None of us spoke a word as we just started at each other for what seemed like a millennium, I can't believe that I just told Harry that I loved him. Do I regret saying it? Like hell I do but with the way the silence is surrounding us the uneasy feeling is back in my stomach and I think the worst.
He doesn't love me
I didn't even mean for it to come out like that, I wasn't even sure that it was the right time to tell him and to blurt it all out after out intimate moment I suddenly feel like I've ruined our whole relationship.
I couldn't help but bite my trembling lip to stop the tears from flowing but it wouldn't work, I was so embarrassed that I just came out and said that to him, embarrassed that he wasn't saying anything to me just staring down at me waiting for an explanation, hurt that he didn't say anything back. I reopened my watery eyes and sniffed while Harrys expression changed from wonder to sadness and guilt, he didn't love me I knew it.
"No baby please don't cry." He shifted and moved off of me to a sitting position, I followed his movements and sat up straight not taking my eyes off of my fiddling fingers.
"Ava babe look at me, please" He pleaded and my heart broke but I felt ashamed to have let myself fall this quickly I mean we had only been together for over 3 months, it was too soon to declare our love for one another.
Shakily raising my head I stared into his eyes full of sorrow. I hadn't meant to get this emotional but there was nothing I could do, I was so down right now and all my confidence and self-esteem was shattered.
He slowly reached over and wiped underneath my eyes smiling slightly but right now I wasn't in the mood for smiling and being all happy.
"Y-you love me?" I nodded my head slowly the tears welling up in my eyes again
"I'm s-sorry" I silently cursed myself for stuttering but it couldn't be helped I was a mess.
"Don't be" He paused momentarily before speaking up again.
"I- I love you too" His statement came out as a whisper but I heard clearly and my head snapped up, my heart thudding against my chest. I hope I heard correctly, did he just say he loved me?
"You do?" I questioned, clinging onto the little bit of hope inside of me, he nodded and my shattered feelings and hurt heart fixed again and the smallest smile crept onto my face as did his.
"Yes, I Harry Styles are completely and utterly in love with you." He prodded my chest
"Ava Spark." Those words set me off again and the tears flowed, I practically pounced on Harry and wrapped my arms around his next inhaling his scent, I sobbed into his shoulder dampening his t shirt.
"Hey why are you crying, what's wrong?"
"It's stupid."
"Babe I don't care what's wrong?" I sighed before raising my head again.
"I just- I just thought you weren't going to say it back, I thought you didn't love me and that I ruined our relationship"
"My gorgeous girl, don't think like that, I loved you ever since you first sucked me off." He chuckled and I playfully hit his arm, dirty pervert.
"Look at me being a complete sap, I think I need to kill some people" We both laughed together again and all of the worry and stress of him not feeling the same way washed away. I was finally happy again and I was in love with the right person.
Harry POV
Yes she finally said it, she finally fucking said it. She loves me I love her and I couldn't be happier, ecstatic even. It broke my heart seeing her like that before, thinking that I didn't love her back but little did she know I've been falling for her since I first met her when she moved in.
She looked completely drained as we sat in silence after she declared her love for me and I couldn't help but feel guilty for not saying it back straight away or for not saying something to her, I was just in shock from her saying it first but we've both said it and I couldn't help but feel giddy inside.
Even though she had just woke up an hour ago she was lying peacefully asleep tucked into my chest, breathing lightly. I couldn't help but stare at the gorgeous girl I call mine lying beside me, a small smile tugged its way onto my lips seeing her so content. Call me a smug prick but I loved the way she came undone for me before was amazing and I had to stop myself from taking her there and then.
Mum and Rob were still out and I heard Gemma pottering around the house before so I presumed that mine and Ava's alone time was cut short, not that I minded I had already done part of what I wanted to do and I was happy.
A quiet knock broke me out of my trance staring at Ava and whipped my head around to see Gemma's brown hair popping into view we smile at each other before she spoke up.
"Hi, I'm making a cuppa and a sandwich for dinner, you want one?"
"Yeah I'll come down and make a cuppa, I'm starving and little miss lazy tucked up into my side had a bacon sandwich about an hour ago." I shifted slightly removing my arm from her petite waist, I froze when she stirred in her slumber but she was oblivious and went back to sleep. Standing up from the bed I walked around it and placed a kiss on her forehead before walking out the door and downstairs for dinner.
I hadn't realised the time until my mum and Rob walked through the door, mum wearing the biggest smile on her face while Rob came in with the shopping. She gasped when she saw my lying on the couch and rushed over to me unzipping her purse to show me a picture but it wasn't just any picture it was an ultrasound, an ultrasound of my new baby brother or sister. I sat up quickly and studied the picture, not much was shown but I could see the silhouette of the baby.
"How far?" I asked not taking my eyes off the distorted picture
"3 months exactly, nothing can go wrong." I smiled down at the picture and I finally looked up at my mum who had tear filled eyes
"You do know that I'm sorry for how I reacted yesterday right mum, I didn't mean it I just supposed I was in shock over the whole thing, and I'm still not over what happened with Jay." She just nodded
"I know darling, but you know I would never think of replacing Jay, this is just a new start for us and a chance for us to try again." I nodded and took her hand in mine.
"Love ya mum." I stood up and kissed her cheek.
"I love you too Haz"
Ava POV
The smile I had woken up with soon vanished when I realised Harry wasn't laying with me, the sheet underneath was cold so I presumed he must've been away for a while. I expected to be woken up with his face snuggled near mine but it wasn't.
Sighing I flung the duvet off of my covered legs and plodded over to my suitcase and pulled out a clean pair of underwear, leggings and a cosy jumper to wear today. I looked over to the clock on Harry's bedside table.
1.05 pm. Jet leg is completely kicking my arse this trip.
When I emerged from the bathroom I felt refreshed for some reason, like a whole weight was lifted off of my shoulders. Not only did we find out that Anne was pregnant but we declared out love for each other. Grabbing my phone from the bedside table I walked towards the door wondering whether Anne and everyone else had returned home. I hadn't made it out of the door before I bumped into a hard chest, I looked up and the smile that washed off had reappeared again.
"Watch where you're going." He smiled down at my while winding his arms around my waist
"Watch where you're going jackass." I leant up on my tiptoes and kissed his cheek
"Is your mum back home?"
"Yeah she got back about 10 minutes ago, she wants to see you."
My heart bubbled and my stomach did flips at what he has just said, I never expected to warm up to Anne so much after only meeting her yesterday. She was the perfect woman and mother figure and I could tell that Harry thought the world of her and his sister. Gang leader or not he's still a complete mummy's boy.
"Oh I'll go and see her now." Harry's arms unwound from my hips and cupped my cheeks to place another kiss on my lips.
"Good she has a present for you." I raised an eyebrow at him in which he just returned with a smile before walking off leaving me to wonder what 'present' Anne had for me.
I walked into the kitchen where Anne was standing with her back to me washing the dishes, she must have heard my presence because she dropped the few dishes left and wiped her hands on the hand towel and turned around with a wide smile on her face.
"Ava my darling, good afternoon." She gave me a hug before scurrying off out of the kitchen, she returned later with a small piece of paper in her hands and placed it into my hand.
I was confused at first when she put it in my hand but when I looked down to my palm as my heart thudded against my chest and swelled as I looked at the forming baby in the picture. This was their child, Harry's new sibling, the family's new start.
"I'm so happy for you all, this is incredible. You must be so happy." She nodded while her green eyes identical to Harry's watered. I smiled rubbing the picture thinking that this is how I felt when I found out I was pregnant, I may have been young then but I would've loved to be a mother, still do.
The wind was knocked out of my lungs as Anne brought me in for a hug, she sobbed quietly in my shoulders again.
"Aw Anne please don't be upset, I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry." She laughed slightly lifting her head from my neck.
"Oh no hunny you didn't, it's just I'm so happy. Harry is so accepting over this baby now and I have you to thank for that. Harry really loves you and I can see that, I'm glad he found someone better. You're a great person and you've changed him for the best and I thank you for that." Now it was my turn to cry, I couldn't stop the tears that formed in my eyes. Simple words can mean so much and can tug on your heart strings so badly.
"You don't realise how much what you just said meant to me, I've never had someone say such meaningful words to me ever, if you don't include my mum." I chuckled slightly and Anne wrapped her arms around me again.
"You deserve every kind word said to you dear, you're part of this family now. Don't you ever forget that?"
I nodded as she wiped the tears away from my face and kissed my cheek before smiling at me and walking into the living room leaving me to collect my thoughts over what had just happened. I finally felt like I was part of another family and I was grateful for it, maybe things could go right for a change.
.............
"See you later my darlings, have a nice flight. It's been lovely having you both here. Text me when you get home. I love you both." Anne engulfed us both in a hug squishing us both together.
"We will, we enjoyed coming here too. Love you mum."
"Yeah thanks for the hospitality, I really enjoyed staying with you. Take care of yourself and the little one." I tapped her small bump, I still couldn't believe that she was pregnant. It was surreal. She smiled at me while she rubbed her stomach gently.
"Yeah what she said mum, take care of the little one." He placed his hand on her rounded stomach, his hand rested on top of hers, my heart warmed at the picture perfect moment.
'Flight 19885 to Los Angeles is now boarding can all passengers please make their way to gate 5 thank you.'
"That's our flight mum we'll visit again soon." I sighed not wanting to leave here, I sure as hell missed living in England, everything and everyone was left behind.
"You better I love you Harry."
"Love you too mum."
We left a blubbering and hormonal Anne behind hand in hand as we walked towards the departure lounge and then to our gate towards home.
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