the next morning, david woke me up shaking me frantically. i opened my eyes, frowning. "what?" i groaned.
he looked shocked and worried. "it's past nine, you're two hours late for your rehearsal!"
i sat up, resting my weight on my hands. "dave," i chuckled. "it got cancelled, dudamel had to go somewhere, so we have three days off."
his expression softened. "holy fuck," david exhaled. "i almost had a fucking heart attack here."
i smiled, pinching his cheek. "cute."
he turned a little bit to his side, putting his hand on my thigh to lean up, inhale my scent and kiss my cheek. "good morning, by the way."
"i could kiss you right now, but we both need to brush our teeth." i giggled and stood up to go to the bathroom. he followed me, grabbing his spare toothbrush so i could use it.
we both did our morning business in silence, just smiling at each other. "you know that i'm free basically the entire day, right? i only have work at two." i told him, leaning against the bathroom sink.
david bit his bottom lip. "i have to go nickelodeon's studio to film some stuff in an hour."
i pouted, stretching my arms so i could wrap them around his waist. "not fair." i said with a baby voice. "when i'm free you're not."
he smiled, cupping my face to kiss my pouty lips. "i'll be back in a few hours, babe, don't worry."
i nodded, letting him go. "what do you have in my mind that we can do later for a little celebration?" i asked as i picked my nails and he took his shirt off.
he shrugged, playing with the hem of his underwear. "i don't know, maybe we can have dinner together." i raised my eyebrows. "like me, you, jason, natalie... we can text and see who wants to come." i nodded again, returning my gaze to my nails. "if you're not going to join me, i ask you to leave." david pointed to the door.
"rude." i mumbled, closing the door behind me. i wanted to join him, but i didn't have any clothes here, and if i did, i would only make him be late for his meeting.
i put my dress back on before leaving his room to go the kitchen. as i grabbed a water bottle inside the fridge, the front door opened and natalie appeared in the living room, looking at both sides before seeing me. "hey..." i trailed off. "why the fuck are you wet?" i chuckled.
she looked down at herself. "me and zane ended up in the pool, again." she shrugged. "i'll change really quick, can you open for megan if she arrives?" i only nodded and she sprinted to her room.
since i spent a lot of time in david's place, i grabbed the box with strawberries and washed them so i could eat while i waited for everyone. i sat down on top of the counter, eating slowly as i scrolled through my instagram. a few people were tagging me on screenshots of my story about david, freaking out about the fact that i called him 'hottie'. what? it's not like i lied.
when i heard a few steps, i looked up, seeing that david was ready. "holy shit." i mumbled, swallowing the piece of strawberry quickly. "you look so fucking hot."
he laughed, stopping in front of me, standing between my open legs. "i know." he gave me a cocky smile, making me roll my eyes.
i grabbed the collar of his jean jacket so i could press my lips against his, but my eyes found something else. "cute." i pressed my finger against the barely noticeable hickey under his ear. "do you want me to cover this up?"
"is it too bad?" he put his fingers on top of mine, pushing my hand away slightly.
"grab my purse on the pool table." david turned around to do it and handed it to me. i opened it, searching for my foundation. i put just a little bit on the beauty blender, tapping on his skin and adjusting it with my finger. "if you are going to film stuff today, they will probably put makeup on you, but i just want to make sure no one sees it, even though it's not that noticeable." i told him while david was eating a few of mine/his strawberries as i fixed his hickey.
when i finished, i put my foundation back in my purse. "is it good?" he asked and i handed him my phone so he could open the front camera to see it. "nice." he gave it back to me.
i smiled. "now..." i pushed him back. "where was i?" i captured his lips with mine.
before we could deepen it, natalie arrived at the kitchen, making a weird noise. "guys please! i eat here."
i laughed with my lips still pressed against his and david pulled away. "sorry mom." i told her while hopping off the counter with david's help. i kissed his cheek and went to put the remaining strawberries back inside the fridge. megan arrived and the three of them talked for a bit as i texted everyone on the group chat asking if they wanted to go out tonight.
david turned on his heels to talk to me. "so, i will take you home and when i get home i'll text you so we can go out, okay?"
i nodded and went to grab my stuff so we could leave soon. i didn't want them to be late and i knew that if i suggested calling an uber, david wouldn't let me. so, without saying much, we all hoped inside david's tesla, natalie was driving since david couldn't. we only talked about david's party and i wasn't talking much.
i watched david as he was driving, him smile a few times when we talked to him, or how he jammed to the songs he played. he was truly a dork. but that was what made me like him so much. his personality was everything i could ask for in a guy, his endearing way, how easy it was for him to make me laugh, the way he made me feel that life was worth living. he was one of my best friends and i was so grateful for him.
natalie parked in front of my building and i gave her and megan a quick hug before leaning in to give david a quick peck on the lips. "see you later, cutie." i winked and hopped off the car.
as soon as i was home, i took care of salem, playing and petting her for a while, then i practiced a little more since dudamel's absence and because i wanted to look perfect. later, after work, matt invited me to hang out for a while and help him with some stuff at his house. he was moving in with jason and todd and needed to get rid of some things.
so now we both are sitting in his living room, some random music playing as we looked through some of his old stuff. "you really can't?"
i bit my bottom lip, playing with the cover of one of his books. "i can, but i didn't bought the tickets yet, and i think it sold out." we were discussing about going to lollapalooza in a few days with all of our friends. i wanted to, but i just forgot about it.
"maybe later we can look if there's any left." i just shrugged, raising my hand with the book i was previously playing with. "all the books are going, sweetie." he grabbed it from my hand, putting it aside.
without meaning to, i suddenly blurted out: "do you think i'm falling in love with david?" i even widened my eyes a bit with my question. matt knew me too well to know if i truly was falling in love. i wasn't sure because i didn't know how david felt. does he really likes me that way? does he really want me to be his girlfriend? hell, do i love him?. if i liked him? yes, a lot, that's obvious. but love? was it really?
the sound of matt loud gasp made me look up at him. "what? why are you asking"
i took a deep breath, leaning my head against the couch behind me. "i'm just not sure. i mean, i like david a lot... i don't know, i just feel on cloud nine whenever we are together." i chuckled and matt looked down. "i can't even explain to you the feeling of being around him, or the feeling when he kiss me, or just simply when we're together in the same room. but you know me, do you think it's a mistake? do you think i love him?"
he waited a few seconds before looking at me. i know him since i was a baby, i can tell how he's feeling from his expressions, the way he moves or even the way he breathes. i know matt like the back of my hand. but right now, i couldn't read him at all. i didn't know what that look meant, it felt weird, but i didn't want to say anything. "so..." he cleared his throat. "i don't know angie. maybe you do? i can't tell you how you feel, but you like him a lot, apparently."
i shrugged again. "i don't know, should i tell him? or..."
"why do you always think that i know the answer?" matt chuckled. i gave him a faint smile, crawling to sit by his side. i hugged his arm and laid my head on his shoulder.
"i really do like him a lot." matt kissed my forehead.
"i know you do." i slid my hand to intertwine our fingers.
"but we're not together yet." i looked at him.
"ask him to be your boyfriend, i don't know." matt laughed. "he would love that and knowing david, he will take so long because he's a coward most of the time."
i frowned. that was a really good idea. but what if he said no? maybe he will find it weird, i don't know, we are only doing this for a month now.
matt grabbed my chin, forcing me to look at him in the eyes. "stop overthinking this, angela, it will work out fine, trust me. don't let your stupid insecurities stop you from being happy."
i only nodded and decided to go back to what i was doing. i kinda didn't want to think about this too much, knowing that i would probably freak out at the end of the day like i always do, but at the same time i needed to. i don't know, sometimes i need to stop and think about all of this.
my feelings towards david is scary. it's scary because we are not officially together and anything can go wrong. scary because i haven't felt like this in such a long time. after ashton, i didn't feel like falling in love. of course i went on dates, even tried with caleb, but it wasn't the same. god, ashton made me feel so loved, all the time, he made me feel and realize that i mattered. i'm so grateful for everything that we went through together, he basically helped me become the person that i'm today. how can someone beat that up?
that someone might be david. even though i was happy with this whole thing about ashton making me be the person i am today, david helped know another side of myself. he took me out of my comfort zone and showed me the best things in life. it feels so, so good.
this bubbly feeling inside my stomach whenever he holds my hand, the way i melt under his gaze, or the goofy smile glued to my face when i hear him talking is everything to me. god, it's refreshing to feel like this. it's so beautiful to be by david's side, to be able to hold his hand and to kiss his pinky lips. maybe he was the missing piece.
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i promise you, the plot is right around the corner please don't give up, it'll come in a few chapters