Astreus Lynx Perveus’s POV
“So may nakalimutan ba tayong bilhin?” I asked while we were in the car, we had just finished buying the things we needed.
We didn’t buy that much or anything we didn’t need and use, I was wondering if we forgot something but it doesn’t seem like we did.
“Mukhang wala naman kuya Lynx” Sabi ni Carla kaya tumango tango ako and start the engine.
We only buy foods that can be stored in the refrigerator like frozen foods and other ingredients as well as vegetables, and the rest is my siblings wants.
Habang nagmamaneho ay may napansin ako sa likod ng rear view mirror ng sasakyan kaya nang mag stop light ay kaagad kong kinuha kung ano iyon.
It’s a necklace, a gold necklace and it has a name on it but i can’t read it because it’s too small, besides the name there is also a number on the other side and the number is 082399.
But why does it looks... familiar?
While thinking about how it became familiar, my head suddenly got a headache and a sudden memory came to my mind and I saw a two little boy.
I couldn’t bear the pain so I bent over the steering wheel but the scene is still in my memory and I keep seeing the two boys always together.
What does this memory mean? What does this have to do with me? I don’t know those two little boy, i can’t even see their face it’s just a mouth with ears and a figure.
My head hurts more every time I try to think about what I remember, it’s just so weird..
“Kuya Lynx.. kuya Lynx!!” Tila nabalik ako sa ulirat nang marinig ko ang pagtawag sa’kin ni Carla at ang iyak ng dalawa kong kapatid.
“Waahh!!! Kuya are you okay?” Tristan asked, i smile at him and i saw the light turn green so I drove again.
“Stop crying, ayos lang si kuya hmm?” I said while looking at them smiling at the rear view mirror, they look worried kaya tinawanan ko sila— even though my head still hurts.
“Paguwi natin mag pahinga ka na, malinis naman na ang buong bahay kaya wala na tayong gagawin pa” Sabi ni. Carla na ikinangiti ko at tahimik na kaming lahat.
Tila naging awkward sa loob ng sasakyan kaya binilisan ko ang pagmamaneho para makauwi kaagad, alam kong nagaalala parin sila sa’kin pero wala na akong magagawa kung ganun.
“Carla— oh uhm.. nevermind” I cut myself because she might think differently when I ask if the door to the boss’s room is locked.
I will just figure it out myself.
After a few minutes we got home so we finished the shopping, every now and then I stopped because I couldn’t stop thinking.
If that necklace has a connection with Darius and I suddenly remembered something about that necklace, wouldn’t it be possible that i’m also connected to it?
Pero paano? How can I have a connection with that necklace when i’ve only known my boss for a few months? And he didn’t mention anything to me about the necklace either or about his past.
His past? What if we knew each other before? That’s impossible because I don’t remember knowing him in the past, i’m going crazy.
If I knew him in the past why don’t I know him in the present? I should’ve recognize him even after a long time.. but no.
My head is starting to hurt just thinking about it, it's just weird because I don’t know him but suddenly memories of people I don’t know ‘either’ suddenly come to my mind.
It’s definitely someone else’s memory, but how can it be transferred to me? I don’t have the power to assume other’s lost memory.
Wait— Lost.. memory? Could that be..
“Kuya!!! Ayan ka na naman e, mag pahinga kana nga” Nabalik ako sa ulirat sa biglang pagalog at pagtawag sa’kin ni Trisha kaya ngumiti lamang ako ng tipid at sinabing ayos lang ako.
But they insist na mag tungo na ako sa kwarto ko at mag pahinga, ayoko naman mapagalitan ng kapatid ko kaya sumunod nalang ako at nag simula na maglakad patungo sa kwarto ko.
Lost memory.. could that be the reason why I can’t remember? But I also don’t remember that I lost any memory.
What causes memory loss? Accidentally hit the head or strong inflammation, large impact causing the skull to break? And I don’t remember breaking my head.
And what is the name of the disease with memory loss?
Shit i forgot what it’s called... Ah! Amnesia.
I froze.
Why am I thinking all this? Have I completely gone crazy and even amnesia has crossed my mind? It’s impossible that I have that because I remember everything except the memory that entered my brain.
Fuck.. i’m losing my mind.