"Forever is a long time. But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side."
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Do you remember how we first met? Damn, this is a gayshit. Hahahaha.
I met you because of Marco, we had the same course and you had the same circle of friends. Small world, eh? I always see you at Accountancy Department. I don't have the courage to talk to you kasi hindi naman makapal mukha ko. Yes, I'm gwapo but not makapal.
Marco invited me to hangout with his friends, Marco was one of my college buddies din. I didn't know you where there, tho. Ang lapad ng ngiti ko. Hindi mo lang siguro nahalata nun. Nag-umpisa tayo sa..
"Idol." I called you.
"Hala. Bakit idol?" You asked and smiled at me.
Tae. Kinikilig talaga ako nung mga panahon na yun. Bading talaga. Ampota. Simpleng ngiti mo lang tagos na sa buto ko.
At ayun nga, I told you na pa-add sa facebook. Because, I can't add you kaso marami ka ng friends sa facebook. You're popular, not just in your departmet but in the whole campus. You said yes so, I when I got home I waited for a friend request but.. NGANGA. Wala man. -___-
One week later, you still didn't add me. So, I told myself not to wait anymore. Syempre, sino ba ako diba? Nakalimutan mo na nga yata ako eh.
And, later that night I opened my facebook, there's a one friend request and one message. At dahil pa-chix ako, inuna ko ang message. At booom! Halos mahulog ako sa kinauupuan ko nung mabasa ko yung message at nakita ko yung friend request.
Kisses Delavin:
Hi Idol. Sorry ah? Sira kasi wifi namin. Huhu. Kaya ngayon lang kita na-add. Pa-accept na lang! :)
Pwede na ba akong mamatay? HAHAHAHA. Ampotek. Nababakla nanaman ako. Ganito ba talaga pag tinamaan?
Edward Barber:
Hi! I thought you forgot me na already.
Kisses Delavin:
What? No! I didn't saw you in campus, that's why..
Hanggang sa tuluy tuloy na yung pag-uusap natin. I really don't know what happened, tinamaan na talaga ako sayo. Marco was teasing me, he said I should confess my feelings to you. Ang hirap kaya!
Nahihiya man ako sayo pero kinapalan ko na ang mukha ko. I asked for your phone number and you gave it. Mula pag-gising at bago matulog ikaw katext ko.
Ang gwapo ko no? HAHAHAHA. Siyempre, joke lang. Ang saya ko lang kasi. Oo na. Bading na kung bading. Mahal ko eh. Bakit ba?!
December 25, ****
We celebrated christmas together. Ang saya ng pasko ko. Who wouldn't? Kung yung taong mahal mo kasama mo sa araw ng pasko.
"Dear. I want to tell you something." I told her. Dear, yun yung tawagan natin.
"What is it, Dear?"
"Will you believe if I told you I like you?" I asked. Instead of answering, you just smiled at me. Ang hilig mong ngumiti. Kaya nahuhulog ako lalo eh.
"Uhm. Oo. Hindi naman ako manhid eh." My jaw dropped at what you said. That time, you already know that I like you more than a friend.
I was so happy na kahit alam mong mahal kita hindi mo ako iniwasan. Takot lang kasi akong ma-reject. Sino bang lalaki ang hindi matatakot ma-reject kung yung taong mahal mo eh halos buong campus may gusto sa kanya? Anong laban ko diba?
Wala. Ay, hindi. Meron pala. Yun yung totoo at tapat kong pagmamahal sayo. Ang cheesy ba? Hahaha. Tae. Ngayon ko nga lang naramdaman yung ganito eh.
Tatlong buwan. Tatlong buwan ako naghintay sa sagot mo. Sa totoo lang wala akong pakialam kung maghihintay ako ng matagal. Hindi naman kasi ako nagmamadali. Ayokong madaliin 'to. Ayokong ma-pressure ka.
"Dear, may sasabihin ako." Seryoso mong sabi. Nasa school tayo noon, nagpasa ako ng mga huling requirements para sa semester na yun. Ganun din ginawa mo.
"What is it, dear?" Sa totoo lang kabado ako noon. Ang seryoso mo kasi.
"Ano, hm..." Tumigil ka saglit. "Sinasagot na kita." Napatigil din ako sa kasunod ng sinabi mo. Ang bagal mag-sink in. "Ayaw mo yata eh. Wag na." Sabi mo pa sabay pout. Natawa ako kasi doon palang nag-sink in sa kin yung sinabi mo.
"Weh? Di nga? Promise? Pwera biro?" Sunod sunod kong tanong.
"Ay hindi sige. Paasa lang. Oo nga e. Kulet." Sagot mo sakin. Ngumiti ka nun. Napangiti na rin ako.
"Yeeees! Sinagot na niya ako!!!" I shouted. Halos lahat ng tao sa corridor nakatingin satin. Napayakap pa nga ako noon sayo eh. Natawa ka lang. Natawa na lang din ako.
Nung araw ng closing para sa school year na yun, nakatanggap ako ng napakagandang remembrance, yun yung matamis mong oo.
Ang saya ko nun. Halos isigaw ko na nga sa buong campus eh. Ang OA no? Wala eh, mahal kita eh. Ang high ko. Hanggang sa pag-uwi sa bahay, abot hanggang langit ngiti ko.
Halos buong summer tayo at ang pamilya lang natin ang magkasama. Ang saya nga e. business partners pala ang pamilya natin. Ikaw pala yung babaeng mukhang intsik noon.
Nakakatawa nga eh. Asar na asar ka sakin noon. Halos saksakin mo na nga ako ng chopstick noon kasi lagi kitang inaasar. Pero, tingnan mo kung ano tayo ngayon? Lovers na tayo. Hahaha
Pinagkwentuhan natin yung mga yun. Tawa ako ng tawa kasi lagi kang pikon. Muntik ka pa ngang mag-walk out noon eh. Hinila kita at niyakap. Ayoko naman ng dahil don eh mag-aaway tayo. Pero, totoo pala yung sinasabi ng iba. Yung pagkatapos ng saya may kapalit na lungkot.
"Dear, my grandfather wants us to go back to Germany." I told you. Oo, nakakalungkot. Pero, para sa future rin naman kasi natin 'to eh.
"Ayos lang yan dear. Para sayo naman eh." Sagot mo sabay ngiti. Ayokong makita mong malungkot din ako. Alam kong mas mahihirapan ka. "Promise me that you'll never ever replace me or else I'm gonna kill you." My jaw dropped at what you said. Didn't know if it's a joke or what.
"Joke dear. I love you."
"I love you too my dear." Sabi ko sabay yakap sayo. Baka kasi eto na yung huli. Diba aalis na kami? :(
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When I left, I know that my home will always be here. Sobrang bigat sa pakiramdam. But, I should be strong.. for our relationship and for the both of us. I'll always comeback to you, no matter what happen.
"Dear!!"
"Hey? Ang saya mo yata?" I asked.
"Yes, dear." She said. "I saw Ate Laura na nga pala kanina."
"Really? Have you read my letter na?"
"Yes." She said. "You want me to read it?"
"Can you?"
"Uhm, of course!"
"Don't cry ha?"
"I'm not a crybaby!"
I chuckled. "I didn't said you're a crybaby, dear."
"Whatever." You said. "Okay, I'm gonna read you're letter na!"
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Dear Kisses,
We are 6,419 miles away from each other. Have you ever thought of giving up on me? Because, I'm not. I won't give up on our relationship. Sobrang perfect na kasi kung anong meron tayo ngayon. Kaso, naging fail sa distansya ng mga tinitirhan natin.
Pero, kung mahal naman talaga natin ang isa't isa, distance, age, time, Wala mga yan. Bakit? Kasi numbers lang yan. Ikaw na mismo nagsabi noon, distance, weight, height, age, time, doesn't matter.
Will you still wait for me? Will you still be by my side even if we're too far? Will you still be my Mrs. Barber? Because, I will. Hihintayin ko yung time na makakasama ulit kita. Walang sawa akong maghihintay, iintindihin ka sa mga kalokohan, kaartehan, kadramahan, kalungkutan, kasayahan mo sa buhay mo. Walang sukuan na mangyayari. I really miss you, Kisses. I love you.
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"Are you crying?" I asked her.
"No.." But she's sniffing. Really, baby? Damn.
"I miss you."
"I miss you too, Ed."
And I heard her crying again, my heart shattered. I wanted to hug her but I'm too far from her. So, I ended up telling her how much I love her and how much I wanted to see her.
I talked to my grandfather about Kisses, I told him how amazing Kisses is. He was so happy when he found out that Kisses was my childhood friend. He gave me advices about how relationship should be.
Three days after, I called Kisses asking where she was. She wasn't on her happy mood. I was smiling when I was talking to her.
"Shut up, Ed. I'm not in the mood." She told me.
"Aw, my baby's in her red flag today."
"Whatever, Edwardo."
She threw the ball real hard that made an irritating sounds. I tried not to laugh but I can't.
"Damn! Someone's really mad." I told her.
Bigla naman siyang napaharap sakin at nanlaki ang mata. "Edward! Oh, god!"
Tumakbo siya agad palapit sakin at niyakap ako ng mahigpit. Yakap na ayaw mo ng bumitaw. Napatawa naman ako dahil sa reaksyon niya.
"Missed me, baby?" Pangaasar ko.
Hindi pa rin siya humihiwalay sa pagkakayakap sakin. "Sobra. Sobra sobra."
Niyakap ko na din siya pabalik at nilagay ang baba ko sa balikat niya. "I miss you too, baby."
"Sobrang miss na miss kita."
"Alam ko." Wika ko. "Nararamdaman ko."
"Clingy mo talaga." Pangaasar niya.
"Alam mo namang sayo lang ako clingy 'di ba?"
"Kasi ako lang para sayo 'di ba?"
"Kasi ako lang din para sayo 'di ba?"
Napatawa ako sa sinabi niya. "Forever.."
".. and always."
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A/N: Okay sabaw at taglish na sobrang tagalog, sorry, hahaha