone by and I am getting tired of just staying in a room while someone brings food to me. It feels like I am a prisoner here since I am just locked up here all day while I can hear everyone else having a good time.

Making sure that my body is fully covered, I decided that I was done just sitting around in this room as I opened the door. 

The long hallway was empty, as I steadily made my way down not knowing where I was going. Sniffing the air, I let my nose lead me to where I assumed the kitchen was from the smell of various foods.

Entering into the kitchen, I was met with a middle aged woman who was busily preparing a lot of food. She had golden hair which was messily curly with kind, light blue eyes. She didn't pay any attention to me as she continued rushing around the kitchen, going through cabinets.

I wasn't the best in the kitchen and being in a place with so many sharp objects definitely was the best place for me, especially with my mental state. Things could easily get out of hand, although I used to prepare meals for my family, I tried my best to not use the knife. Another reason as to why I can't really cook.

Going back the way which I came from, I nearly bumped into someone but I had time to look at where I was going. He had light brown hair and dark brown eyes and a round face. He seemed friendly at first, but that thought instantly left my mind the moment he opened his mouth.

"Watch where you're going next time. Jeez," he said, as he roughly brushed past me, sending pain coursing down from my shoulder into my body.

"Leave the poor girl alone Brad," the woman that I had saw in the kitchen said. I was leaning against the wall, waiting for the pain to die down when she smiled at me. "Are you alright sweetheart? Food is ready if you're hungry."

I shook my head at her with a smile of my own. The breakfast which I had eaten this morning was a little more than I usually eat, thanks to Jovano and my stomach felt as if it would burst. My eating portions had grown a little bit because Jovano refused to watch me eat my way to the grave, which are my plans, but I couldn't tell him that.

"You sure sweetie? You look like you could use a little extra food," she said, examining my body although I was wearing a slightly big, long sleeved shirt. 

Once again, I nodded my head at her before rushing back to Jovano's room before she could ask me more questions. I wasn't to used to such kindness and it just brings out my clumsiness, which usually gets me into so much trouble.

When I was back in the bedroom, I walked towards the window and stared at the woods. The trees looked so beautiful and healthy with their bright green leaves swaying in the wind. I really wanted to go join nature but I was afraid that Jovano would get upset just like last time.

'Run away.' I could hear Felicia's voice in the back of my head telling me to run away. She had told me that one day when my father was at work, that the best thing for everyone would be if I disappeared, just pack my things and vanish.

I would be lying if I said that I hadn't thought about it many times, but the thought of being a rogue when many people were after me wasn't a life I wanted. I would constantly be on a run while being chased like some sort of animal and that just didn't sound to appealing.

Thought's of my mother suddenly surfaced to the front of my mind as I remembered her beautiful smile and unique voice. She could always make the worst situations turn into something positive. It was her special little gift, as she used to call it.

"Es un hermoso dia 

Para celebrar                                                                  

Mi mama solia decir                                                      

Uno no debe odiar                                                                               

Un ceno fruncido en la cara                                                                

Y sabes cual es la persecucion                                                            

 Asi que vamos a reunirnos                                                                

Y celebrar."

The words of the song just flowed out of my mouth without me even thinking about them. It didn't really have a message behind it, except that it was a day of celebration. My mother had came up with it for my birthday when I was twelve years old.

My mother spoke fluent English and Spanish, but chose to always speak Spanish to me so that I could just grow with it naturally as my first language, while my father can only speak English.

"You have a wonderful voice which I can I listen to all day," Jovano said, suddenly appearing behind me, as his hands snaked around my waist pulling me closer to him. "My mother told me that you skipped out on lunch."

I really didn't hadn't thought that woman could be his mother since they had no similarities, but he must have taken his looks from his father.

I kept quiet as he buried his head into my neck and swayed our bodies from side to side. "I have something to discuss with you," he said, pulling me towards the bed and cutting our little moment short.

I was curious as to what he had to tell me and I'm sure it was as clear as day with how wide my eyes were.

"I think it's time that I welcomed you to the pack and held the welcoming ceremony for you as both a member of this pack and the Luna," he said, staring at me deeply waiting for what I had to say, but I nearly chocked on my own saliva.

If there was one thing that my mother had warned me about, it was a welcoming ceremony. Both the Alpha and the new member had to combine their bloods together so that the new wolf would be linked to the pack. That was something she told me I could never do if it ever came to that. 

I shook my head frantically while backing away from him. Both my mother and grandmother from her side warned me about this and told me it was something I could never do or else I would be trapped and I could never be freed once it was done.

"Why? What's wrong?" He asked worriedly, trying to come near me but I just moved further away from him while still shaking my head.

'I can't,' was being said repeatedly in my mind as I slowly fell to the floor and wrapped my arms around myself. The words weren't going away as it was joined by the voices of both my mother and grandmother. Their warnings kept on being repeated as my head began to ache.

"I can't."

Translation of the song:

It's a beautiful day, For us to celebrate, My mama used to say, One should not hate, A frown on the face, And you know whats the chase, So lets get together, And celebrate.

Written by me once again with no actual meaning but just to have fun. The woman shown above is Jovano's mother.