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What happens when your own thoughts betray you and you have nowhere else to turn? This is my story, and I wil... More

Lingers on My Lips
Darkness, My Weakness
Beauty Lies Within
Hansha
Scared to Admit It
Set Ablaze
Everything I Hate
Since Day One
September 15, 2017
October 26
Wasted Time
Tired and Goodnight
Apology/Happy For You
We Fell in Love
Dream State -White Lies
What I Am
A Dream
A Forest
Not a Poem (Why am I Even Writing This?)
Thing I Wrote (3/6/18)
Useless/Worthless
Poison
Is It Wrong?
5/31/2018 - Dreams
6/28/2018 - Ghosts
7/12/2018 - Friend Anniversary
7/13/2018 - Forever Beyond My Grasp
7/13/2018 - Withering Roses
7/14/2018 - My World
Nothing Is Ever Eternal
7/21/2018 - Note to Self About Myself
A Smile (8/12/2018)
Dear Death
9/21/2018 - A Quick Rant
Sunlight - October 5, 2018
This Moment - October 5, 2018
In Dreams - 10/10/2018
October 17, 2018 - Tyrant
October 17, 2018 - Kingdom Falls
October 17, 2018 - Peace Under Heaven
October 19, 2018 - Oh Heart, Oh Mind
October 20, 2018 - You Are Worth Remembering
October 24, 2018 - Love Is Not Meant For Me
October 24, 2018 - Will This Sadness Ever End?
22/10/2018 - Gray Waters
30/10/18 - Misery
2/11/2018 - Ghost/Memories
2018/11/4 - Blood Flower
2018/11/7 - Please/I Miss You So Much
2018/11/8 - Petals in the Wind
2018/11/15 - You Are My Only One
2018/29/11 - Weak
2018/12/2 - Relapse
2018/12/5 - To Live is to Die
2018/12/5 - Disdain
2018/12/5 - Cataclysm
2018/12/7 - Pain
2018/12/10 - An Empty Box
2018/12/17 - Eternal Rain
Always the Same
Empty Air
2018/12/22 - Permanent Sadness
I Cannot Break Free
2019/3/1 - You Can't Bring Back the Past
2019/10/1 - Forget Me
Frail
A Thing
Promises
Paths
Pathways
Crossroads
Winter
Like Waves
Blood-thirsty Lions
I Don't Want to Exist
I Only Feel Sadness
I Grieve
Tell Me Why...
i'm sorry...
Wings of Eternity
Echoes of the Dead
Remember
Forgetting
Alone
Me
Unwell
The Artist
Fog
You're Leaving Me
Feelings (Intuition)
Pieces of Love
Author's Note

I Told Myself

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By Alex_Collin97

I told myself to stay away.
My heart has been one big mess
Since the moment I learned to feel:
It's always too much
Or never enough.

My heart swells with love
For anyone but me,
And I know that's just me
Asking to be hurt,
But that's just how
It's always been.

I know I'm not meant for her,
Or anyone for that matter,
But the fact remains that I
Still care for her all the same.

Even if I'm not much help,
I hope my listening makes her feel better
Because it's sad to see such a
Beautiful sweet soul, wallowing in eternal misery.

I can't help but remember how
Happy she made me, not just on one occasion,
But several; I only hope I bring her joy as well,
To help her when she is feeling sad.

I told myself to stay away,
A conflicted heart breeds eternal wounds,
But I am like a moth drawn to her flame.

She suffers in silence, a pale blue flame
Of the highest intensity.
If only I was skilled with words,
Maybe then they would provide her
With the coolness to calm her flame.

But sadly, my words only add fuel to the flame,
So I can only hope my listening brings comfort.

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