Warning: This chapter is a NSFW lemon chapter.
If it's not your cup of tea you can skip it. I tried to make it about more then just the physical, about describing just how broken Dabi and Hikari are on the inside. This is my first time doing this so plz be gentle.
Hope you enjoy the first true look at their relationship
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"Do you want to forget?"
It was a phrase that the two of them had only heard a handful of times in their life, the result always happening after something unthinkable or unimaginably heartbreaking that neither Dabi nor Hikari could ever begin to stand.
That's how it always started.
And when Hikari heard those words escape Dabi's lips, her eyes automatically traveled towards the lips that said them, the inviting and warming tease causing her own eyes to grow even more hungry, ravenous for the man before her.
It was an automatic response and the villain seemed to notice it as well, his hands traveling up towards her face before forcibly lifting her chin with two fingers. Eyes were now on her, searching the girl's expression for compliance, for desperation..
And when she met him, it seemed that his eyes hungered for the same, the man's voice coming out low and commanding, already knowing what she silently wished for better than anyone else...
"Well, what will it be Princess? Do you want to hurt or do you want to forget?"
His lips purred around her nickname before Hikari recalled the devastation and hurt that was spilling inside of her stomach at this very moment.
The look on her brother's face, his disappointed expression, and everything that had happened after, the girl was destroyed because of it all.
So much so that she let her eyes travel to his lips once more before taking a shaky breath as the tears in her eyes began to block everything from the outside world.
Yes, this had happened a handful of times before, the two being in the same exact situation many years ago as nothing but pain and hurt swirled around them.
The truth was, both Dabi and Hikari knew they were hurting, they knew that there were demons that had sometimes haunted their dreams and there was a part of them that wished they had their family back.
And although it was never spoken, both of them longed for the loving touch of a mother's warmth or a family's embrace. They wanted words of encouragement and assurance that their feelings were completely cared for and not thrown aside.
They wanted people to look at them, to hold them and tell them that they weren't monsters.
Dabi and Hikari, they were like two volcanoes, the lid of their never ending grief just barely keeping themselves dormant from every little bit of trauma and pain that had followed them for their entire life.
Running his fingers across her arms painfully slow, the man stopped at a familiar scar before Hikari's casted her gaze towards his dead skinned forearms with a fallen expression, goosebumps now up her body because of the motion.
The scars, the burns, the wounds, they were the physical reminder of what had happened, what they had been punishment for seemingly existing, for wanting to belong.
And though they wouldn't ever admit, the two were lonely, wishing for someone to notice them, to bring them home..
But they also knew that was impossible, that those wishes were just fleeting moments, swallowed into the feeling of bringing others misery in order for them to feel better about themselves.
So just like all those times before, one look in Dabi's eyes solidified it for her, the need to turn to crave another moment of physical, to experience small touches that would drown away her own agony and sorrow.
Because it was a whole lot easier to forget than to live with the past.
"I want to forget."
She felt empty, so incredibly empty as the girl felt Dabi's hand reach to cup her cheek, her compliance allowing him to move even closer as each finger laid themselves on her skin.
And the very motion caused Hikari to immediately crumble, the warmth from his palm allowing the girl to melt into his touch, closing her eyes as the tears spilled from the corners.
She loved it, the feeling of warmth, the feeling of touch. It carved into her lonely and broken heart like a wave, crushing down on all of her untouched and bottled up feelings.
He was so gentle, always so gentle that it shattered her perfect facade entirely, tears coating his palm as Dabi pushed his head towards her, the scent of ash and smoke taking up everything about her.
And it seemed like Dabi understood her emotions as well, breathing into her slightly parted lips before his eyes closed entirely as if to say. I understand, it's okay.
"I know you do."
That was all he said before the man's lips crashed onto hers, the ash and smoke scent fully engulfing her as their lips melted into each other, fire and desire now the only thing on their minds.
Feeling his hand snake towards her hair, Dabi then forced her head further towards his, almost like just that one moment of care had left him ravenous, absolutely starving for even more, for any kind of love..
Hikari complied though, enjoying the sensation as the man slipped his tongue into her mouth not a second later, a growl of pleasure echoing out in between his teeth before the girl gasped in surprise.
He began working it around her mouth, catching on the sides as the girl let out a light moan, not stopping the action but biting his lip as the tears from her own devastation caught on the hands that were holding her.
Dabi pulled away at the action, staring at Hikari with clouded eyes before using his hands to push her onto the bed a moment later and straddling the girl in order to stare at every part of her body.
Although it also seemed like the girl's desire was clouded as the villain reached down to trail a couple light fingers across her collarbone, Hikari twitching slightly at the sensation before his hand stopped towards the pendant around her neck.
Wrapping his hand around the crystal, Dabi stopped before staring into the woman's eyes, his voice just barely able to sound stable, almost like he was holding himself back.
"What did your chicken shit brother say about this?"
And seeing his fingers around the items she held most dear, Hikari couldn't help but flitch, a slight echo of fear in her throat.
She knew he had already seen her hideous wings but that didn't make the experience any less terrifying.
Then she recalled the horrible expression that Keigo had given her when she finally relieved just how disgusting and disgusting her life had become.
"H-He told me I didn't look like his sister."
Noticing that her lips were quivering on each word, Dabi narrowed his eyes before ripping the object from her neck as the girl's picked over and deformed wings sprang out behind her a moment later.
The action caused Hikari to gasp before turning to avoid eye contact with the man in front of her, the uncomfortable aura of her wings fully displayed for him.
God, I still fucking hate this, stop staring at me like that. I know you're disgusted too.
Yet she was quickly stopped when Dabi's low voice called out to her, accusatory and a heavy amount of warning in his tone. "Look at me."
He sounded angry, like she had committed a crime in his presence as the girl only casted her expression towards the small table next to her, a small ball of shame in her throat.
"You know I can't.."
And although he did indeed know why, that only seemed to make the villain even angrier, him growling before forcibly grabbing Hikari's neck as he pushed her up, arching her back off the mattress to meet his eyes.
"I told you to look at me Princess."
His voice was unhinged and coarse, staring at Hikari's amber orbs before using his hand to bring the girl just inches away from his lips, a slight bit of warning in his voice.
"I want you to watch me, watch me the entire time.."
Not really understanding, the girl remained still yet complied, wondering what he was talking about..
Although that's when she felt his other hand gently run his fingers across her broken and disfigured feathers, the girl shivering at the very motion and wishing not to be so still as he did so. "D-Dabi.."
Yet the man only hummed before his hands trailed down a row of feathers agonizingly slow as Hikari felt her body twitch with each touch, the girl's lips pushing out a heavy moan before she could even realize it. "F-Fuck.."
Closing her eyes at the sensation, the man's hand suddenly disappeared and a feeling of loss and loneliness crept up into her again, the girl opening them up a moment later to see his disapproving expression.
"I thought I told you to look at me. If you want me to continue, don't you dare close those pretty little eyes of yours Princess.."
Yet that's when his lips curved up into a sadistic smirk. "Unless you want me to stop?"
The words only were enough for Hikari to whimper under her breath, wanting nothing but to feel his warm gentle touch again, the one that she never got to experience as a child.
"N-No, please..."
Chuckling under his lips, Dabi couldn't help feel aroused from two little words, already continuing his work as the girl felt his fingers work their way through her feathers, tracing the outlines one by one.
The girl wished to throw her head back with each caress although found it impossible with the hand around her throat, leading Hikari to moan back with unescaping pleasure. "AhH, D-Dabi fuck..not so h-hard..you know their sensitive.."
Yet the villain only hummed at her cries, pushing the girl up forcibly closer so that he could whisper into her ear while continuing the beautiful torture.
"Ah ah ah, No can do Princess. I'm going to keep touching your wings until every one of them has been corrupted by me, by my fingers running through the bristles, by working my palms across the sides. I'm the one person you can't run from, don't ever forget that.."
And that was painfully true, knowing that this man was one of the only people that had seen her wings and not screamed in fear, he was the only one who didn't change his expression after that pendant was ripped off.
Perhaps it was because of his own purple scars that he had tried to erase, maybe that's why he was never bothered with hers.
Hikari didn't know why but the idea made her feel comforted.
To know she never had to hide from him. He understood, he understood everything.
Pushing her lips together, Dabi continued his claim as she pleaded into his cerulean eyes. "I-I know, I know I can't. P-Please...I don't want to hurt anymore...I don't want to be alone...erase it....erase everything..."
Those were the words that caused the man to finally release his hold on her neck before using his scarred hands to push her fully onto the mattress and rip her black tank top from the seams in order to reveal the top of her bra.
"Pretty soon you won't be thinking about anything. I'll make sure of it."
Then without hesitation, the villain leaned down before pressing his lips onto the area between her breasts, sucking on a flesh as Hikari gasped back, her hands immediately reaching for his head in order to keep this feeling forever.
After he pulled away, Dabi then ripped the rest of the shirt, a small growl in his throat, like he couldn't wait anymore to have her.
Trailing his lips across her chest and stomach, the man then began leaving permanent spots of purple and pink as he went, each action causing Hikari to arch her back in the process with a gasp.
After seeing her response, Dabi's hands then immediately went towards her pants before unbuttoning the single button, pulling the fabric aggressively down and throwing them away a moment later.
Hikari then watched as the villain pressed his lips into the inside of her thigh before trailing down and sucking on the area all at once in order to reach every part of her.
And this time, his motions were even more intense, the girl letting out a breathy moan as the words caught in her throat. "S-Shit Dabi, it feels so g-good..
Her words caused Dabi to chuckle before pulling away and admiring her work, trailing his fingers up the spots where he had laid his claim as Hikari twitched across each one.
"I missed my name coming from your lips like that. It's been too long Princess. I gotta make up for lost time now, don't I?"
The girl watched as Dabi pushed his fingers under the hem of his shirt before pulling it over his head, the man's purple scarred skin and abs causing Hikari's eyes to deepen with unsaid desire.
She suddenly wanted nothing more than to run her fingers across his chest, taking in his body heat and physical touch.
Yes, she needed physical touch into order to drown out her sadness, to change it into something tolerable, before she broke completely.
Reaching her hands out, it seemed like Dabi knew what she wanted, the man leaned forward before reaching behind her back and unhooking the clasps on her bra, tearing the object away to look at her naked breasts.
"Nah, you know the rules. If you get to look at me then I get to look at you."
And did he ever, staring at her pale skin littered with scars and shaking anticipation as his eyes somehow deepened. Hikari couldn't help but notice this, giving him a cocky grin.
"What? You like what you see?"
Although this time, Dabi didn't have any jokes, any small callbacks as the hunger became almost too much for him to bear, his voice breathy and desperate, growling with each word...
"Fuck yes.."
Then he automatically snaked his hand around her back before pushing her onto him a moment later, their combined body heat giving a moan of acceptance from both Hikari and Dabi.
All throughout their life, the two had never had an ounce of love and comfort. Sure, there were people that temporarily gave them that lingering feeling such as Dabi's siblings or Hikari's brother, but it was almost always torn away from them.
For years, they had longed for anything to fill the empty void of their lives, of the pain and tragedy that had befallen them since they had met six years ago.
But all they had was themselves, and Hikari and Dabi knew that this small feeling of heat, this moment of passion was the only thing they were allowed in their cruel hero society.
And for that, they basked in it, both of their hands working across their backs and chest, feeling every inch of their body in order to capture what it was like to hope, what it was like to dream and actually feel something.
Anything, they wanted to feel anything. Even if it wouldn't last, even if it was just a lingering moment that would never happen again, it was something that they cherished even so.
Growling under his breath, it seemed like the man had enough of waiting and lingering, the idea of becoming complete for a moment overtaking him as he ripped off Hikari's panties without a second thought, throwing them to the side before his hands pressed down on her thigh.
Then without hesitation, Dabi's fingers traveled towards the area he desired before trusting two of them into her as the girl arched her back in the process, her wings twitching at the idea of being whole once again.
Enjoying her reaction, the man watched hungrily as he swirled his fingers around, causing the girl to go crazy for him, her moans marginally louder with every movement.
So much so that the villain suddenly wanted something else, pushing them even further in as he quickly muttered back. "Say my name."
Yet the girl was too distracted by her own pleasure, her mind foggy and spinning in circles at his movements. "F-Fuck...."
Noticing her disobedience, Dabi grew more desperate before forcing his fingers even further before bringing them back and forth in order to drive even more mad, even further past the breaking point.
"I said, say my name.."
At the sensation, Hikari desperately clutched the sheet before her own breathy moans grew louder, forcing her voice to do as he commanded in order to continue to feel this fake feeling of love.
"D-Dabi...g-god fuck..AhH...D-Dabi..."
Finally getting what he wanted, the man then pulled his finger away causing the girl to twitch in frustration and longing before letting out a soft whimper as he moved away from the source of her pleasure.
Seeing her so desperately desire him caused Dabi to smile though, looking at the quivering and anxious girl that wanted him so badly that it was tearing her apart.
And although he hated to admit it, the man wanted her just as much, so much so that he threw his pants and boxers away a moment later before pushing open the drawer next to him and taking out a condom.
Practically using his teeth, Dabi then ripped the plastic open before growling.
"Shit, that's enough of that. I can see you're practically begging for it. It's so fucking hot Princess. Makes me want you right now..."
He performed the deed quickly before climbing onto her with ravenous eyes, Hikari reached her hand up to gently brush her fingers across his cheek, her eyes filled with so much desire and fear from the events from earlier.
Staring into her eyes, Dabi then placed his fingers around the arm that held his cheek, knowing that she was still hurt from Hawks' careless words. That's why they were here, so she could forget.
"You're gonna forget everything. I'll make sure of it. You won't even be able to think straight after I'm done with you. That's a promise.."
Widening her eyes at his words, Hikari felt a wave of emotions enter her throat as she thought about her brother before holding back a choking sob, knowing that soon this hurt would be replaced...
"Make me forget."
And that was everything Dabi needed to slam himself into the girl fully, Hikari gasped at the sensation of him inside her before gripping onto his back and creating claw marks a moment later. "D-Dabi...!"
Pushing his hands onto her hips, the man squeezed the flesh tightly before using his quirk to allow warm heat to course through her as Dabi thrusted into her slowly, a moan etched into his throat.
"H-Hikari.."
At the sound of her real name, the girl seemingly fell apart all at once, gripping onto his back even tighter as her own strong facade crumbled away into nothing.
He never used her name, mostly because Dabi knew how much she utterly hated it, how much just one little word could tear down all of the walls she had built in her own mind. He knew it well, they both knew it well..
That's right, she couldn't hide from him, even if she tried.
Tears began to coat her cheeks as every little bit of devastation and pain poured into her, mixed with the feeling of Dabi inside her, pushing every feeling around like a tornado swirling around in a terrible combination.
She was happy and she was heartbroken.
She was full and she was empty.
She was loved and she was lonely.
There was no in between because this man had already torn down every single barrier that she put up in her mind, finally allowing her to feel every single moment, both good and bad.
So much so that another thrust caused the girl to become lightheaded before the words escaped her lips without permission.
"T-Touya..."
And the would think that a villain Dabi would be rough in sex, that he would be utterly dominant and powerful in every single way, that he wouldn't take no for an answer and do as he pleased.
Sure, the man started out like that, hungry for her touch and what he wanted, but the minute he heard his old name spill from Hikari's lips, it seemed that the facade that he had built up for years had cracked enterally as well.
Registering her moment of touch, the feeling of her around him, caring for him on some sort of level, staying with him for all these years, it was enough for his old self to break through.
Touya squeezed his eyes tight at the painful onslaught of memories before focusing on the touch and feeling of Hikari surrounding him, the man letting out a moan covered by the growl before he picked up pace.
He was desperate, desperate for the human touch, so much so that his hips moved on their own as Hikari arched her back in pure ecstasy as her breathing grew even more quick.
"Oh my god...I-I want to feel you...only you....I don't..want...r-remember....F-Fuck....E-Erase it...erase everything...Touy-"
Although before she could even finish that sentence, Touya clamped his hand around her mouth, focusing her to stop saying that terrible horrible dead name, the one that brought him every single terrible memory.
And seemed Touya was in the same exact moment, his thrust growing even more sloppy before pushing his hands further into her side, the blue light creating light burns around the area simply because he couldn't control himself anymore.
"H-Hikari....S-Shit, you are so damn tight...you feel so good....I-I don't want to remember either....I just want you....give me you...you're mine, you hear me? You're fucking mine..."
Feeling her feathers twitch with every word, Hikari's moans turned into screaming muffled under his hand before feeling herself start to pool over the edge, her eyes rolling into the back of her head in the process.
And the sounds pleased him, wanting to hear her cries as he finally unclamped his hand from her lips, Hikari's screaming and moans taking up the entire space in an instant.
Sure, they were screams of ecstasy but they were also screams of pain, of suffering and sorrow, escaping her body as she desperately clung to his body to keep her grounded.
"T-Touya..I-I'm gonna...I'm almost...."
Yet that was only a sign for Touya to grow even more desperate, the man also feeling the building up sensation in his throat, wanting nothing more than to watch her fall apart in front of him, to be the one to cause her such pleasure.
This time he didn't try to stop that name from slipping from her lips. No, it seemed Touya was too distracted by the overwhelming pleasure and emotions to even notice anymore.
His own moans turned to growls before gritting his teeth in order to openly display his own feelings of grief, knowing that their crumbling facades were already torn apart.
"Cum for me P-Princess...H-Hikari...B-Baby...show me I'm not alone...that's right show me that you want me right now...fall apart for me...let me see you...."
After those words, Hikari immediately felt her body tense before hitting her release, a loud scream echoing through her throat before arching her back in the most intense moment she had ever experienced in her life.
At the same time, watching her utterly fall apart around him was enough for Touya to be pushed over the edge as well, the man pushing her hips into him as he let out a loud breathy moan in the process.
Flopping onto each other, the two breathed heavily in their own sweat before Hikari tried to calm her dizzy and numb body, her own brain unable to process anything that had happened before this moment prior.
Now there was no Keigo, there was no disappointment, there was no shame.
Now there was only Dabi and her, laying on top of each other in unsaid comfort, having forgotten everything that had ever plagued them in this one single moment.
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This was my very first spicy chapter so please be kind about it. I went for more of an emotional approach than just the physical idea of the sex. Cause it's not really about that for Hikari and Dabi. It's more about how two lonely souls are desperate for connection and love.
Anyways I hope I did the two of them justice. I know Dabi is written a little out of character from his canon personality but Hikari and him have known each other for a long time so it would make sense that he would act differently with her, since she knew Touya, and was with him when he changed to Dabi.
Next Chapter: Hikari and Hawks meet again and her brother finds out her relations with Dabi oops