With the sembreak rapidly coming to an end, and your mom was only a few days away from returning to England, your family found trying to make the most out of each day before the goodbyes at the Airport.
The weather slowly cooled as May drew to a close to welcome June and the plan for today was to have a barbeque with the Sunoo's family next door. They had arrived with Sunoo ahead of them the moment Daniel opens up the gate for them in the backyard. Mrs. Kim, greeted you with a smile holding up the appetizers she prepared while her husband went onto help your dad with the grill.
Your mom naturally gathered you after with the group of women later to help them prepare the burgers and the buns along the tomatoes and pickles in the table.
With you helping chopping up the lettuce for the green salad, you listened to the women's conversation about the rumors one of your neighbors younger than you who apparently got pregnant and runs away from home with an older guy. Whilst you wouldn't normally care, it's clear in your mom's eyes whenever it wanders your way that she would have a talk to you in the night.
It irked you because no sooner than later would you rather die than to be that crazy over love this early in your age.
"How stupid does she have to be to think it was already a true love?", you wondered aloud, your question meet an agreement from Sunoo's sister which were soon overpowered by the sudden peals of laughter.
The joyous sound pierced through your conversation and you reluctantly gestured for the older girl to halt talking as you grumbled, "Noisy kiddos"
And sure enough, as you turned toward the sound, you pursed your lips at the sight of the three boys - Daniel, Jungwon and Sunoo runs around like a kid playing chase without a bother to mix their shouts when one is touched and he'll be the next tagger. One by one, the women with you did the same and looked towards the boys with disdain. Except for Mrs. Kim.
"Is that really my Danny?", Mom grouched with a sigh as all of you watched the three now turning their game in catching a frisbee.
"My Sunoo is still the cutest, right Y/N?", Mrs. Kim piped up with a wink in your direction, and it earns a frown from your mom - while your eyes rooted to one boy in particular. "He honestly wants to lost weight just for you"
Jungwon, despite being the smallest out of the three, easily caught the frisbee that Daniel threw his way and tossed it back to his bestfriend, the toy flying over your brother's head before Sunoo tried to catch it, then fail as his body slides down the ground. He let out an easy laugh, one that you had realized you missed hearing and it was that realization that had you shifting away uncomfortably, so you instead focus on the chopping board.
After a moment, you sighs and looks to Sunoo's mother. "He doesn't need to diet. He's already perfect the way he is. I mean, I'd hate to see him lose his cheeks"
"And I love my baby with his natural cuteness for that squishy cheeks", Mrs. Kim admitted, smiling slightly as something starts to develop in your mom's mind. "I wanted to ask you, anyway. If you like that about him?"
Her daughter nudged her. "What are you implying at, Eomma?", she asks, but only one look at your mom have her closing her mouth.
"Hey!", the sudden exclamation had you glancing sharply towards Jungwon who pointed to something above. "Watch out!"
Just like that, with the karma that seems to appear again in your life, your eyes were fixated on the frisbee that was heading straight towards your face. And because your mind always falter at the moments of emergency like this, you froze at the spot. Only when you came to the conclusion that doing nothing is useless, did your body began to move.
It proved pointless as Sunoo sprinted towards you in a heartbeat, running ahead of Jungwon and catch the frisbee easily with that relieved smile of his. He holds it with two hands, and he glanced over his shoulder, unable to look away from you out of the blue. You held his eyes for what must be a long moment.
It was only when he looked away to throw the frisbee back to Daniel, that you turned as if to leave. But once again you were too late in your movement; he turned back towards you in the table, smiling thankfully as his mom suggested him to rest for a while.
Silently, you counted your lucky stars that your mom was too busy with the barbeques to question you about what was going on.
Whe Sunoo took the seat beside you, you still tried to meet his smile with your own. "It's been a while", he greeted with a care not to look in Jungwon's spot.
"But we're still friends, aren't we, Sunoo?", you asked bluntly, referring to the frequent exchanges of messages on the phone.
"But that's not the same in personal", he commented simply.
"That can't be helped", you muttered, drawing a little into yourself as you watched him play slightly at the tips of his hair. He looked back at you with obvious amusement and you forced yourself not to fidget nervously at the way it had meaning. "Are you - are you still not over me, Sunoo?"
"Who would be over you when I'm always seeing you almost everyday?", he reminded you of the cirmcumstances.
Narrowing your eyes, you pointed out, "Don't you tell me you would take back your words after I said to you that Jungwon and I might as well be almost real?"
"Well, I really can't stop it", Sunoo revealed, his grin growing even more. Why was he always smiling? Who could possibly looked so cute each time?, "But I will not interfere with the two of you"
"Thank you", you mumbled as you hurried to your feet with a sigh when your mother asks you to get the pitcher inside the house, "I don't want to lose you as a friend soon"
As you turn on your heels, you almost expected for Sunoo to follow, like the other boys not listening to your warnings. But doing so would be out of his character; he wasn't that sort of person. He didn't push past the line that you had so clearly needed and you respected him for it.
He'd said so himself that he wasn't willing to cross the line if its against your permission. Now if you could only remember why you didn't even take his feelings into considerations.
Maybe your mom would accept someone as sweet as Sunoo in your life.
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When you returned to your room, you came back to find a small scrap of letter in your bed. With a curious frown, you wondered why Jungwon felt the need to write you one and he's just there outside, enjoying barbeque all day on Daniel's side acting like you didn't existed at all.
You opened it up and saw that he was asking you to meet him in Daniel's room in a couple of hours before your family retired from their bonding with Sunoo's.
You waited a little impatiently for the time to pass by, wondering what it was that he wanted to talk about. Although a part of you knew exactly what he wanted to talk about. Sunoo. Another part of you is a bit afraid because your mom wanted to have a talk as well. Quite why you were needed by them at the same time, you didn't know.
But it only seemed right to talk to Jungwon first.
As the time to meet Jungwon drew nearer, you left your room quietly to walk towards Daniel's and you sat yourself down the windowsill in there, swinging your legs as you waited. Was he going to keep you waiting long?
He walked into the room just a minutes after you had and shut the door behind him. He leaned back against the door and watched you in silence for a while. You knew he was waiting for you to say something, but what were you supposed to say? Hello?
Eventually, he broke the silence first, sighing before asking, "What did I just see with Sunoo?"
"There's nothing going between me and him", you explained instantly, lifting your eyes to meet his.
"It's just", Jungwon sighed, closing his eyes for a moment as he crossed his arms. "I can't explain it"
Rolling your bottom lip into your mouth, you watched him cautiously and asks, "Jealous?"
"You know what he's like", he said as a matter of fact. "Sunoo hyung can always change his mind and steal you away from me. I can see it happening"
"Jungwon", you said his name uselessly, not expecting him to straighten up suddenly. "Sunoo is a friend of mine. Of you"
As he dropped his arms to his side, Jungwon crossed the room towards you in a quick stride. "A friend can like his friend. Friends can fall for each other"
"Just don't think about it", you defended weakly, your voice trailing off into silence when he stopped in front of the windowsill you were sat on.
His hands came out to rest on either side of your thighs and you swallowed nervously as he leaned down towards you. Jungwon kept his eyes on you as if trying to read what you were thinking. And that was the scary part, he had always been able to read your eyes to find what you were trying to hide.
You were so scared of him discovering what you were thinking of the events a few days ago from Boryeong that you lowered your eyes, choosing to stare at your jean-clad legs.
"Didn't you say that you will not let yourself be swayed to the other boys again?", Jungwon asked eventually, making your eyes raised hesitantly to his. "Why did I see you with Jake that night in the pool?"
"It's nothing, I swear", you started, bringing a hand up to brush your finger against his cheeks. The way he leaned in to the touch had the words dying in your throat. It almost reminds you of a cat.
"Forget what you said in the letter for me and you know, just make it real between us", he reminded you as you hadn't been the one to ask it to him in the first place.
"And that was why I chose you over them, I can't resist you and you know it too well", you said just as quietly.
Jungwon leaned forward, pressing his forehead to your shoulder and you stiffened slightly, looking out cautiously when you heard a foosteps out the door, "I waited for you for so long, Y/N - so don't you go away and settle for someone else that's not me"
"I am not going away any time soon", you teased forcefully, trying to bring some light into this room which was slowly becoming stiffling. "And you know how seeing you cry makes me feel"
He lifted his head at the reminder, bringing his eyes to yours as he let out a smile, "What if someday, you happened to wed another man and I happened to be there crying for the wedding to stop, would you runaway with me?"
"Of course", you replied too quickly, although you were not so sure of your answer.
In order to lessen your worries, not wanting to talk about the future, you wrapped an arm around his neck and made him lower his head, so you could pressed your forehead against his and you close your eyes, savoring this rare moment that you were alone with him. For a time, everything is at peace and there's no dilemma that you were trying to ignore.
Jungwon stared at your face for a long moment before he breathed sharply through his nose and lowered his head to kiss you. You leaned into him like you always did and let your hand curls at the nape of his neck. His hands shifted, lifting from the sill up to your waist like he thought you would disappear if he didn't.
You pulled him closer to settle between your thighs, and tried not to be disappointed when he pulled away from the kiss just as quickly as he started it. He stepped away from you, forcing himself to straighten up from hearing the call of your mom from the stairs and you let your hand drop back to your side.
Silently offering you a hand, Jungwon helped you off the windowsill. "Let's just say we got locked in here because of Danny as usual", that was all he said the entire walk back to the backyard.
These moments, these stolen kisses behind everyone especially to your mom often seemed to bug him, and forcing him into this stifling silence as your brother winked at him as soon as the two of you joined the afternoon meal.
You knew how Jungwon became after each stolen kiss, and yet you still turned up whenever he tried and returned it with the same level of emotions. It had happened so often now and yet the two of you never spoke of it.
It was a secret, something kept between the two of you and you didn't know how long it would last.
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Another small update and I promise to keep it the other long tommorow since this was supposed to be longer with Y/N's conversation to her mom. But it's already time for me to sleep.
And I will inform you here how I've already assesed how long this book would be. I think we can reach 80 before the finale.
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