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Jawan.

I woke up this morning and kiara was all over me and snorin like a mothafucka , I woulda said somethin but I don't even care I'm just glad she came back home. I lifted her off of me and walked in the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and noticed somethin different too,  the organization day my eyes was filled with anger,  sadness,  shit all that but since kiara came back they back to how they was. It ain't nothin like havin a women in ya life that can stop all the rage and all the pain,  a women that can do so much for you even if you treat her wrong sometimes and all she want you to do is stay. I love kiara and I'm so damn happy I got to be the man she chose to spend the rest of her life wit.  Anyways,  I needa get chopped today so After I get dressed I'm going to the barber shop. I opened the mirror and grabbed my tooth brush . I closed it grabbed the toothpaste and start brushin my teeth.  When I got done I walked out the bathroom and went to my closet,  I grabbed my tan Levis,  my plain light blue crew-neck and my Columbia 11s. I sat it on the bed,  looked at kiara and she was still sleep,  snorin and all. I walked in the bathroom,  turned on the shower,  took off my shorts and got in. I stayed in there for another 20 minutes then got out. I wrapped my towel around my waist and walked in the room. I grabbed some boxers out the drawer and put em on. I grabbed my socks and put em on then I slipped my pants on. I rolled em up at the bottom a little bit then I slipped on my shoes.  I grabbed a beater from my drawer and slipped it On then I put some deodorant on. I slipped on my crewneck.  I walked over to the body mirror and looked at myself. I made sure my pants sagged a little bit , not alot or kiara gone beat my ass. I walked over to my dresser , slipped on my rolex , my grill and my good luck chain. I aint wore it in a while , i aint wore it ever since my mom died which was when i was a youngin. I just feel like if i wear it then i'll know that god and my mom wit me at all times , when i was younger and kids use to pick wit me i a be like "yall cant hurt me cause i got my mom wit me" and they a look at me like i was crazy and i a just be smilin. But yeah  , ima wear it more often,  I feel like my mom protectin me.  Sometimes I be feelin like she ain't even dead you know? Cause I ain't see it happen with my own two eyes,  and everytime I ask people about my mom they tell me all types of stories so I don't know. Last time I seen my mom was when I was around 4 or 5 , most beautiful Mexican women you could ever meet. My mom moved to America when she was a baby , I know y'all like how he get a new York accent or how he know Spanish lol. I was born and raised in new York. My pops is black and my mom was Mexican. She made sure I knew every Spanish Word there was to know,  she use to hate the fact that I had a new York accent though cause she said I sounded like my pops. But yeah long story short,  ima rock this chain today. I sprayed some of my Polo Cologne on my clothes then I walked over to kiara.  I leaned over her and just stared at her. "Bae" i said and she aint move. I kissed her lips and her eyes open "oh so now you wanna get up?" I asked and she laughed and pushed my off her. She sat up and looked at me "where you going today" she asked and I sat down next to her. "Haircut and ima go get J so he can get one too cause I know he need one" I said and she nodded. "Wassup witchu?  Whatchu doin today?" I asked and she shrugged. "Prolly nothin.  I'm tired.  Later on I'll cook though and clean" she said and I nodded. "That's wassup ma. Aye I'm finna be out though.  I love you and if you need anything call me aight?" I said and she nodded. "I love you too" she said and I kissed her forehead , slipped on my vest,  grabbed my keys and walked out the bedroom. "Damn I forgot" I mumbled. "I forgot my phone" I said and she shook her head. "Slow down.  The barbershop ain't goin nowhere" she said. "You never know wit them.  Mothafucks is crazy" I said and she laughed.  "Bye dude" she said.  "One" I said and I went downstairs.  I grabbed a water bottle out the refrigerator and headed out the door. I got in the car , plugged my phone up to the aux  cord and drove away. I picked up my phone and called kiara's mom. "Hello" she said. "Hey mrs.mcdonald how you doin? Is j up?" I asked. "Yeah he is and he's dressed already" she said. "Okay cool. Im on my way to get him" i said. "Okay" she said and i hung up. 15 minutes later i pulled up to her parents house. I knocked on the door and her dad answered it. "How you doin mr.mcdonald" i asked. "Im good. J in here" he said lettin me in. I nodded and walked into the living room. When i got in there J was ready to go. "Wassup man you ready?" I asked and he nodded. "Bye grandma , bye grandpa" he said huggin both of em. He walked over to me and i picked him up. "Aight it was nice seein yall" i said walkin out the door. "Hop in the passenger seat punk" i said to J and he nodded. He opened the door and got in . I got in and started the car . I looked at J and he aint have no seatbelt on. "Nah man. Nah,  You know the rules. Buckle up son" i said and he sighed and buckled his seat belt. I turned on the music and drove off. He tapped me and I turned the music down. "Where we going?" He asked. "To Get a cut. What you wanna do After that?" I asked. "Nothin,  just go home and lay wit mommy" he said and I nodded. "Sound good" I said and he laughed. I turned the music back up and 10 minutes later we made it to the barbershop.  "Come on my king" I said and he unbuckled his seat belt and got out. I got out and we walked up to the shop. I picked him up and we walked inside. "Look at this ghost as nigga.  Light ass nigga" a-man said dapping me up. "Wassup nigga.  How you doin curt?" I said to my barber,  puttin J down. "Wassup man. Need a cut?" Curt said huggin me. "Yeah man. My lil shorty need a cut too." I said.  "A-man do that" curt said and he nodded. "Yo he look just like you" a-man said. "I know" j said makin us laugh. "But got a smart ass mouth like kiara " he said makin us laugh. "Yeah man. I'm out the game" I said. It got quiet and everybody looked at me. "What?" I asked laughing. "You foreal?" Chazz asked across the room. "Yeah.  I had to get out. I'm 21 and stuck in the same place. I got a wife,  a son that look up to me and I got a little Shorty on the way" I said and they all nodded. "I'm proud of you man" curt said dapping me up. "I think you stupid bruh" kev said.  I can't stand this nigga,  he always felt like he had to hate on me and Christian Cause we was gettin yayo and he wasn't. "What man" I said "I said I think you stupid bruh.  Ain't no nigga that's gettin money gone stop gettin money. Somebody took yo shit? " he asked and I laughed. "Don't do it man" a-man said to me still cuttin J hair.  "I'm done" curt said and I got up,  pulled a stack out and handed it to him. "Yo A you almost done?" I asked. "10 more minutes" he said and I nodded and sat down in the chair next to J. "Somebody took yo shit man" kev asked again. I stared at him and squinted my eyes. "Whatchu think?" I asked and he shrugged. "Yeah. Bout time. " he said.  "Nah nigga ain't nobody take shit from me son. I got Everything a nigga like you ever wanted. I don't brag but when pussy niggas like you wanna make it hard for a nigga like me I ain't got no other choice. I got a wife,  a bad ass wife at that,  I got a wonderful ass son and I got another one on the way. I got some hound ass niggas wit me.  So Wassup? You want what I got man Cause all you gotta do is work for it. You the type of nigga that make money at night then go to ya moms crib Cause you ain't got yo own shit. But I ain't got nothin but respect for you though. I respect my haters and I love em even more." I said and it got quiet.  "Yo you done" I asked A-man and he nodded. "Aight" I said handin him a stack. "Come on man" I said to J picking him up. "Yo thanks curt,  goodlook a-man" I said and they nodded. "Stay up chazz" I said dappin him up.."yo I need your help with something" he said. "I for this crib I want but ain't got enough money" he said and I nodded. "Come out to my car " I said and he nodded and got up. "Stay up kev man" I said reachin my hand out for dap.  "Whatever man" he said dappin me up. "You straight. you holding?" I asked and he shook his head no. I pulled out a band and gave it to him. "Merry early Christmas man. And loosen up some. Hating don't get you nowhere aight? " I said and He nodded. "Thanks man" he said and I nodded and we walked out to my car. "J get in" I said and he got in the car. I popped the trunk and unzipped this bag. I grabbed 3 stacks out and gave it to chazz.  "I better get a invite to ya crib man" I said dappin him. "Thanks man. Love you bruh " he said. "Love you too man. It ain't shit to me. " I said and he nodded and walked back inside. I got in the car, started it up and drove off. heading home to my baby's.