December 5th 2022 - Jungkook and Diamond scandal
It took me everything to make sure the photos that stalkers and paparazzi took of me and jungkook didn't get leaked. absolutely everything. i had to sacrifice so much. I mean , with most agencies, we already have a contract in place...but independent companies and individuals are a whole ass issue. and of course there are the sasaeng sites and contacts. Bighit and Hybe had our spies in these group chats and contacts, so we know if something is about to break out and how to silence it to protect the artists...but this one was quite hard.
for years there had been fans and netizens who shipped us , and even people we knew in real life, it made us so uncomfortable. Then came when i dated harry and it got worse because ppl edited videos of jungkook to make him look jealous... until everything changed and no one wanted us to change...and it had been like that since. so if this was to go viral , it would be horrific. Especially since the Diamond Foundation party and all the times that we hung out in public.
So , the PR team and i did everything we could to silence this, and other than a few dark internet photos that exist (hopefully not for long), no one is aware of what happened. it wasn't even anything bad , we just hung out after Jin's enlistment because we were both sad, we aren't even actually dating.
December 6th 2022 - the day everything went south.
"EUNHA GET THE ACTUAL FUCK UP"
I jumped up from my bed to see yoona , david and 3 of the highest members of the Hybe and Bighit PR team standing in front of my bed at home
me: guys come on , i was told this is my day off..oh...why are you guys here?? did someone get caught in a scandal? dating? drugs? driving? cigarettes? please as long as it is not something illegal for the love of god-
david: its not that -
me: okay then who is it - BTS? TXT? Seventeen? please no more scandals for the girl groups they just debuted -
yoona: i dont mean to be rude or overstep my personal boundaries , but shut the fuck up , its bad.
me: i mean clearly - you used the overstep security card to bypass all my security into the room
Yoona: its cause you wouldn't answer your phone. listen , we will give you five minutes to meet us downstairs okay. hurry up.
they all rushed downstairs and i looked at my phone , fuck i forgot to put it into charge. i quickly sorted myself out and took the lift downstairs. i could see all the shoes at the front door...i dont feel good about this.
i walked into the kitchen...every PR team member of Hybe and Bighit was standing there alongside all the legal team members.
they all looked at me weirdly and stopped talking. they bowed and i bowed back.
me: it has never been this bad...
yoona turns to the staff members "excuse us , we will head upstairs to debrief diamond. it is a company and artist matter , but before that she is a normal person who deserves some privacy before we strategise how to deal with it"
yoona grabs my arm and takes me upstairs back into my bedroom.
she sits me down on the bed as she and David stand opposite me.
she hands me an iPad whilst saying "these photos were exposed onto some website...they are from when you and harry were dating..."
me: oh my god....
yoona: the first 2 aren't bad, its the third that is a bit...
me: 3 PHOTOS!!!
yoona: no...3 SETS of photos.
me: fuck.
[ wattled wouldnt let me post the 3rd set of photos.]
me: oh my god... 21 photos? these can be misinterpreted too - like the photo of me on the bed lying down in jeans and a calvin klein sports top, i was actually in the room with staff trying on clothes for the Grammys in a hotel room - or the one where im not facing the camera and my back is naked - i am literally wearing an acrylic top from a small designer and it was tied around my neck whilst i was in the middle of a fitting...oh my god the bathroom photos were practise shoots for the concept we dropped for the album we wanted to drop in 2020...before covid..oh my god...oh my god.
david: eunha...there is nothing we can really do about it. the photos are already everywhere , front page news , on leading news channels in the east and west.
me: holy fuck ... i dont have anything to say about the couple photos , those are genuine...but the bad ones are just...going to have me put on a silver platter to haters. what do i do now? where do i even begin to - give me your phone , i need to make a call and lets head downstairs
yoona hands me her phone and i called his phone number , i remembered it off by heart.
he picks up - i switched to english.
harry: yoonas phone? i saved the number... i am so sorry -
me: are you fucking kidding me?
i reached the first floor and was pacing for the kitchen
harry: i didnt mean for -
me:are you fucking stupid or incapable of thinking? where the fuck is your fucking brain ? you didnt delete them after i broke up with you? or after you cheated on me with her? or after , i dont know, 3 YEARS WHERE WE HAVENT SEEN EACH OTHER - ARE YOU FUCKING JOKING ME!
harry: eunha , i really didnt know they would be exposed like this from my phone
me: and you still have the phone - jesus christ get a new number , a new iCloud account and a new fucking brain.
harry: hey , im in those photos too! you are not the only victim
i reached the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water form the fridge as all the staff members watched me , scared out of their brains.
me: Shut the fuck up , this is not about who is the victim , this is about how pathetic you are to have still kept those photos. if you didnt , i wouldn't have over 50 staff members in my kitchen right now scared out of their fucking brains because nothing in university or the company taught them how to deal with this. i mean who the fuck even -
harry: im sorry , i can't imagine how hard it is
me: yeah of course you cant imagine how hard it is because i literally made sure you never had to worry about my job or the shit i had to deal with and now - now - oh my god my contracts with - WAIT - YOUR NDA -
harry: i know , i didnt forget , my parents will have the money wired by this afternoon
me: [ i pointed to the legal team and got their attention] your NDA says you couldn't have kept any photos or rectors after we broke up in case you expose them... and now they are exposed... you breached the NDA and owe me $500 million dollars! how are you parents even accepting this and sending it by this afternoon -
harry: because - because they are my parents
me: [ i went quiet] wait...
harry: what -
i switched to korean so all the staff members would understand
me:looking at the photos now...in one way or another...they all relate to the hotels your family own...harry dont tell me... ALL THE PHOTOS ARE EITHER IN THE HOTEL ROOMS , IN THE HOTEL RESTAURANTS OR HOTEL GARDEN OR HOTEL PROPERTY OR THE HOTEL CAN BE SEEN FUCKING BEHIND US...HARRY DO YOU THINK IM FUCKING STUPID?
harry: no no no - i swear to -
me: you swear to what? god? your parents lives? your life? shut the fuck up - your family is actually insane - harry it is fucking 5am and i have over 50 staff members here and i haven't slept for more than 2 hours and this was meant to be my day off. im going to sue you and your family so hard i swear to fucking god you are going to pray you never see me in this life or the next life because when i am done with you , i will make sure you go through everything i went through and you realise how stupid it was for me to deal with all your bullshit.i cant believe i ever even liked you -
harry: why would we even expose them ourselves?
me: do you think i am stupid - i know that you know i just closed a deal with that hotel brand recently and that they are way more successful than you guys and that it might make you lose your loyal customers that i gave you -
harry:thats stupid -
me: no you are stupid for thinking I wouldn't realise because I know damn well you have uglier photos of me and cuter photos of us together and if a hacker really got into your phone, wouldn't they expose the photos with Maya too - put your fucking mind to use I mean oh my god how stupid are you -
harry: eunha i didn't have a choice
me: no you had a choice, there always is a choice, but i was never the priority for you...thats what. so go back to your cheating girlfriend and your snaky family , and prepare yourselves for the day my team see you in court.
harry: you were always my choice -
me:shut up - [i heard him say that and i went quiet , the room looked at me in fear, i breathed in a replied] you are fucking insane - now that you have said that , watch carefully to see exactly what im going to do. i heard you still loved me and i laughed at the person who told me , but now i hope you stay in your fucking creep corner filled with jealousy.
harry: fuck you, i say i love you and you make me want to live in pain
me: no , fuck you [i shouted] , i said leave me alone and you keep trying to edge your way back into my life, FUCK YOU
i ended the call.
i looked up and saw all the staff members staring at me in pure fear and concern
me: okay , here is what we do, get me the marketing team leader on the phone. don't issue a public announcement yet.
legal team leader: what about us? do we sue the family , just as you said?
me: yes. sue them for $5 billion dollars and no less. make the case as public as possible, unless they respond with a settlement offer over that amount. even with a settlement offer , dont accept it unless they issue a public apology with it and sign additional contracts with me , stating that they will never have anything to do with again and any further mention of me , or anything to do with me and my brand will result in a breach of contract where they will have to pay me over $5 billion once again.
yoona: is that even possible? they entire hotel business' profit is worth around $12 billion this year - they won't accept it -
me: of course they will , because they know if we do a court case that i could humiliate them with everything i know and that it could destroy them financially and socially.
david: remember , if you are doing this , these are your family's friends...close friends...and you may not like him now but you did love him at some point and you guys will see each other at some point...it's inevitable.
me: i know...and i dont care...this law suit will settle my score with him and them... as for my reputation...i just...
yoona saw the legal team off and i sat in the living room with the team leaders of the PR and Marketing team.
for about 1 hour i listened to them come up with multiple ideas on how to recover , none of them useful. i cant just release a statement and try to cover it up...i need to ...outshine it...i need to....make it seem irrelevant.
me: i mean , in my NDA with harry, he wasn't recommended to take photos with me in case of things like these, but obviously we were dating and naive...well i was anyway..and so ...im just trying to think because i haven't even read online comments or responses and my phone is still upstairs.
snow jumped up onto the sofa next to me and lay in my lap as i stroked her fur.
me: by the way i am sorry that this is how you see me , i slept for like 2 hours , which is hopefully more than you guys. and ... i am sorry that this is how you see me and are welcomed into my house, i wish it were on better circumstances...
i keep thinking to myself about various strategies other celebrities have used before, normally it is just staying quiet for a while and then slowly resurfacing...but i have had a flawless reputation.
me: i mean...the photos aren't even that bad to a western audience, its mostly the asian audience where this will mean i take a hit...but even then , my 'mysterious and private' screen is shattered because these are behind the scene photos that are from an intimate source...so its just...a bit of a bad situation...
we decided that we would first release a press statement. within an hour the entire Press team for Hybe and bighit was at my door. i sent them a draft i wrote until they got there and they set up in the dining room. at around 9am, they had officially released it.
"Hello,
This is Hybe Entertainment releasing an official press statement on behalf Bighit Entertainment's artist , Diamond.
Recent photos have surfaced that show Diamond with someone who used to be part of her social life. The sources of these photos are to be confirmed and dealt with.
Our company will not tolerate any account who spreads these photos as they are private photos that were not released with consent by either Diamond , Diamonds personal team, Hybe Entertainment, Bighit Entertainment or any other party that owns the IP rights to photos of Diamond.
We are grateful to fans who have reported any reposts to us, and hope further reposts and malicious comments will also be reported as this is a serious invasion of privacy.
As a company , we can only comment on Diamonds behalf to an extent as she is also the current majority stakeholder of Hybe Entertainment and its current CEO. Diamond and her personal team have decided to respond to this issue as a personal matter , which means her team will be dealing with this in further detail without us.
We hope fans and readers will wait for Diamonds press release and refrain from speculating or commenting on the matter.
The agency will continue its efforts and continued support Diamond and co-operate with her personal team to resolve this issue effectively.
Thank you. "
the PR teams left after this to go back to the office so that they could deal with the nitty gritty tasks in peace. i returned to the living room and found the marketing team had come up with 3 main ideas. i sat down as they took turns to present.
Marketing TL: 1st idea is to play the victim and donate to charities that support women who were victims of secret cameras and such. [ i listened to them ramble on for 10 minutes before i interrupted them]
me: that is absolutely stupid. these photos were taken , mostly, with consent and there isn't any pornographic content....they are really different ideas and to do that would almost kill my career.
they all agreed with me and i saw the team who came up with the idea had become completely embarrassed.
Marketing TL: 2nd idea is to overwhelm the attention with another scandal. whether it is you being caught in a dating scandal with a famous idol or actor. 4 Music companies have already contacted us , not including Hybe's own idols.
me: oh my god - no , i am not doing any lying.
Marketing TL: i hope you understand how bad the current situation is...our stocks took a dive , not including your business and investment companies...and The Diamond Foundation relies on your reputation to thrive.
me: i understand , and respectfully , this is a stupid idea. fans can see through lies. Kai and Jennie weren't taken seriously and neither will I and whoever would be willing to do this.
Marketing TL: well, the 3rd idea is to move attention elsewhere , like a album or a really important collaboration. We all know there are tons of artists waiting for a collaboration with you , even our own artists like BTS. it would completely shift focus.
me: i am not able to release any music for the next few months, i simply cant.all the team leaders in Hybe and Bighit know why and we will leave that there. As for collaborations or BTS' music , i am not rushing anything!
Marketing TL: im afraid we don't have any other ideas than to do the typical 'lay low till no one cares'...but with you i dont think there will be time where nobody cares.
we all sat in silence.
me: i have an idea. we could use this to our advantage. Think of what Kim kardashian did with her scandal back then, i could do the same....except there is no nudity or pornographic context and i don't want to sexualise myself...so that means i won't do a nude fashion shoot or anything like that...but a - OH MY GOD IM A FUCKING GENIUS
the room stared at me as i jumped from my seat
me: Yoona unnie , call the Calvin Klein lawyers now , i can get them to sign the contract for a winter campaign (christians and new years) for over $20 million
yoona: 20 million - are you crazy or are you -
me: no , the 'scandal' has put more attention on me and if we can miraculously take these photos and release them in the same week , it would blow all the attention away from the other photos and people will say it is a marketing technique whilst we get Harry's family to sign the settlement at the same time in secret...meaning im protected and everyone else is too - holy fuck - god i must be a genius.
marketing TL: so thats like $6 million for Hybe and $14 million for you? thats a really good idea -
me: wait , but if i agree to a couple shoot i could definitely get it for $40 million , right? and if they get an idol or celebrity i can push it to $60 million for sure -
excitement filled the room
20 minutes later and we were on a face call with the CK team. they wanted a couple shoot for $30 million and argued that my scandal meant my value dropped. i argued it wasn't true and it would bring more hype to the photos, with that they then started to negotiate kinder. after around 30 minutes they wanted me to work with their recently appointed global brand ambassador.
me: who is it , i haven't seen it hit the news yet? so i cant agree to anything.
"Son Heung Min"
me: i see... i dont think that is a good idea on a marketing level. if his first ambassador association is with me , then from then on it will be associated with me , but my contract isn't an ambassador one, which means when ppl associate him with me and think of me , they will think of the new campaigns i do in the future.
my staff waited behind me as i thought to myself.
CK's team agreed with me and then i had my epiphany
me: how about, a winter campaign. some solo shots and some couple shots. You guys can choose the model , but it cant be celebrity and the campaign can last until april.that is a 5 month contract with me, where i will be seen wearing it , in the stores and the campaign of course
"how much for"
me: the reasonable price of $70 million.
"no , that is too much"
i knew they would say that , obviously.
me: okay. i understand. but then again Chanel paid me $50 million for one photoshoot for their summer campaign and that was 3 months without the benefit of the scandal or the couple shoots. so take it or leave it.
" if it was with Son , we would accept but - "
i was about to smirk to myself , i grabbed my phone under the camera and called yoona's phone.
me: no worries , I thank you for your time and patience and hope to work with you in the future -
yoona interrupted behind me and said "ma'am Victora Secret's legal team are on the phone , they said they were willing to double the price"
me: i will get back to you later , i just want to say goodbye to the CK team for now.
we heard some murmuring on the other side of the camera
" Okay , don't go with Victoria Secret. We will give you $100 million and the contract will be sent in a few minutes."
i saw the newer members of the marketing team drop their mouths in shock.
" an honour. i look forward to greeting you and your team in korea tomorrow for the shoot. once again , sorry for asking for the shoot to be done so quickly. my team will respond to you by 3PM Korea time."
the call ended and i fell back into my chair.
Marketing TL: why didn't you tell us there was a contract with Victoria Secret as well
me: there was never a contract with them , ha ha ha, i called Yoona unnie. its just a scare tactic and it worked. i won completely in that situation. i get a solo and couple shoot , not a idol or celebrity, so its a normal model
Marketing staff member: now i understand why rumours said to never get into a negotiation battle with you. that was the simplest trick ever to increase the payment and they didnt even realise
i smirked.
the marketing team and PR team left after that and minutes later my personal lawyers arrived at my house. it was time to work on my official statement.
by around 12pm it was released
"Hello,
This is Diamond's personal legal team speaking on behalf of Diamond in regard to today's events
This morning Diamond was woken up in her home by senior Hybe staff. After being informed of the news, Diamond was saddened by the way the photos had been a viral sensation.
Diamond wishes to express her sincere apologies for the failure to ensure these photos did not become public, despite not knowing of their existence.
We, Diamond and her staff, have decided to deal with this matter as a personal matter,rather than dealing with it through a conventional agency means as the photos were from a past relationship and are not connected with any Hybe-owned IP.
We have currently confirmed the sources of the leaked photos and the media through which it went viral. The source and its associates are being dealt with privately and we hope individuals who are aware of this issue do not speculate about it.
As the legal issues and technical sides of this issue are interwoven with the Non-Disclosure Agreement that was signed during the period in which Diamond and the other individual in the photos were associated together, as a team we cannot comment on this issue any further and will now fully be dealing with it behind closed curtains.
The only thing we can confirm is that most of the images are misinterpreted. For example , some of the photos of diamond on hotel beds or hotel rooms are taken between fittings or behind the scene shoots of cancelled photoshoots for albums in which Diamond refused to release. Following the press release from Diamonds hair stylists and makeup stylists who confirm this with further shoots from those days, we hope the images will no longer be misinterpreted.
Diamond has additionally written a message that she would life for us to publish, the following is unedited:
"Dearest fans , thank you for your support and kindness during this unpredictable day. I hope the images are no longer taken out of context or misinterpreted. For someone who values the privacy of myself and those who are under my companies as artists or idols, this issue really shocked me and took the entirety of my staff by surprise. I hope there are no further issues like this for the remainder of my years in front of the public eye. I would also like to take this time to say that i have learnt from my past social relationships between friends, family and romantic partners and that there will better barriers to ensure privacy. Once again , thank you for your kindness and understanding. Diamond <3"
As Diamonds legal team and advisors , we hope fans and netizens will understand the reality of the photos and continue to look forward to Diamonds future schedules as per the newly released timetable.
Thank you for your time"
-
i sighed as i read comments online from yoona's iPad.
by around 1pm , all the staff left and yoona and david had to go back to the hybe office. i wanted to stay at home and actually deal with the issue as a person and not as an idol.as soon as the door was closed and security checked that there was no cameras or voice recorders, i threw myself into he conversation pit and finally turned on my phone.
missed calls after missed calls. i was so close to having a full on breakdown but i surprisingly just looked through all the messages with a blank face.
i heard the doorbell go off.
it was weird but maybe david or yoona left something , i opened the door and jungkook was stood there with yoongi behind him.
i didn't even say anything , but held the door open for them
we walked to the conversation pit in silence, snow was playing with jungkook as yoongi picked up his phone and then put it down again
yoongi: it will be fine. honestly. this isn't even the worse of the things you have gone through, or the worst that will come. you will be fine. its okay.
jungkook: i looked online , and comments weren't even negative before the press statements. people thought he leaked it on purpose or that someone hacked his phone. no-one suspects you , because none of the photos are from an angle where you would take the photos...they are all from his angle. and now , after the press release, people are soooo supportive towards you
me: yeah and i am happy about that but i feel so humiliated. these were private photos, private , private photos. i don't care about the ones from fittings or the cancelled album concept photos. but the ones from when we were dating -
jungkook: i see -
yoongi's phone rang, he picked it up and said " okay i will be out in a bit"
me: what's that about?
yoongi: i have a shoot and i need to go get ready beforehand at that salon - i need to leave in a few minutes but jungkook will stay and i think jimin is coming in a bit.
i didnt really say much else until he left. yoongi kept trying to say that it will be fine and i knew that but i just wanted to punch whatever i could find , my sadness and humiliating has developed to rage i suppose.
after he left , jungkook and i went back to the conversation pit and sat in opposite corners (see chpt 6.1 for photos)
i threw my phone onto the other side of the sofa at some point and he realised i was too deep in thought
jungkook: you need to realise it will be okay, and its okay to be sad now , but know that it will get better
me: i just feel so embarrassed and you won't believe what i have to do because of it just to shift the focus of attention -
jungkook: what are you talking about?
i told him about the calvin klein deal, at first he was a bit quiet, then he congratulated me on getting paid so much. then he realised why i hated it.
jungkook: is it because of ...
me: i feel like it will really destroy my self esteem which i spent years getting to a stable level, and then the change in my reputation and branding. like its good , but it shifts the concept and key words ppl associate with me, you know? but it is mostly just the self-esteem problem.
i dont know at what point i started rambling on about how much i hated harry , or when i blurted that he did actually release them on purpose, or at what point jungkook moved to sit in front of me...or at what point he thought my feet were cold even with socks on and put one of the blankets on me and i dont know at what point i thought it would be okay to ramble and rant on about how much i was tired of everything whilst he looked into my eyes without saying anything but understanding everything.... and i dont know at what point i stopped and just sat there with my legs crossed, facing him , as he sat facing me with his legs crossed, staring into his eyes and realising how fucking massive they were.
i dont know what happened , how everything progressed , because all i remember is crying and tearing up and ranting and being close to a panic attack and then him just being there and my breathing and hysteria calming down again...i dont know how and or what.
we just looked into each others eyes for a few seconds before the door bell went off again, we both jolted before realising jimin was here. opening the door for him , he surprised us with tteokbeoki, thank god , i needed comfort food.
whilst eating , jungkook told jimin about the calvin klein shoot i had
jimin: its tomorrow?
me: yup , they need the photos fast , the campaign is meant to be released this week for christmas shopping era.
jimin: how are they getting everyone ready in time and flying everyone in?
me: i think most are currently on a flight cause the deal closed quite a few hours ago...as for hotels i dont know. some staff will be from seoul , but most will be foreigners i guess. and the shoot will take hours , upon hours.
jungkook : what model did they choose?
me: i dont know yet, i will find out tommorow , but it won't get leaked , because under the contract we signed the model they choose have to sign 2 NDA's with me and with CK. Last email they sent to the marketing team was that it was a YG KPlus signed model and then they asked if it was approved, which it was...sooo.... one of those guys i guess?
jimin: dont you know most of them?
me: haha , i do - i became friends with them through the blackpink members , or CL or GD
jungkook: wait , but if the shoot is tommorow from like, 5am...dont you have the Forbes interview at night?
me: we pushed it back. so the CK shoot will be from 5am to around 8pm and then i have a two hour break and then i have the forbes shoot and interview from 10pm to around 8am.
jimin: but dont we have plans together for 9am?
i got up to clean away the packaging from the takeaway , they helped and we then moved to the conversation pit.
me: yeah , and i will see you there because that is a schedule we can't miss...and then i have to leave you at around midday for another shoot with Chrome Hearts and then i have rehearsals for ...i don't even know what award show it is to be honest, maybe GDA or MMA? Fuck - and then I'm flying out some point this week to France for a few fittings for the MET
jungkook: that's a lot - and you only slept a few hours tonight.
me: and i have online university in a minute because it matches the time different with the UK , but i cant skip it because they sent me two warnings about attendance cause i missed so many others -
jimin: that too? don't you study when you are at the hybe building?
me: no , i haven't let staff find out yet . only you guys , yoona and david know... the university dont even know who i actually am - they just know i cant come to the country and granted me online studying by mere luck.
jungkook: how did you pull that off?
me: i dont even know , thanks to yoona unnie - but they want to kick me out cause i have missed so much at this rate but i am so fucking tired.
jungkook: well jimin hyung is leaving in a few minutes , but i can stay and just shake the mouse every few moments to keep it on and answer questions as best i can...its alll typing right?
i nodded and thanked him.
jungkook: how long is the class?
me: i think like 3 hours? its horrible -
jungkook: okay thats fine, don't worry , i will probably order some food in after the class. Also i have my gym equipment with me because i wanted to go to the gym afterwards
me: could you wake me up after the class too? we can eat and go to the gym together because i need to get my shit together before the shoot - these photos will stick forever.
jungkook nods
jimin: you look great , it will be fine
we sat together for about 2 more hours, then jimin left. after another hour of talking about fashion and the upcoming schedules we had , i set the computer up for my university class
jungkook: are you going to sleep here or in the guest rooms, because no one can enter your room without your passwords or the override key
me: i cant be bothered to go up to the guest rooms , i will just sleep here, it makes it easier for you too
as soon as my head hit the pillow that jungkook brought from the living room , i knocked out completely.
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Jungkook POV
"Eunha, Eunha"
her eyes opened and she finally woke up , took me ten minutes to wake her up. i let her sleep an extra 2 hours before waking her up , it was nearly midnight.
i ordered some food to her house and the guards brought it inside. I got myself the meat platter from Halal Guys and the falafel one for her , i know she tries to avoid eating meat and likes falafels. she didn't eat the falafels this time though , she only ate the rice with the tomatoes, around 2 spoons.
once she packed a gym bag , a spare change of clothes and a shower set, we finally left . she brought snow along with her. i wanted to use the HYBE gyms because some of the equipment they have there is way better than the ones she has , it focuses on muscle building and weights, whilst her equipment is specifically for fat burning and cardio.
once we arrived and entered the building , there were still staff members, trying to finish up their company reports on her 'scandal' today.
we finally entered the gym and were surprised to see so many people here near 1am. Sunghoon and Jay from Enhyphen were here - Mingyu , Vernon and DK of Seventeen - and RM
eunha: what the fuck is going on tonight?
me: i dont even know?
we stood still in front of the gym entrance and contemplated everything
eunha: do i even want to be here? lets leave whilst no one has noticed us yet
"Jungkook!!Diamond!!"
eunha: fuck-
namjoon had noticed us, him saying our names out loud made everyone else notice us too. we greeted everyone and the 2 ppl without shirts rushed to put on t-shirts, they were bright red. everyone else had at least a vest or something on. The enhyphen members came up to us and greeted us.
eunha was bright red too, her social anxiety is kicking off, especially after what happened yesterday. i noticed this because normally she would wear a t-shirt and leggings for the gym , but today she was wearing a massive oversized jumper and joggers, as well as a hat.
eunha: where are all the girls?
jay: New Jeans are in their dorm , and Le Serrafim are in the dance rooms ...i dont know about the rest
we chatted to them for a while before they went back to working out. namjoon went back to what he was doing, me and eunha went onto the treadmill. i left after around 20 minutes to do weights, but she stayed on.
every once in a while i would look up to check on her. it got to around 2am , she would slow down and jog slower but then speed up again. she carried on doing this for around an hour.
i kept doing weights and stretching occasionally. it was now 3 am , by now she would slow down into a fast walk and then speed up again. She has been at it for 2 hours , and for someone with asthma and bad running history , it was impressive but also concerning.
everyone had noticed how long she had been on there , she was drenched in sweat as she faced the sky outside.
namjoon: should we stop her? she has been on it for too long, its concerning -
me: she knows what she is doing
i was with Mingyu of seventeen , we were just talking about something random until i heard the "smash". she hit the emergency stop button of the tread mill , she took two steps until she came off and fell to the ground on her back. she was breathing like she had been running for two hours in a full sprint , which seems accurate to be fair.
we went up to her and asked if she was okay , she nodded but kept gasping for air. does she need an asthma pump or something? this carried on for what felt like 10 minutes. once she was okay , she got up and walked to the mats, she grabbed some skipping ropes and started skipping.
me and mingyu went back to what we were doing. it was nearly 3:15 , by this time , everyone had left. only eunha , me , snow and namjoon were left. by around 3:45 , he left too. i stopped working out at 4am and eunha was still skipping.
"its 4am dude - you need to get ready to leave . yoona noona said the car would be downstairs in half an hour. go take a shower and dry your hair before you leave , you shouldn't get ill"
she stopped once she heard the time and rushed to take a shower. i did too. we both finished showering and had gotten changed by around 4:20 , she ran downstairs to the dance practise room and found a hair stylist who wasn't doing anything to quickly give her a blow dry. by around 4:30 we met in the car park . She was dressed to impress, makes sense consider that she told me that there was going to be papparazi to build hype for the photo drop.
You could see the Calvin Klein logo that were longer than her trousers...she's getting that contract fufilled.
I said goodbye to her and said I would join her in a while on set
DIAMOND POV
I really didn't want jungkook to come on set but I knew he wanted to be there for me because my anxiety was going off .
Once I got into the van and drove off to the set , I looked out the window and saw all the photographers , purposely called there for this moment. I grabbed snow and held her in my arms as I walked out , my mask was covering most of my face .
As soon as I got into the studio I greeted everyone . I think I'm doing solo shoots first.
It took them 3 hours to get me fully ready with hair face makeup and body makeup to cover bruises and childhood scars.
Buy around 8am we were now fully in shoot mode, there were way too many people here for my comfort but there was nothing I could do. I changed "outfits" 10 million times before 12. Then everyone had their lunch break and I was on the phone to someone. By 1 we were now getting ready for the couple shoots. I still hadn't met the guy, he was getting ready in another room.
Yoona: he has moved into his solo shots...by the way no one has told him it's you and we have signed the NDA. So if he acts shocked when he sees you, don't be surprised...and here is his Instagram
I nodded before heading out
I looked through his Instagram, he was a Japanese model signed to YGKplus. It's my first time meeting him , god this will be awkward.
I went out whilst still in a robe that covered me as I greeted him and his team.
I bowed and then put my hand out for a handshake, he got up from the bed he sat on and his jaw dropped. He went bright red and finally bowed back.
"I hope we get through this shoot without any issues"
It took us an hour of trying to get comfortable with one another before we Acc took photos , it mostly practise shots and understanding what the photographer wanted.
We remade the famous Kate moss and Walberg photo alongside the remake of the photos of me and Harry.
We finished early and the team had chosen what they were going to use, I didn't stay to find out , I just wanted to leave. But before I did , I went to see the model , I wanted to warn him for what was to come.
Me: hey!!! I just wanted to give you a heads up for what you might face from now on, if you ever need any help or support HYBE will always be here for you.
I left shortly after.
As i walked out i saw that humoungous crowds had ereged around all the exits and near the cars. i had my headphones off and a fan threw her phone and it landed right in front of me, i picked it up and gave it back to her. i was then rushed into the car.
I went back home and just stayed in the shower until I couldn't breathe because of the steam.
I came back out and saw that yoona had made me food before she left .
I opened my phone and saw all the messages from yesterday and the day before. Then a recent message from jungkook saying "sorry I didn't come like I said I would, I didn't want to make it any more awkward for you and add to the rumours of me and you ...it would have been weird if I came"
Unemotionally I responded with "it's all chill don't worry"
i have around an hour before i get picked up for the next shoot.i answered some emails and messages within that time frame and left without being able to eat my food. thankfully i had changed my clothes though.
once i got to the set , i saw yoona was talking to the interviewer. i , unnoticed, went straight into hair and makeup. After an hour or so , i was finally finished and had the first set of photos.
[miss sohee]
after an hour of taking photos, the first batch were approved and I was sat down for an interview.
the interviewer introduced herself to the camera and i did soo too. We completed the interview in English as the interviewer was America
interviewer: so , as we start off i have to say , you look amazing! normally when we ask people to be cover of Forbes they stick to a mundane suit
me: i did have a few options , but i opted for a Miss Sohee dress instead. besides , i dont really care for the norm or the conventional.
interviewer: was it difficult for your stylist to acquire for the shoot?
me: umm...i dont actually have a stylist , i choose all my outfit choices myself...and this dress is from my personal collection.
she was taken aback.
she started going through the list of my professional achievvements and we spoke through it a bit and then she moved onto business ideas and i had to switch on PR mode.
interviewer: obviously, this year New Jeans and Le Seraffim debuted.what was the process behind this?
me: well, they are HYBE artists , under sublabels. so i had some influence , and cannot choose other things. when debuting a group , we first choose what we aim to do with them. so for Seveteen , their aim in debuting was to focus on performances and audience interactions , which to be honest few other groups can compete with. with Zico , his solo debut focused on his music. so we try and get a sense of how many people , or how many songs and albumsin the first year. Then comes the members themsevles-
interviewer: do you choose them?
me: umm , its not that i choose all of them , but i advice and follow what executives and trainers vote and select.But for each group that debuts ,i have a kind fo safety vote , i get to choose a few people that regardless of what others may argue , will debut because i have that much faith in them.
interviewer: oh wow? what is the reason for this and who have you chosen in the past, especially since may companies consult you for debuting groups?!
me: uhm , i cant say some names, but i will give you an idea. For Le Seraffim , there were two members who i chose and they are doing great. For NewJeans , there was 1 member. the reason for this is that , in the past the people i have chosen or supported have always done well and succeeded like no other. For example , there were a few people that didnt want specific members of certain groups to debut and i basically said 'shut up , dont be stupid, i will take this to my grave' and the people debuted and are on a level that no other people can compete with.
interviewer: is it because they get extra protection from you or-?
me: oh absolutley not!!! the members themselves who i vote for or give the safety vote for dont know who they are - they never will. only me and a few other people , its a heavy NDA. As for after debuting , they dont get special treatment at all, its just that i know who is good for what and my predictions are always right.
interviewer: if no one ever knows who you vote for , do you often see trainees debuting that you wouldnt choose if you had sole choice.
me: intresting question. when choosing members of groups, some trainees are voted for and supported that i wouldnt conventionally vote for...they do debut, and i continue to support them and promote for their success. However , often , the people i wouldnt normally vote for ...they tend not to naturally succeed as well as groups whose lineup i know will work perfectly and this is just because i know what succeeds and what doesnt. For example , The BTS members, there was too much conflict at the time surrounding who debuts and doesnt and i lost some friends and collegues over it, i didnt want to risk it at all...then the seven artists who debuted are who you see today and it couldnt be more fated, although they dont know some of the arguements and fights i had behind the scenes to secure they debut. Also , in Bighit i get final say, but for other HYBE groups i dont get final say , i just (as per the standard) have to sign off on what others finalise.
she then moved on to talk about the successes of the Diamond Foundation before shifitng the topic of the conversation completely
interviewer: following your successes with the diamond foundation , many have become worried about it following your recent scandals, is there anything you can say about it?
how fucking dare she , im going to embarrass the fuck out of her.
me: [acting stupid] what scandals?
interviewer: well , the dating scandals for one, and then the recent scandal less that 24 hours ago.
me: remind me , who are the dating scandals with?
I twisted my head and smirked and she started listing them
interviewer: [flick through sheets of paper she has] well , for the past 8 years the most popular one has been Jungkook of BTS. Then its Taehyung of BTS , Then its Jimin of BTS...then the other BTS members. After that it goes EXO's KAI, Taemin , Cha Eunwoo, Park Seo Joon and then -
me: im going to be honest , if you list them all we will be here for some time and i have 4 more photoshoots to do for this magazine and you seem to have about 50 more questions and we have only planned out 40 more minutes for the interview. so let me save you some time [ i sat upright]. Me and Jungkook are good friends and have become very distanced because of the irrational dating rumours. Taehyung and I havent spoke to each other since saying hello to each other at the Diamond Foundation party because he is somewhere in Mexico filming something. Jimin and I rarely see each other now because both of us are so busy. Last i heard of Namjoon ....he was....at some museum? and right now we only have time to contact each other to prepare for his album's debut.Hoseok is rarely ever in the same country as me at the same time so if i even get to see him , its a miracle. Yoongi is never in the same building as me because he is constanlty working or producing or filming or something and our schedules never match. Im not even going to mention Jin because he recently enlisted and before that i rarely saw him. As for EXO's Kai , i think the last time i saw him was....oh god i dont even remember. I have never spoken to Cha Eunwoo of Astro in my life and all i know about him is that we have mutual friends but we live our own lives and we do not care about each other in the slightest. As for Park Seo Joon , i remember hearing that rumour and laughing because i have spoken to him a total of 3 times and each was with Taehyung because i have no personal connection to him
interviewer: i understand you completely -
i scoffed
me: With my horrific trust issues , committment issues and inability to love or be loved...trust me, dating is not on the table and it seems like it never will be. What was the most recent scandal- ah yes - the photos. Well...at least i look pretty in the photos.
her mouth was on the floor , and i saw the horror on the faces of everyone in the room.
me: You are more than welcome to publish that and post the video of it, but i must say all these rumours and scandals are as entertaining for you and the wider public as they are for me. I wish i did have a boyfriend and was 'recently engaged' as an article said yesterday...but i am not. now then , you wanted to ask about how i write songs ?
i moved onto the next topic and we managed to wrap up the interview without any other internal breakdowns.
By the time i did finish the shoot at 8am , i had the worst headache and was in a horrible mood.
but i still was driven to the breakfast i had with Jimin and 2 other people, where i acted like nothing was annoying me to the point of feeling like i was seconds away from getting up and running away.
Because that is what my life has become, a constant running around of trying to meet deadlines and contractual demands and personal promises.