Oh dear brother forgive me please
I did not mean to hurt you like
I did last week
Would you forgive such foolish talk?
Forgive my lies for attention?
And my habit
Of coming so much when I ought
To have let you have time alone
I'm sorry for
My foolishness, my despair and
My fear that I forced down your throat
Can I say that
I really miss talking to you
About the truth and about your
Favorite things
Wish I had not focused so much
On myself and my problems and
Complained so much
I'm sorry for taking you for
Granted and using you for fun
I hope you are
Sleeping well tonight cuz I'm not
I'm haunted by my worst memories
And my past deeds
Tonight, dwelling on you and ruts
That I just right now fell into
Hoping soon to
Forgive myself what's on my mind
So I might just actually sleep
Until then I
Will lay here with ghosts of my past
Hoping that I'll soon drift asleep
YOU ARE READING
The Ragamuffin Path
PoetryElijah Rowan Killinger has bipolar disorder. Along with the severe moodswings she has been addicted to pornography and is struggling with binge-eating disorder. She is a recovering cutter and finds it difficult to believe that she can be forgiven fo...
