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Chapter 110 - Invitation

Chapter 110

Jeisen Jee POV

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I miss you so much.. so damn much.

I just found myself sitting again here in my favorite spot. At the top of the tree watching the greenish field of the university.

That 6, 8, 12 slaying.

I didn't mind it.

It is just a loud music somewhere.

Pumikit ako. I want to sleep. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam 'pag nakikiisa ka sa kalikasan. The beauty of it. I would always want to be here. This is my sweet escape. My peace of mind.

It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours since you went away,

I miss you so much and I don't know what to say, I should be over you,

I should know better but it's just not the case. It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours..

Napadilat ako.

I'm distracted with that loud playlist coming from the sound system. It's break time at nagpapatugtug sila ng ganitong klaseng kanta sa buong campus.

Ngayon ko lang narinig ang kanta at ang lungkot by just listening to the lyrics of it. The song writer must be in deep pain while writing it for someone he can't be with. 

Ganun ba kalungkot magmahal?

Kung.. kami kaya ni Gareth ganito?

Napailing ako. Why I am even thinking of it? Wala pa namang nasimulan sa 'min. I am a danger to him. I'm a bad news and he should not pick me.

Psh. That song should be illegal. 

Kung anu-ano tuloy naiisip ko.

I'm not broken hearted. I'm just empath. I can feel the pain. I can interpret the pain. That song sounds pain.

Bumuntong hininga ako.

Although the kind of pain I have here is different. My being broken is different. It's more than leaving and missing someone you wish to be with forever.

The pain knowing that they will never come back in your life. No chance but only being with them in heaven.

Tumingala ako at pumikit uli para amoyin ang simoy ng hangin. Pero napakibot ako.

Langya. Amoy ipot pala ng ibon dito.

Patulo na sana luha ko.

Andun na 'e. Psh.

Napahawak ako sa may kaliwang pisnge ko. Kanina wala naman ito.
Mamasa masa na ito at bago palang.

Kaya pala.

Hinanap ko ang mapangahas na ibon. 

"Tweet.. twitter.. tweet."

Langya. Maaasar na ba ako?

Nangangati mukha ko. Gusto kong maghilamos. Pinunit ko nalang ang nasa laylayan ng palda ko at nilinis ang mukha ko. Mas mainam na ito kaysa mag amoy ipot ng ibon. 

Binalikan ko ng tanaw ito.

"Twitter.. tweet.. twitter."

Aba. Nag iba pa ng huni ha.

Hmm. Makikita mo.

I get my glock 42 small gun.

Nilagyan ko ito ng silencer.