Tuesday, 21st. April. 2015
Today was the deadline for submitting lyrics and even though it was the last second, as soon as I'd sat down to write, they had all just come out so effortlessly. I hummed a piano melody I'd gotten stuck in my head and it was as though the words had written themselves. By midday, I'd compiled the files and sent them through.
I doubt they'd even consider my submission, seeing as it was much too late to include it on their coming album. But there was always a chance it might make the cut for the next, if they made another.
All else aside, they made incredible music. And it wasn't until recently that I'd learnt I'd helped with that in their earlier songs. It still came as a shock but, after checking the writing credits, I'd found my name there, clear as day, so it was true.
I still hadn't checked the account Yoongi had transferred over to me. I don't know why. Maybe I was nervous to see what was in there. Nevertheless, I figure I should probably do that at some point, too.
I had some japchae for lunch and then kept myself busy until it was time to leave for work. My mind drifted back to the previous night and I wondered if Tae would indeed keep his word and visit every night or not. I'd left the red rose he'd given me in a vase on my desk.
It was common knowledge that red roses signified romance of the highest order. An 'I love you deeply'. But perhaps less known, they also signified death. How morbid of me. But it was true. I doubt the second was what Tae meant when he'd given it to me, though.
My wayward thoughts carried me all the way to the club, but once I entered there was far too much vibrancy. I said a few hellos as I made my way to the dressing room. Once I entered and went to place my bag under my vanity table, Sephora, who had been in conversation with a group of girls I didn't know, noticed me and came over.
"Jia, how are things?" She asked as she came up beside my vanity table, leaning against it.
"Things are good." I smiled, slipping into my chair and pulling my hair out of the clip I'd had it in. I nudged aside a makeup compact and set the clip down between a couple lipsticks.
"So, I heard Tae Hyung came to see you last night? Seems he's really taken a liking to you" Her smile held some cheek, but, I guess inevitably, the girls would talk. And Tae wasn't exactly discrete in any way, shape or form.
"Yeah, I guess he has." I said, still curious where she was going with this. The glints of gold in the seams of her black corset sparkled as she tilted her head questioningly.
"You guess? How can you be so casual? Wait, do you not know who he is?" I got the impression she knew something I didn't. Did she?
"You mean an idol? Yeah, I already knew that." I replied. But she shook her head.
"An idol. Yeah, that's no secret," she giggled before leaning a bit closer as though about to tell me a secret, "But he's also kinda dangerous. Rumour has it he's a part of some gang."
"Oh?" I feigned being stunned by what she'd said. Although I already knew this, I wanted to know how much more she knew. It seems the boys are notorious, even around here.
"Yeah. I haven't seen anything personally, but there's a girl that works here that's friends with a girl that work at their club. Seventh Heaven. I've heard some wild stories, so just thought I'd give you a heads up." She took a step back again, nibbling at her lip. It seemed like she was telling me purely out of courtesy.
"Wow. Um, okay. That's interesting." At first I wasn't sure how to interpret the information. However, as the cogs in my mind ticked over, I stopped her just before she was about to walk away.
"Sephora, wait. Who is the girls that you mentioned?" I asked. She glanced around for a moment before telling me.
"Wyniee. Apparently, her friend Mimi is the one that works at their club. Anyway, just be careful, eh?" She hummed before leaving. Just as she left, my stylist came over and plopped her equipment down with a sigh.
"Sorry I'm behind. It's crazy busy tonight. Alright, let's get started," she said with a smile.
I lent back in my chair as my stylist started to wipe my face with a wet cloth. Perhaps I should find Wyniee and have a chat with her when I get the opportunity. Sephora's worries were ones I was already aware of, unbeknown to her. But this new information was not something I was about to pass up.
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While my stylist worked to get me ready, Lily and Venus passed out a few shots, which I took to loosen up. I couldn't help the swooshing in my chest at the thought that Tae might show up again tonight. Or what would be even more chaotic, him and Jimin.
Before I knew it, I was ready. It never ceased to amaze me when I stared at my reflection. It was like a magic spell had been cast, but when the clock struck midnight and the night ended, it all faded away again. Just like a certain fairytale.
"Jia, are you ready? There's a client requesting you," Haru approached me, glancing at my satin corset ruched slit dress up and down briefly.
"Already? The night only just started?" I hurriedly grabbed the shot off my vanity and drank it before following Haru down the hallway, my rhinestone encrusted heels clicking on the marble of the floor.
"Yes, you're quite popular with Bangtan, it seems. Anyway, he's over there at the corner table. I'll have Venus drop off a bottle of Jin's usual," Haru snapped his fingers, calling a staff member's attention.
"Jin.." I murmured. The dark Satin of his opened shirt matched my dress. His dark hair swept back and those plump lips, truly the picture of perfection. A hostess had stopped beside his table and they were talking, but I couldn't hear what was being said across the lounge over the noise and fervent chatter.
"Yes, Jin. He rarely visits these days. I must say, I'm quite surprised he stopped by," Haru replied, staring in Jin's direction for a brief moment before sighing. Maybe he was admiring how good-looking Jin was with me. It wouldn't be shocking in the least.
But, my insides began to swirl as the memory of him committing cold-blooded murder resurfaced in my mind. What was he doing here? For some reason, out of all of Bangtan, Jin was the one I was most weary of.
He was still exchanging a few casual words with a hostess that was standing beside his table and it seemed like they knew each other. I took a deep breath, quickly adjusted my thigh-highs a smidge, then walked directly to him.
"Well, it was a pleasure seeing you. I have to get back to work now, but hopefully I'll see you around again soon." I'd just caught the end of their conversation as the girl left. The smell of her intoxicatingly sweet perfume lingered as she walked past me without a word. Jin set his sights on me.
"Jia, my cheeky little minx. What a pleasant surprise!" he exclaimed. The way his hair was pushed back made him look irresistible. How the hell was I going to get through this unscathed?
"It's not a surprise if you already knew I'd be here," I slipped into the seat beside him, being careful to make sure the high slit of my dress didn't ride upwards.
"I was referring to this sexy dress you're wearing. It's been a long time since I've seen you in something so revealing." His plump lips parted slightly, gaze falling to my exposed thigh. Jin held no reservations about sharing what he really thought. Perhaps I'll show him the same courtesy.
"Has it? I wouldn't know. Unfortunately, I can't remember. By the way, where is Tae?" I asked, trying to ignore how warm he was making me feel.
"Don't worry, I convinced Tae to give you a break from his chaos for tonight, seeing as I wanted to come and have a chat with you."
"A chat? What about?" I questioned.
"Hold on there, little too eager, aren't we? I'm pretty sure you're supposed to play hard to get or something, no?" he laughed airily.
"Jin.." I muttered.
Venus stopped by and placed a light green bottle on the table, along with two glasses and an icebox.
"Let's relax and have a drink first." Jin gave her a wink before she left, then turned back to me.
"Fine.." I grumbled, reaching for the tongs to place ice in our glasses.
"Oh, don't be like that. Patience, my little one," Jin warned. He took the bottle and poured.
He was right. The light burn helped take the edge off. Jin leaned back, resting an arm over the back of the seat behind me. He asked how I was; I said I was fine. We had another.
As I watched Jin, legs crossed, relaxed in the seat beside me, sipping on his glass, I couldn't help but to feel déjà vu. Like I'd seen this somewhere before. It was odd.
"If you stare any harder, I might just burst into flames. What's on your mind?" Jin asked. By now, I was tipsy and wasn't as discreet as I thought. I gave a sigh, how long was this going to last? I wanted some answers. Here goes nothing.
"Jin, I have that notebook you and the others wrote in. Why didn't you just tell me those things to my face?" I finally confronted him.
"I know. Jungkook was acting weird when he got home the other night and I got it out of him," Jin didn't seem phased in the least. "Keep reading and you'll find out why."
Thats it? What was his problem? "Why did you all lie to me?"
"So if we told you we were gang bangers you would've just accepted it?" He heatedly threw back at me.
"Is this a joke to you? It's really not funny" I scoffed.
"No, it's not. None of this is a laughing matter. But you simply cannot sit here and be mad that we didn't spill our illicit personal undertakings to you." He shot back the remainder of his drink like it was nothing and went to pour another.
"I never asked you to tell me everything, that's-" I was struggling to make my point. He was so difficult to argue with, but he kept quiet as he poured and waited for me to finish.
"I just want to know why you kept so many things from me. That you even knew me."
"Because it was a moot point. I've said it before, but I'll say it again. If you can't remember it, then it may as well have never happened. Can you just let it go and focus on living in the here and now?"
I felt my head spinning round and round. His logic was twisted, but his conviction was unwavering. He meant every word and believed I should, too.
Could I just accept this and move past it?
Jin carried on.
"You're doing yourself a disservice by overthinking this. I wish you'd just trust us and behave yourself instead of running off and getting involved in things that don't concern you."
"Fuck you." I don't know what came over me, it was nerve-wrecking yet exhilarating. I can't believe I just said that. Jin's expression hardened, but only briefly. Had I made him mad?
"Fuck you. Right now? Glady, I'd enjoy nothing more than to take you right here over the table but, somehow I don't think you'd appreciate it." A cocky, unphased smirk quickly replaced his original expression.
Heat broke instantly across my cheeks, and it left me speechless. I turned my head away and downed the rest of my drink. Was he being serious right now?
"Jia, I'm sorry. I'm just at my wits' end here." Jin sighed heavily.
"So am I." I mumbled, still looking away from him. I felt him rub my shoulder.
"Then let's put this aside for now and just enjoy what time we have left together. I can't stay for long."
"Okay, honestly I don't want to fight with you." I admitted. The two of us put the conversation to rest and drank a little more before Jin left.
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By the time I made it home, I was swaying a bit, but after a shower I felt better. Jin's words were burned in my head from earlier in the night. I was itching to get into bed and read further. He'd said if I wanted to know more, the answers were there, waiting in the notebook for me. I'd just slipped under the covers when my phone rang.
It was Hoseok. I wondered why he was calling so late at night, so I answered it.
"Hey baby, were you sleeping? Hope I didn't wake you" Hoseok's voice brought a certain relief as it floated into my ear.
"No, no. It's alright. I just got into bed." I said as I rolled over and hugged my pillow.
"Oh, shit." Hoseok muttered, as though regretting disturbing me.
"Why? What's up? Are you alright?" I questioned.
"Uh. Can you come out and meet me? I know it's late. I just.. really need to see you. I didn't know who else to call." Hoseok was hesitant but, when he told me he'd needed me, my heart softened.
"Um.." He was right, it was late, but I didn't care. If he really needed me, I would go and see him. But, what did he need me for, exactly?
"I can come and see you.. Where are you?" I asked.
"I'm by the river, near the underpass."
"Okay. I'm on the way, just wait there."
"Thank baby, I'll see you soon."
With that, I hung up the phone, crawled back out of bed and threw on the first thing I could see which was a black skirt and an oversized jumper. Then I headed out.
I couldn't help but feel a tad worried, which caused me to walk a bit faster than usual. The night air had a fresh chill to it, and the moon was peeking out from a few overcast clouds. A calm silence blanketed the still night.
As I approached the spot, I could see Hoseok's hooded figure, leaned back, sitting on an enormous concrete block by the river.
"Hoseok," as I called his name, he turned to me.
"Hey, that was quick," he said. I took a little jump as I perched myself beside him on the concrete block. It was cold on my bare butt and made me shiver.
"Yeah, I was worried, so I walked fast. Are you alright?" I asked, looking at him closely beside me. He didn't seem his usual chirpy self, but he wasn't upset either.
"I'm alright I guess. Sorry, I didn't mean to worry you. I just.. really wanted you here," he admitted, giving a shy laugh.
"Oh.." I watched as he leant back, gazing out at the midnight blue sky. He kicked his legs out like a young child would, as thought about to shyly confess a secret.
"You know, when I used to feel like shit, I'd always come to you. Just being with you made me feel better. But, when you lost your memories.." he stopped, his gaze averted awkwardly down.
My heart softened. Without giving it a second thought, I scooted closer to him. At first he was surprised, but relaxed an arm around me as I lay my head on his shoulder.
The view of the river at night, misty gray of the clouds, moonlight ominously breaking though, the silence of the water calmly moving. It only made Hoseok's cuddle so much warmer, so much more special.
"You know.. I've been reading the notes you've been leaving me. I started remembering things. Watching you dance on Tuesdays used to make me so happy." I told him. It wasn't a deep secret, yet somehow I felt like by saying this I was revealing my heart.
"What. Seriously?" He peered at me, our faces so close I could feel the warmth and smell the minty traces of his breath.
"Yeah.. sorry, I've been trying to remember more, but it's been hard.."
"No, that's more than I expected. Take it easy, though. To be honest, I'm so fucking scared you're going to have an aneurysm or short circuit any minute. All the stress and shit you've had to deal with," he scoffed. I couldn't hold back my laughter, and he laughed, too.
That was a little dramatic, but I could see his point. His smile caught me, hesitation in the air. But he pushed past it and leant in ever so smoothly to kiss me.
As soon as our lips touched, it became hard to breath. Our kisses softly in tandem. Next thing I knew, Hoseok had picked me up and pulled me on him. I got comfortable and straddled his lap. The material of his sweats was so soft on my bare thighs.
His soft pecks moved down my jaw, down the side of my neck. His warm breaths had me weak, clinging to his shoulders in fear I'd crumple any second now.
"You know, we used to fuck all the time, too. I'm pretty sure that used to make you just as happy as watching me dance, if not more."
Luckily Hoseok held me in his arms as he whispered. The rasp in his voice, soft kisses against the skin of my neck. The feeling of his thighs beneath me. I was giving myself over to him completely. His hands slipped under my skirt and played with the seam of my underwear causing goosebumps to ripple over my thighs.
"Hoseok," My lips trembled as I sighed into his brown hair, head spinning at his touches.
"Mmmmm. Yeah baby? Does it feel good?" He breathed hotly into my neck. "Do you need more?"
"Mm, more, please" I whimpered as he squeezed handfuls of my ass. His touch all over me had me grinding on his thighs, but it wasn't until he slid me closer that I felt him hard. It slid tantalizingly, right where I craved it but nullified by the fabric of our clothes.
He groaned, lifting his head from my neck. His hand slid through my hair until he grabbed a handful of it firmly. His other hand still full of my ass as he grinded me down on him. I was at his mercy.
"Oh baby, you feel so good. I missed this so much, you have no idea," he groaned, bringing me closer by the grip he held of my hair to suckle on my lip.
"Hoseok, I want you to fuck me, please," I pleaded. "How do you make me want you so badly?" My head was clouded over, filled with the overpowering infatuation that was him.
As Hoseok licked my lip, he said, "we've always been like this." His tongue grazing against it was sending waves of desperate tingles between my legs. His hand moved to tug his sweats down just enough to take his dick out. It popped out hard. He slipped my skirt up my thighs a bit as he began to move my underwear aside. The cold air mingled with the arousal I felt at being so exposed.
The chill of the air sent prickles up my thighs, but the feeling of his dick as he slid the shaft between my folds was pure wet, messy heat.
I bit down my moan as he finally slid it in, bottoming out in me with hardly any tension. Instead, I clung tightly to him as he gripped my hips, grinding me down feverishly.
"That's it baby, work it nice and slow. Fuck" Hoseok cupped my cheek, holding his lust glistening gaze with mine. The other hand gripping my ass to guide me down nice and deep on his dick. It was so intimate. Slow and passionate. I couldn't break the connection we had, I couldn't look away.
Suddenly, the sound of footsteps echoed in the silence, and it snapped me back to our surroundings. I had been so swept up in the moment that I'd forgotten we were out in public. A runner glanced our way as he jogged past on the path. It was only a few meters away from where we were.
"Oh fuck, Hobi, someone just saw us!" I panicked, but the runner was already gone.
"You think he enjoyed the view?" Hobi grinned. I wanted to hit him but he thrust deep into me, causing me to moan loudly, reminding me who was fucking me right now. And how that was much more meaningful than anything else.
Hoseok picked up the pace, the exhilaration of the moment caught up with me. He was fucking me mercilessly, out in plain sight.
"Ahh. You're getting tighter. You coming baby? Don't hold it in, it's so fucking satisfying. Watching you come all over my dick," Hoseok panted, both hands now slamming my hips down on him. That dirty mouth of his edging me on.
"Mm. You sure? Gonna make such a mess," I panted. His hands gripped tighter at the crevice of my hips. I didn't even know he could get this deep into me. The remaining strength I had left was disappearing.
"I'm sure baby, cum for me" I felt my body quiver as I did, clenching around him. That's when I felt him cum hard too, warm and sticky. As I collapsed against his chest, we both breathed heavily and he held me. His dick was still in me, softening slightly but unmoving.
After we caught our breaths, he was careful when taking it out of me, trying not to let his cum spill out of me. I tried my best to hold it in me until I could get home and wash it out. Hoseok walked me home, arm over my shoulder as he cuddled me close. Cheekily, he told me It turned him on so much, knowing I still had his cum in me. I playfully hit him out of embarrassment, but I had to admit there was something kinky about it.
Hoseok gave me a tender kiss before leaving me in front of my apartment high rise. As soon as I got back up to my room, I had to shower and clean up.. god what a wild night..
A strange warm fuzzy feeling came over me as I crawled into bed and I lay there and replayed the way Hobi had fucked me repeatedly. Maybe he was right. I felt it.. like we were like this before. The energy between us was absolutely mind blowing.
Notes:
ᕦ(ò_óˇ) How we all feeling? Haha ~
It's been a long time coming but we're possibly getting a little more sexy time on the horizon,
That and some drama lols, I had a lot of fun writing this chappy, as always, hoping you enjoyed it too
I offer you all this Hobi smut as my heartfelt thankyou 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
( * ﾉ ωﾉ) Also, shout outs to my girl Gabs for dealing with my incessant ass nagging her to read my shizzle LMAO ily a lot!