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yoongi had gone 4, almost 5 days without eating and he felt sick.
he couldn't get up from bed this morning; his head hurt, his stomach hurt, he felt dizzy and faint.
he wanted to call jungkook, but he knew he was screwed if the boy found out. he would receive the scolding of a lifetime and trigger a panic attack in jungkook.
he groaned, he was freezing. he pulled out his phone to scroll through social media. all he needed to do was stay away from the kitchen.
he got up from bed, his shaky legs walking to grab a water bottle. his whole body ached and he took this as a sign he was fat.
"so cold" he whispered to himself, sipping some water. his stomach growled upon receiving the water, which made him mad.
"learn to appreciate the fact you're getting water, fucking fatass" he groaned, heading back to bed.
—
he decided to stop being a lazy slob and exercise with videos. was this a good idea? no! did he care? absolutely not!
"f-fucking fatass, just one more pushup" he groaned, doing as so. he breathed out, wiping the sweat off his forehead.
he felt dizzier than usual, he stared at the ground, "fatass" he mumbled before getting up despite the fact he was dizzy.
—
yoongi had thrown up after 3 hours of exercise, "jungkookie would be so upset with me" he coughed, spitting into the toilet bowl.
jungkook was the only thing on his mind. he couldn't get caught, he was scared of getting caught.
he brushed his teeth, getting rid of the acid in his mouth.
—
jungkook
hi
why is ur heart rate so high but so low
yoongi
bc i was exercising
jungkook
and why is that 💀
yoongi and exercising don't belong in the same sentence
yoongi
💀💀
are u saying im fat 💀
jungkook
NO
because u really don't need to exercise, your body is literally perfect
especially that ass 😩
yoongi
SHUT UP
idk just felt like it
jungkook
didn't ur legs give up on u yesterday
like u were just walking and poof u fell
yoongi
💀
idk yeah ig
did u eat
jungkook
yes one of my students brought me bunny cookies and i actually cried 😭
they were good ate them all oops
i was gonna save u one but i devoured one
did u eat
yoongi
yeah
jungkook
what'd u eat
why is ur heart racing
yoongi
i thought i lost my earrings and i got scared 💀
i ate a burger and some fries
it was prettyyy yummy
jungkook
oooo
yoongi
yup
coming home soon ?
jungkook
i'll be home at like 4
yoongi
kk
—
yoongi felt incredibly dizzy. this couldn't be good at all.
"f-fuck.. i don't want him to find out..please don't pass out" he sighed, he was terrified.
he fell asleep until jungkook came home, maybe sleeping would help him out.
—
"are you okay?" jungkook asked as soon as he saw the boy, "i'm perfectly fine, what do you mean?"
jungkook touched the boy's face, "you look paler than usual and green-ish" jungkook said, "i'm fine. i was thinking about our wedding and got nervous so maybe that's it"
the youngest examined him, "but that doesn't make sense?" he mumbled, yoongi shrugged, "you're a photography major, not in medical school so i doubt either of us would know" he laughed, "i'm still worried"
yoongi sighed, "don't worry" yoongi reassured, "okay" jungkook sighed, setting his things down.
—
yoongi felt everything cold before he fell onto the ground. he was screwed, incredibly screwed.
"yoongi-ah?" jungkook asked, shaking the boy. he didn't get a response. he raised the boys legs. he learned what to do when someone passed out way back in high school.
he counted to see how much time passed to see if he should call an ambulance.
he checkes if yoongi had any tight items on him, which were none. he was shaking.
"please become conscious" he mumbled, staring at his watch. it had been 3 minutes and nothing from the boy. he pulled out his phone and called the ambulance.
he really didn't want to go to a hospital. he hated hospitals. but this was his yoongi, he had to.
—
"it appears min yoongi passed out because of his blood sugar, meaning he hadn't ate and because of stress" the doctor explained to jungkook outside the room.
"but he told me he ate" jungkook mumbled, "we asked and he didn't answer. he said he wants some time before you can see him"
jungkook swore he was going to be the next one in a hospital bed. there was too much to process.
he pulled his legs to his chest and began crying. he wasn't upset that yoongi passed out. he was upset that the boy lied to him.
"would you like some juice?" the doctor asked, "no thanks" he cried, the doctor sighed, "can i do anything to help you?" he asked, jungkook shook his head.
jungkook sniffled, hearing his phone beep.
—
yoongi
m sorry
jungkook
how do you haveur phoen with yiy
yoongi
i had it on me when i passed out
but im sorry
jungkook
you know, i'm not upset that you passed out. i'm upset you lied to me, you lied to me about eating.
yoongi-ah, what did you eat today?
hm?
yoongi
i didn't
jungkook
whyd you lie to me???
yoongi
im sorry
jungkook
what about yesterday? what did you eat yesterday??
yoongi
m sorry
jungkook
how long has it been since you've eaten?
yoongi
i don't want to tell you
jungkook
i figured
i'm really upset, i'll tell you that
i've been trusting you to tell me the truth now that i'm not home until 4pm or so
yoongi
i know and im sorry
jungkook
yup!
yoongi
m sorry
jungkook
why'd you starve yourself?? usually there's a trigger
yoongi
give me time please
i really can't think right now
jungkook
okay
—
yoongi began sobbing. he hated himself so much, he hated himself for making his jungkook so upset.
the nurse in his room looked at him, writing something down, "do i need to get someone from the mental health unit?"
yoongi shrugged, he felt absolutely horrible.
—
yoongi
can i stay at ur house tonight
namjoon
what happened
yoongi
i'll tell u later i just need you to pick me uo from the hospital
namjoon
what the fuck happened
why are you at the hospital
im guessing u made jungkook upset
yoongi
ding ding
yes
and i feel realky horrible
i'll tell u later
i just need you to pick me up
namjoon
okay
—
jungkook was being comforted by his best friends at their shared house.
"jungkook-ah, you've been crying a lot" jimin said as he cuddled the boy, jungkook sniffled and cried more.
"i-i'm upset h-he lied to me" jungkook cried, "do you want a milkshake or something?" taehyung asked, jimin sighed, "you suck at comforting"
taehyung gasped, "i'm only good when it's you, but i can't comfort others" he sighed, "can you at least try harder?"
"i offered him a milkshake! milkshakes make everything better!" taehyung said, "i'm lactose intolerant, tae" jimin said, "so? jungkook isn't!"
jungkook chuckled at the couple's argument, "how are you married to jimin and don't know he's lactose intolerant?" jungkook sniffled, "how was i supposed to know?"
jungkook shook his head, "you guys are high school sweethearts" he shook his head, wiping his tears.
—
"how are you still not eating after passing out and making your fiance upset? was that not enough?" namjoon scoffed, yoongi picked at the food namjoon gave him.
"i feel so shitty about everything" he mumbled, "i understand, you still have to eat. jungkook would be happy to know you ate"
yoongi put his face in his hands, "i'm going to sleep. i don't want to be awake" he mumbled, "you're not sleeping until you eat at least half this plate of food. i don't want you to die in the middle of your sleep" namjoon spoke, "too bad, i want to die in my sleep" yoongi yawned, namjoon dragged yoongi back onto the chair.
yoongi received a huge scolding and message from namjoon, as well as a safety plan namjoon had found off the internet.
—
yoongi
i'm really sorry for lying to you about eating. you wanted to know why i starved myself and it's because my mom called me and told me to go to christmas dinner and i told her i wouldn't go because my aunt was going.
i told her that this aunt made me feel bad about my body and she said that maybe she was right about me needing to lose weight and such and i just felt completely horrible about my body and was determined to lose weight before christmas.
i'm staying at namjoon's right now and i ate some rice with chicken. i hope you're resting and i'm really sorry. i really hope you don't have any nightmares because of the situation
—
jungkook fell asleep in the middle of both boys. he had slept 3 hours and had 2 nightmares so things weren't going well.
—
"mr. jeon? are you okay?" a staff asked once jungkook arrived at work. he had puffy eyes, pale face, he looked tired.
he nodded, "i'm fine" he rubbed his eyes, "you don't look good. if you don't feel well, head home" the staff said, jungkook nodded, "thank you but i feel fine"
he still hadn't worked up the courage to answer yoongi, but he would soon.
—
yoongi
morning love
jungkook
thank u for apologizing
morning, why are you awake
yoongi
i just didn't sleep
joon has stayed up w me because he's scared i'll do smth
jungkook
why don't you sleep?
yoongi
i can't
jungkook
oh yeah
well i gotta work
yoongi
i know
goodbye
jungkook
bye
—
"mr. jeon, you look sick" one of his students spoke, "i know i look sick but i'm not. i'm okay" he reassured. he had over 4 nightmares the previous night, it was his record.
"you don't look okay" another kid spoke, "i know but don't worry, i'm fine"
—
yoongi
good afternoon
jungkook
hi
yoongi
did u eat yet
jungkook
i mean i tried ig
i had like 4 different nightmares last night and only slept 3 hrs so u can imagine
i ate grapes in the morning because jimin and tae kinda forced me to since i looked kinda sick
then i just feel nauseous
so
yoongi
m sorry:(
4 nightmares??
jungkook
jungkook is breaking records!
yoongi
not good ones!
jungkook
have u slept yet
yoongi
no
i feel bad for joon
jungkook
lol
i don't feel well so i prob will be ia
yoongi
okay :/
—
yoongi cried into namjoon's shoulder about how horrible he felt and how he had no one to blame but himself.
namjoon sympathized but he felt bad for both boys not just yoongi, "get some rest"
yoongi nodded, "m sorry" he cried, namjoon shook his head, "it's alright, don't apologize to me. head to sleep"
—
"is this kinda what you do after nightmares?" jimin asked, a but freaked out by jungkook staring at walls nonstop, "sorta, unless i'm kinda forced to cope"
jimin sat by his side to comfort him a little bit. he didn't know how to help but did his best.
—
"jungkook, if you're going to be sleeping in my class, get out" his teacher sternly said, the boy sat up straight and shook his head, "you're one of my best students and i'm disappointed that you are sleeping in my class" she sighed, jungkook rubbed his eyes. he wished his 504 could excuse his sleeping.
"i'm sorry" he apologized, "see me after class" she spoke, earning 'ooo's from his classmates. he set his head down and sighed.
—
"why were you sleeping in class? you're 24, not 4. i think you know better than to sleep in class" his teacher spoke, jungkook was disappointed in himself.
"i'm sorry. i've been having trauma nightmares and i can't sleep well because of it" jungkook said, "can't you control it?" his teacher asked.
"i don't willingly decide to cry and scream in the middle of the night" he clarified, rubbing his eyes. he was tired.
"i see.. i apologize. i'll put some reviews online for you to look at" his teacher spoke, jungkook nodded, mumbling a small thank you.
—
he headed back home after school, yoongi was there on his computer.
"hey bunny" yoongi said, "hi" jungkook said, placing his things down, "how are you?" jungkook asked, yoongi shrugged, "how are you?"
"tired. i fell asleep in class and my teacher got mad at me" he said, rubbing his eyes, "i've slept like 4 hours in 2 days. i think i will just sleep" he mumbled, "sounds good bub. do you want to cuddle?" yoongi asked, jungkook nodded.
—
"i'm sorry" yoongi mumbled as jungkook clinged onto him like a koala bear, "i accept your apology" the boy spoke, his breath becoming calm as he grew tired.
"please eat while i'm asleep" jungkook spoke, yoongi nodded, "i will, just rest"
—
y
oongi
thank u guys for taking care of jungkook. i appreciate it and owe you guys one. what can i do to pay you back?
jimin
it's no problem yoongi, just take care of yourselves, okay?
taehyung
yeah dw about it
is he sleeping
yoongi
yeah he's asleep
thank u guys. please lmk if i can do anything
taehyung
will do
jimin
!!
—
stay safe and healthy! drink water and eat some food! sorry for any mistakes, i love you all! qotd: what can yoongi do to make up?