At a loss of words
Don't wanna chat today
I cry an ocean in my bed
I hide away from the ones I love
At a loss of words
Don't know how to express
This pain deep in my very heart
The hollow halls within it echo
At a loss of words
I tune up the music
To drown my sorrows in the screams
Only to weep harder than before
At a loss of words
I watch the cat attack
A moth, desperate to fly away
Only to be snared and devoured
I guess I'm the moth
I try to fly away
From the imminent death that draws near
Will I never escape this?
Not feeling a thing
I'm tired of it all
I'm ashamed I wrote something so sad
But I feel it; and fear it
I guess I cannot
Get free of all the pain
On my own; but I give into the
Despair; it's true that I can't
But I base my life
On what I can do for
Myself, my friends, family and God
To find my strength wearing thin
But still I am just
At a loss of all words
If only I'd look up and cried out
But I'm too tired to speak
"Peace be still; my child"
Whispered to me as I
Lie my head down; basking in the peace
That I so longed after
At a loss of words
This silence so golden
Healing waters washing over me
I feel God's Presence near
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The Ragamuffin Path
PoetryElijah Rowan Killinger has bipolar disorder. Along with the severe moodswings she has been addicted to pornography and is struggling with binge-eating disorder. She is a recovering cutter and finds it difficult to believe that she can be forgiven fo...
