Reena's POV
The moment our lips touch, my body ignites. I moan to him and rewarded with a moan from him.
Mas hinila ko pa yung buhok niya at diniinan yung halik ko sa kanya. I reach the hem of his shirt para tanggalin. Humiwalay ako sa halik at tinaas yung shirt niya.
"Reena. I can't take advantage of you." he pleas again.
"You're not." I kiss him again.
And we didn't say anything anymore...
Binuhat niya ako ng nakapulupot yung braso ko sa leeg niya at yung mga paa ko sa waist niya. His one hand on my butt and the other on my waist to support me habang hinahalikan niya ako.
Binuksan niya yung pinto at sinipa lang niya nung nakapasok na kami sa kwarto niya.
Automatic na nag-on yung lampshade.The light is dim and not so bright and I like it this way... it's like hot and romantic at the same time.
He put me down on top of the bed and him on top of me.
Hinila niya pataas yung damit ko at nagkahiwalay yung mga labi namin ng ilang segundo.
I palm him beneath his jeans and he groans.
Binaba niya yung halik niya sa leeg ko hanggang sa makarating sa shorts ko at tinanggal din niya ito kasama yung underwear ko.
It took me off guard when he kissed me down there.
I moan automatically. He tongued me expertly. God I have missed this in years!
After sucking and flickung my clit, he tugged his pants down and grabbed a condom on the bedside table.
He enters me and he fucked me relentlessly... over and over again. I missed him...
It was past 2 in the morning when we were done taking pleasures with each other and I may be sore in the morning. I cuddle with him sleeping soundly.
How did I end up seducing him and begging him to sleep with me? God. I am not drinking again.
When I woke up in the morning, I'm all naked with the comforter covering only half of my body.
Babangon sana ako pero biglang sumakit yung ulo ko. Gaaah. And I'm sore.
"Gising ka na?" boses ni Kevin. Nakatayo siya sa doorway ng kwarto niya only in sweats and a water on his hand. Uminom siya sa baso sabay lumapit sa'kin.
Shit. Napapikit ako nung marealize ko na sumama nga pala ako sa kanya kagabi.
And I am fucking naked! Ugggggghh I remember all the things that I did last night!
Inabutan niya ako ng gamot at nung baso ng tubig na ininuman niya kanina.
Bumangon ako ng dahan dahan tsaka ininom yung gamot.
"Thanks." hindi nakatingin na sabi ko sa kanya.
"What? You're just going to ignore me?"
I shift my sight to look at him. Nakatayo lang siya sa gilid ng kama at naka cross yung arms.
"I'm not ignoring you." I roll my eyes at him.
"Alam mo kung galit ka, sabihin mo lang. You were the one who initiated it last night."
"I know, okay? Hindi mo kailangang ipaalala kung gaano ako kagagang pinilit yung sarili niya sa lalaking ayaw naman sa kanya. We're just repeating history, aren't we?" sagot ko sa kanya.
"You called me first." sabi niya. Tinutukoy niya ba yung pinatayan ko siya dahil napaka annoying niya?
"Yeah, I did." I state as a matter of fact, "pero hindi ko sinabing puntahan mo ko." I point my finger at him.
"Sure. Kung hindi ako dumating du'n baka kung ano nang nangyari sa'yo. Puro lalaki kasama mo kagabi." he says and I felt frustrated in what he just said.
"Hindi naman sila "lalaki" lang eh. They're my friends and yours too. Bakit ba ganyan ka mag-isip, ha?"
Nag-aaway na kaagad kami umagang umaga. These are the signs that says we really shouldn't be in the same room together,
"God knows what could have happened if I didn't come over to get you. Thanks to me!"
"Oh like what? I could have slept with someone who I shouldn't have?" I say and he knows what I mean. I shouldn't have slept with him but it doesn't mean I didn't want to.
"You didn't really give me much of a choice if you remember." he answers back.
I remember everything dahil hindi naman ako yung na a amnesia kapag nalalasing eh.
"Don't you dare blame everything on me now. You could have said no!"
"I did! Paulit ulit pa nga eh!" he shouts back.
"Fine! So it's my fault! I'm frustated and humiliated! Will you just get out so I can fix myself and get the hell out of here?" my tone is rude.
Inaamin ko na kasalanan ko but he's acting like he's the only victim here. Acting like he didn't want it to happen!
"Bakit ba ang ayos ng pakikipagusap ko sayo tapos ganyan ka makasagot?"
"What? Anong maayos?" I scoffed, "you're being a jerk AGAIN and you know it."
"I'm being a jerk? Eh paano ka pa kaya?"
"Pwede ba? Tama na okay? Awat na. Wala rin namang pupuntahan to eh. I don't even know why I'm having this conversation with you." sabi ko at nandun pa rin siyang nakatayo.
Tumayo ako ng nakabalot pa rin yung kumot sa katawan ko at kinuha yung mga damit ko na sa upuan sa side sabay pasok sa banyo at nilock yung pinto.
Nung makapagayos ako sa banyo, yung shoes ko nasa sala pala. Pagkalabas ko ng banyo, wala na si Kev sa loob ng kwarto.
Lumabas na ako at naabutan ko siya sa kitchen pero dumeretso pa rin ako sa sala.
Umupo ako ng couch tsaka inayos yung shoes ko.
"Pwede ba tayong magusap ng maayos?" naglakad si Kevin at umupo rin sa couch.
"Wag na. Hindi na kailangan. I got drank, went home with you, had sex with you and now I'm leaving. Just like old times." sagot ko ng hindi tumitingin sa kanya.
"Things changed, Reena."
"Changed? Ano bang nagbago? It's still the same. We just have sex for fun." I point out. I just finished fixing my shoes.
"No, it's not just for fun and you know it. You feel it."
"Really? Bakit na f-feel mo ba? Alam mo Kev, ayos lang naman eh. Wala kang kailangang gawin to make me feel better."
"Hindi lang naman para sa'yo yung gusto kong mangyari eh. I want us to try over again."
Is he on drugs?
"Try over again?"
"I want us to have a commitment."
"A commitment? Are you kidding me? Last time I offered that to you three years ago, kulang na lang itulak mo ako para umalis na talaga ako. Wag na tayong maglokohan Kev."
"Bakit ba lagi mong sinasali yung noon? Haven't you moved on from that?"
He's seriously asking me that? Akala ba niya madali? Hindi niya kasi alam kung gaano kalalim yung nararamdaman ko kaya kahit hanggang ngayon, mahal ko pa rin tong gagong nasa harapan ko.
"Ni hindi mo nga ako pinuntahan para makapagpaalam ka man lang sana ng maayos sa airport." sumbat ko sa kanya.
"Nandun ako."
"Ano?"
"Ayokong makita mo ko pag umalis ka." hindi nakatinging sagot niya sa'kin.
"Bakit ba takot na takot sa mga taong gustong maging parte ng buhay mo?"
"Because you never know when they'll leave you."
"Kev..."
"Eto na nga 'yun eh. Sinusubukan ko na." his voice is soft.
"Hindi ganon kadali yung hinihingi mo eh."
"Bakit hindi?"
I want to give him every reason that I have kung bakit hindi pwede but why can't I say anything?
"Bakit ikaw ngayon yung takot na takot?"
I sighed, "Hindi mo alam kung anong sinasabi mo. Ano bang naisip mo at sinasabi mo ngayon 'to sa'kin?"
He leans his back on the couch.
"Because until last night, I didn't realize how badly I have missed you." he says looking straight in my eyes and there I was smitten by what he just said.
Hindi ako nakasagot agad pero nakabawi rin ako.
"What happened yesterday then? Bakit kung makareact ka parang hindi mo ako kilala at hindi mo ako nakita?"
"Nagulat ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin o kung paano ako marereact sa harapan mo. That's why I acted like I didn't care."
"Bakit ang dali dali para sa'yong hindi makealam?"
He sighed, "when it comes to you, it's hard. You even got drunk dahil lang hindi kita pinansin. Look how it affects the both of us."
Napakunot ako ng noo sa sinabi niya at tinaas yung isa kong paa sa couch at hinarap siya.
"Why do you make it hard for people to love you?"
Sinandal niya yung ulo niya at tsaka siya pumikit.
"It's hard to let people in. It's even harder to make them love me." sabay bukas ng mga mata niya at tumingin sa'kin habang nakasandal pa rin.
"That's not true. It is easy for me to love you." I say and he frowns... nilagay niya yung kamay niya sa pisngi ko.
"That's why I want to commit with you. I want to let you in. Take the risk with me."
Nilapit niya yung mukha niya sa akin as he kissed me passionately... I kiss him back, snaking my arms around his neck.I still love him after all these years. He's not hard to love, what's hard is letting that love go. I will take the risk with him.
He pulled away pero malapit pa rin yung mukha niya sa akin. His forehead to mine... we never had this kind of closeness before. Iba yung feeling and it feels damn good to be this close to him. God, I never want to be far away from him from now on.
"I've missed you," I tell him looking straight in his eyes as he smiled, his genuine smile.
As he kiss me again.
**
We're at the supermarket, we're both starving so we decided to buy something and I'll cook for him.
I bought ingredients for lasagna, since he said he liked it too and I'm craving.
Habang nasa counter kami, laging nagnanakaw ng tingin yung babae na kasunod naming magbayad kay Kevin. Will she stop staring? Nagbabayad kami nung ilagay niya yung kamay niya sa bewang ko and I blush.
I looked at the girl na tumititig sa kanya, but she just looked away. Yeah, he's with me so back off.
"Kuya gave me his unit." I smile.
"Hindi ka na nakatira sa mommy mo?"
"Nope. Kuya, his wife and my nephew live there now." I smiled at him.
"Nice. Let's go to your place then." he winked at me and that made me smile because it feels good looking at him being playful.
Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala. Really? He's with me right now? I can't stop smiling at the thought.
We drove his car on the way to the supermarket so he's driving. He looked so hot driving...
May tumawag sa kanya habang nag dr drive siya.
He puts his earpiece on and answered the phone.
He talked about plans and everything that I didn't get to understand while his hand is on my thigh. Removing it only when he'll shift.
He pulls into the parking space assigned to my unit.
I got out the car, habang kinuha niya yung plastic bag nung mga pinamili namin.
Nagelevator na kami tsaka ko pinindot yung floor kung saan yung unit ko.
Nilapag niya yung mga pinamili namin sa kitchen at umupo sa living room and he just watched tv.
"You hungry?" I ask him.
"Yeah. Very hungry." Sabi niya pero parang may something sa sagot niya.
"Wait, magluluto na ako." Paalam ko at saktong nakatayo na ako nung hilain niya ako kaya napahiga kami at napapatong ako sa kanya.
"Kevin!" I scold him but he didn't respond instead, he just kissed me... as I kiss him back. My hands in his chest, his arms around my waist. We're moving in sync. Oh, he's a good kisser as always.
I pushed him, "I need to cook."
He smiled, letting me go. Tumayo naman ako at dumeretso ng kwarto ko para makapagpalit na muna ng damit. I want to take a shower badly because I can still smell the alcohol on me but I'll cook first. Someone's hungry in my house.
I took off my shorts at kumuha ng plain white PJs, nagbihis at lumabas na.
Nung lumabas ako, nakatayo siya sa may glass window at may kausap siya sa phone niya. I just shrugged at nagsimula na akong magluto. Madali lang naman to.
"Hold on. Reena, pahiram ako ng laptop mo. I just need to check on something." He address the person on the phone then to me. Nandito na pala siya sa kusina di ko pa napansin.
"Yeah, sure. I'll go get it," kinuha ko mula sa kwarto yung laptop ko.
"Here," I handed him my Macbook.
"Thanks." And he gave me a peck on the lips while he was talking on the phone. I blushed and smiled at bumalik na sa kusina ulit. Well, I have to get used to it from now on, right?
Sana lagi kaming ganito pero ang tanong... may nagbago na ba talaga sa relasyon namin?
I finished after almost an hour. Hindi naman siya nagparamdam sa kusina. I think he's busy. He's busy on a Sunday... workaholic man.
I put it on two plates, two spoon and fork, grabbed a water, mango juice, put it all in tray at nagpunta na sa living room.
Wala naman na siyang kausap sa phone.
"Saan ka natutong magluto?" tanong niya sa akin. Alam kasi niyan na hindi talaga ako nagluluto nung andito ako sa Manila.
"I had to learn or else I would have starved to death in New York." Sagot ko naman at kinuha niya yung tinidor para tikman yung luto ko.
"Mmhm," He smiles at me.
"Glad you liked it." Sabi ko at sinabayan ko na siyang kumain. I'm really starving.
"Why do you work even on Sundays?" tanong ko sa kanya after niya uminom ng tubig. I finished eating first.
He shrugged, "Nakasanayan na since I can't find anything better to do."
"Well..." nagdadalawang isip ako kung itutuloy ko ba yung sasabihin ko.
"What is it?" baling niya ng tingin sa akin.
"It's just that, you're stressing yourself so much." Sabi ko na lang. I was about to say, hang out with your family. But I didn't because he wouldn't want me talking about that.
"I'm not stressed." He confidently said.
Yeah, I can see that clearly. He looks better than he did 3 years ago. It's not that I'm saying he doesn't look good before, he looks much better now. Broader shoulders, his whole body looks better too. And his face? Always gorgeous, drop dead gorgeous. Not exaggerating anything but girls are always looking at him and it's annoying. Should I get used to that too?
I shake off my thoughts.
"I'm going to have a shower first." Paalam ko sa kanya at dumeretso na ng kwarto ko.
I was taking off my last clothing, his shirt when he entered the room.