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Ciara.

Last time I spoke to you guys I told y'all ima get myself together now look at me. I'm now back in Brooklyn,  I came back a few weeks ago but I didn't have nobody number so nobody knew. It was nice seein Christian,  and to know he has a daughter now makes me happy. It looks like he's happy.  I miss him,  even After 2 years of bein away from him I still miss him but it is what it is. He Probably doesn't miss me Cause of what I did.  But I'm not worried about that,  I'm worried about seeing my nephew and my sister. Right now I'm almost to kiara and jawan's house. She doesn't even know I'm on my way there,  she doesn't even know I'm in Brooklyn. 5 minutes later I pulled up to their house , it was nice as hell. It was still in greenfield heights , just a different and bigger house. I grabbed my purse and walked up to the door. I rung the doorbell and jawan came to the door. "Wassup be quiet ma. She dont know you here" he said as he hugged me and kissed my cheek. I walked in and seen christian sittin on the couch playin the game with justin . "Wassup" i said and justin turned around and his eyes got wide. "Yo CI...." he started to say before jawan slapped him in the head . "Be quiet bitch . We trynna surprise kiara." Jawan said and justin nodded and gave me a tight hug . "You look good ma. Where you leave to?" He said in my ear. "Cali" i said and he broke the hug and nodded while sitting back down. "Wassup ciara." Christian said with low eyes , you can tell he was high . "Hey" i said and he got up and hugged me while kissin my cheek. He moved his hands down to my butt and grabbed it "you got thick on a nigga huh?" He whispered in my ear . I tried to get away but he licked my ear "i miss you" and before he could say anything jawan cleared his throat . I broke out of his hold and looked away and justin and jawan was starin at us. "Damn yall basically just fucked in my livin room . Man come on ciara before i fuck yall up" he said and christian winked at me before i started walkin away. "It was nice seeing you justin" i whisper-yelled. "You too ma. Lookin good" he yelled payin attention to the game . "Aight so , she in the room sleep . Go in there and surprise her ma. She gone love this" he said as we walked upstairs. "She in there. GO in" he said . "Ima check on yall lata" he said kissin my cheek and walkin downstairs. I opened the door and I seen kiara layin in the bed sleep all over the place. I tiptoed over to her and tapped her.  "Wake up" I whispered and she didn't budge. "Guess I gotta do it like old times" I mumbled and I took off my heels and climbed in the bed,  I stood up and dropped down on her.  She jumped up so fast,  her curly hair all over the place,  slobber on her mouth and all. "Damn J what mommy tell you about jum.... " she said while turning around. When she seen me her eyes got wide "ciara? " she jumped on me.  "Oh my God! When the fuck did you get her! Everybody missed you" she said through tears. I laughed and let her go. "I got here a few weeks ago,  would've called y'all but I didn't have nobody's number" I said and she just nodded and smiled at me. "I see you then came up. You died ya hair jet black,  you lookin all professional and shit." She said and we both laughed.  "Where's my nephew kiara? " I asked and she got off the bed.  "Ohhh he's in his room doin real nigga shit. Meanin playing the game like his daddy " she said and I got up and followed her to his room. She opened the door and I fell inlove.  He looked just like jawan. The light yellow skin,  dark black curly hair,  all that. "J" she yelled and he continued to play the game. She walked over to him and snatched his ear piece.  "Yo if that damn thing gone be that loud In ya ear you needa stop usin it son. I got somebody I want you to meet" she said and he nodded. "Sorry mommy now who do I have to meet?" He asked. "turn around" she said and he turned around.  He mugged me and stood up,  "who is this?" He asked.  "This is ya tt ciara the One I told you about" she said and he ran and jumped on me. I laughed and picked him up "Hey tt ciara, I heard so much about you.  You look even better then my uncle Christian described you ma" he said and I shook my head. He's just like jawan. "Yeah I bet. Hey,  tomorrow I'll pick you up and we're gonna go shoppin okay?" "okay. First,  what kind of car do you drive? Cars is all that matters." He said and I smiled. "wanna see it?" He nodded and I picked him up and were headed downstairs.  "Where y'all going?" Justin asked "I wanna go" he said and I laughed. "Stop. And he wants to see my car" I said. I felt Christian staring at me but I ignored it. "Aight" Justin said walking into the kitchen. Me and J walked outside and walked over to my Car. "This is yours?!" He asked and I nodded.  "Yeppp." I said and he smiled. "Wow.  This is a hummer.  I want one when I get older" he said and I smiled. "Word? Ima get you one when you turn 16" I said and he looked at me with wide eyes. "Really?!" He exclaimed and I nodded. We headed back inside and I stayed for a few hours until I got tired and wanted to go home. "I'm about to head out. I'm tired and I have a lot to do tomorrow" I said as I hugged jawan , kiara and Justin" . "Love you guys"  I said to them. Then I walked out the door and headed towards my car. "Ayo Ciara" somebody yelled and I turned around and it was Christian.  I stopped and smiled. "You just left without tellin me bye?" He said walkin over to me. "I'm sorry.  It's just I'm tired and I have a lot to do in the morning and tonight. " I said and he nodded. "Awl like me?" He asked and I shook my head laughin.  "I'm just playin ma.  But um about what happened earlier. I was high,  kinda drunk so if you took it as if a nigga was trynna harass you and you plannin on callin the boys then that's cool" he said while laughing,  making me laugh. "Wouldn't call it harassing if I enjoyed it chris" I said smiling. "Word. Where you finna go though?" He asked. "Home." I said.  "Thought you had something to do tonight?" He asked walkin closer to me. "I do.  Like i-i have stuff t-to do at home" I said and he walked closer,  now we were face to face. "Awl foreal?  I can help you with whateva stuff you gotta do" he said and I looked away from him. "Your killing me. Come on" I said and he smiled.  "Ima follow you to ya crib. Ima drive my car ova there" he said and I nodded. "Nice whip Too lil baby" he said winking before gettin into his car. When I got in I sighed and laid my head on the steering wheel. I heard a tap on my window "I mean, you aight nigga?" He asked and I smiled and nodded. "Aight" he said getting back in his car.  I drove out of this long ass driveway and headed home with him behind me. 15 minutes later we were still driving and I got a call from Christian.  "Yo we almost there?" He asked.  "Yep.  5 more minutes" I said and he sighed. "Aight" he said and hung up.  5 minutes later we pulled up to my house. It was a glass kind of house with a water fall in the back. We parked and got out.  He walked over to me. "Damn ma. This nice. What you do now?" He asked.  "Alot " I said unlocking the door. We walked in and I took off my heels and let my hair down. "Sooo.  I'm gonna go shower. Make your self at home" I said and he nodded before walking off. I headed upstairs and went in the bathroom.  I turned on the shower and took off my clothes. I stepped in and stuck my head under the water.  I washed my hair so it could go curly then I washed myself. 20 minutes later I got out and walked into the room. When I got there Christian was laid on his back , texting on his phone. I cleared my throat and he sat up . "Oh my bad you want me to leave?" He asked and i smiled and nodded. "Aight" he said getting ready to walk out. I looked through my drawer for underwear and bra when i felt somebody come behind me. "What do you want christian" i said turning towards him. and he just stared at me. "You" he said slowly walking closer to me. "Why?" I asked and he pushed me against the dresser. "Cause. I still love you ciara. After 2 years i still love you. Im still IN love with you." He said and my eyes watered up. He stared into my eyes . He took his hand and wiped the tear i didn't even know was about to fall. "Then why'd you leave me like that? Im sorry . I really am. Christian i will always love you , I always have but you just pushed me away" I said through sobs. He nodded and picked me up,  carrying me over to bed and sitting down , now I was sitting on his lap. "I'm sorry ma. That happened 2 years ago. And I'm not even mad,  I was never mad. a Nigga was hurt but never mad" he said as I laid my head on his shoulder as he rubbed my back. "I love you" I said.  "Love you more ma" he said kissing me. He laid me down and removed my towel from around me.  He smiled at me and kissed on my stomach,  he went further and made his way to my spot. He wasted no time going to work. "Christian please" I cried out and he began to finger me. "Stop what Ciara? And that ain't my name. What's my name ma?" He asked going faster. "Daddddy please" I yelled out and he smiled and went faster. He kept going faster until all of my juices squirted in his mouth. "That's what I'm talkin bout baby. Get on all 4s for daddy" he said and I got on all 4s. He stripped and I admired his body. He got buffer.  I licked my lips and he smiled at me. He got behind me and kissed my back. Without warning he slammed into me. "Baby" I yelled out and he went deeper. "Damn" he grunted. "Faster baby" I said.  "Word? That's what you want?" He asked and I nodded. "Aight then" and as soon as he said that he went to work. We went at it for 4 hours long. After we got done we just laid there. "Baby" he said.  "Hmm" I said as he rubbed his fingers through my hair. "I love you" he said. "I love you too" I said and then we fell asleep