"Di ko 'pagpapalit ang ating pag-ibig.. mananatiling tapat sa pangako, handang maghintay sa gitna ng lumbay... maghihintay ako."
After ng album launch at after party ay umuwi na kami. Sobrang saya ko ngayong araw because my Kissabels saw what I have been working on.
Nang nasa room ko na ako, nabasa ko yung text ni Edward sa akin. I did not mind on replying. Hindi ko rin naman kasi alam kung ano irereply ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano bang dapat kong gawin.
Sa sobrang pagiisip ay hindi ko na namalayan na nakatulog na ako. Dahil na rin siguro sa sobrang pagod.
Kinabukasan ay maaga rin akong gumising dahil inimbitahan ako ni Mommy Vice sa kanila. Hinatid lang ako ng parents ko saka ako iniwanan doon.
"Mommy!" Wika ko sabay yakap sa kanya.
"Anak! Hala, ang napakaganda kong anak!" Ani Mommy sabay yakap sakin ng mahigpit. "Pasensya na't hindi ako nakarating kagabi ah?"
Humiwalay na ako sa yakap, "Okay lang po, naiintindihan ko naman po."
Nang pumasok kami ay nakita kong halos showtime host ang nandito. Nilapitan naman ako ni Mama Karylle at niyakap ako ng mahigpit.
"Congrats, baby girl!" Ani Mama K.
"Thank you, Mama!" Wika ko sabay yakap.
"Tamo, si Kisses, kurbang kurba na rin." I heard kuya Vhong.
"Anak nga ni K, makurba din." I think it was kuya Billy?
Nang humiwalay naman ako sa pagkakayakap ni Mama K ay isa isa akong bumeso sa mga kasamahan nila.
"Kisses?" It was Tyang Amy.
"Hello po."
"Can I have a word with you?"
Tumango naman ako. Lumabas siya kaya naman sinundan ko siya.
"Alam ko, you already saw the segment where blind item was..." Aniya. "Alam mo na.."
Tumango ako. "It's okay po, tyang."
She sighed. "It is not. Kasi alam kong hindi totoo.. I wish I said something to defend you."
I shook my head. "You don't have to do that po, tyang. It's really okay."
Niyakap naman niya ako ng mahigpit. "Sana'y maging matatag ka pa lalo. Kasi, siguradong marami ang sisira sa'yo lalo na ngayong sobrang successful mo."
"Tyang, wala naman po sakin yung issue nila. As long as may naniniwala po sa akin tsaka nagmamahal."
"Count me in."
"Po?"
"Count me in sa nagmamahal sa'yo." Aniya. "I so love you, kasi nakita ko kung paano ka mahalin nila Vice at K, so sabi ko, walang masamang tinapay sa batang 'to kaya mamahalin ko."
Napakayap ako ng mahigpit kay Tyang Amy. "Thank you po. Sobra."
Niyakap niya lang ako biglang sagot. I felt love from her hug. Sobrang blessed ko talaga.
"Tyang! Tama na 'yang drama, kawawa anak ko!" It was Mommy Vice.
Tyang and I broke the hug and laughed. Sobrang happy ng heart ko kasi madagdagan yung tinuturing kong family.
Pagpasok namin ay tumulong na si Tyang sa pagluluto. I sat next to kuya James who's busy on his phone. Baka kausap si ate Nadine?
"Hi?" I was so hesistant to greet him. Kasi nga he was kinda busy.
"Hello, there." He greeted me back.
I sneaked on his phone and saw that he was watching videos on youtube. My jaw fell when I saw what was it.
"Omgg. JamLi?" I blurted out and I immediately covered my mouth kasi napatingin si kuya James sa akin.
"You...?"
"Sorry. Sorry. I did not meant to see it."
"No, no, no. What I meant was, you know JamLi?"
"Uh, yes?" Wika ko. "Make some noise JamLi!"
He giggled. "Wow, did not knew JamLi's still alive."
"Sa puso ko po, alive na alive." Wika ko. "Yellow hearts, woohooo."
He laughed. "How I wish she still remembers it."
Bigla naman akong napatingin kay kuya James. "Bakit naman po?"
"Mukha kasing nakalimutan na niya." He said and smiled weakly.
"Huh? Nakipagmeet po siya diba? Sa mga fans niyo?"
He shook his head. "Hindi. Sa mga fans lang niya."
"Hindi po. JamLi Poppers po mga kasama niya."
His jaw fell open. "What? Totoo?"
I nodded. "Opo kaya. Nung before siya magjudge sa Miss World."
"Bakit di ko alam?"
"Kasi busy ka?"
"No." Aniya. "I do have time whenever it is about her."
"Paano naman po si ate Nadine?"
He sighed. "I'm being unfair... I know."
"Alam niyo naman po pala, eh bakit po parang si Ann Li pa rin?"
He smiled at me. "Kasi siya naman talaga."
Napanganga naman ako sa sinabi niya tsaka napakamot sa ulo. "Po?"
"It was always her. It has been, it is and will always be her."
Muntik na ako bumaliktad sa upuan ko dahil sa sinabi niya.
"Nakakagulat no? But yes, it's true." Aniya. "Even Nadz knows it. Every song I wrote and sang was all about her."
Hindi ko kinaya yung revelations ni kuya James! Grabe!
"And we had this conversation once when we were still at PBB house.." Aniya. "She said, we'll wait for each other.. bago maging kami. And to tell you, I was a jerk for leaving her behind."
"Jerk?" Wika ko. "Kasi naging kayo ni Ericka?"
"No." Aniya. "I was a jerk for forgetting my promises to her."
Napakamot ako sa ulo. "Alin?"
"That no matter how the management wanted me to be paired with others, I'll still be hers. I'll still be her James."
Napahinto naman ako bigla sa sinabi niya. I suddenly remembered Edward and all of his promises to me. Oo aaminin ko na naiinis ako sa kanya kasi tinalikuran niya ako. Pero hearing this from kuya James? Bakit biglang nalusaw?
"And I made her changed." Ani kuya James and he sighed. "She was once like you. So sweet. And now, she's so daring."
"Si Ate Nadz din naman?"
"Nadz and Ann are so different." Ani kuya James. "Same as you and Maymay."
Napakunot noo naman ako sa sinabi niya. "Ano pong ibig mong sabihin?"
He smiled. "You are Ann. I am Edward. And Maymay's Nadz." He then looked away. "Edward can't hurt Maymay that's why he's still staying at Maymay's side." Napatingin nalang ako sa kanya. "He chose to hurt you and hurt himself more, as you can see, he's on a situation he never dreamed off."
"Bakit mo po alam?"
"Kasi I am on his situation." Aniya. "And I am a guy, Kisses. Alam ko kapag may gusto ang isang lalake."
"But.."
"No, Kisses. Don't defend it." Aniya at pinat ako sa ulo. "He loves you, you love him, but you can't be together now. End of the story.... for now."
Nagkamot nanaman ako sa ulo. "Hala."
He smiled. "Learn to wait, baby girl. Look at me, been waiting for almost seven years."
I laughed. "We're different kuya James. Kasi ikaw pwede kang gumawa ng move, ako hindi naman."
"Nope. If I can, baby girl, I already did sana." Aniya. "But soon, if I'll have enough confidence to face her."
"Balitaan mo po ako ah?" Wika ko.
He nodded. "Wait for him, he loves you so much."
I smiled at kuya James. Sa pinagusapan namin ay nagkaroon ang ng lakas ng loob para maghintay. He told me the things I needed to hear, from someone whom you thought so happy with his relationship. Nah, every thing is so deceiving now.
I looked for my phone and browsed on my messages. Wow, so many congratulations from people I love. But there is one person whom I really wanted to reply on.
My Superman:
Edwaaaaaaaard!!!! Thank you!! Heard you're in Taiwan? Pasalubong ah! And slay it, superman! I'm so so so proud too!
My Superman:
And yep, maghihintay ako. Ano mang mangyari, maghihintay ako.
And there, I said it. The thing I wanted to say to him kahit na ang dami ng dahilan para bumitaw ako at palayain siya. Kaya lang hindi ko talaga kayang bitawan, eh. May tatak na kasi talaga.
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AN: I used JamLi x JaDine. But, I don't have anything against sa JaDine. I love both ships, so yeah. 💛