Loving him is so wrong!

Chapter twenty-three

Monica
"I love you too Alana" chandler mumbled in his sleep.
Seriously I mean seriously does he not care or does he just don't be paying attention to who's in bed with him. Over it I just went to sleep because it wasn't worth an argument I mean Alana has a boyfriend who loves her so I know they're not doing anything. Maybe he's just use to saying since they have been living together. A lot of my friends asked me how can I be okay with him staying with her in another state and I don't have an answer for that. I know that Alana refuses to come back here and Chandler doesn't want to miss seeing his son grow up but he's neglecting Mariah. I've been slowly thinking about just moving up there because I feel like a single mom when I'm not. I know I have my job and my life here but I don't want to be away from Chandler any longer. Zara and Serena are grown and can take care of themselves but Mariah needs her father in her life. Still why am I with him even though he continues to break my heart week after week? I've been with Chandler since I was a teenager he's my first and only and I go by want anyone else. It's that simple I'm not leaving I've already established that. The next morning I woke up and decided to make breakfast for chandler.
"Mmmmmm something smells good up in here." Chandler said pulling me close to him.
"Sit down your food is almost ready." I said smiling up at him.
He grabbed Mariah and went to sit down at the table. He fed her while I finished cooking.
"Da da." Chandler said to her while bouncing her up and down on his lap.
"Da." Mariah said making Chandler smile so hard.
It made made my heart flutter seeing them like this. Yeah I'm definitely moving with him when they go back.I made his plate and gave it to him so he could eat while I laid Mariah down for a nap.
"You heard that baby. She called me da da" chandler said
"Can I see pictures of Avery I haven't really seen him."
"Look at him. He's so handsome just like his daddy." Chandler said while scrolling through pictures and videos of Avery. He scrolled until and he stopped on a picture of Avery and Alana sleeping in the bed. He saw my smile go away and locked his phone.
"Yeah he looks just like you.Where is Alana staying?" I asked
He looked up at me and then shrugged his shoulders. I know he knew where she was but he wasn't going to tell me. I know he's still paying for the apartment that she has here. I don't know why he's paying for it but he still is I saw it on one of our bank statements every month the same amount came out and when I called and asked what it was they told me it was for some apartments. I never knew he was the one paying for it in the first place it was weird when she suddenly moved out on her own considering how damn spoiled she is. Always got what she wanted always had her way even to this day.
"I don't know maybe at Alonzo house" he said
"Maybe. I want Avery and Mariah to be around each other. I want them to have a bond." I said to him
"Yeah me too I'll ask Alana about it." He said surprising me. So he runs things by her now. Interesting. Either way I'm going to the apartment to see her.
"Baby can you watch Mariah while I run some errands I'll be back maybe in a hour or two" i said
"Yeah no problem."
I went upstairs and got dressed to go to her house. I put my hair up and didn't wear earrings just Incase we had to go toe for toe with each other. I doubt it but sometimes that slick mouth of hers makes me want to just punch her in it. I arrived at the apartments and these were nice. I've never actually been here but I always had her address. I went up the three flights of stairs huffing and puffing and went to knock on her door. There's my cardio for the day. I knocked and heard her walking to the door.
"Umm what are you doing here?" She said holding the door opened but not enough for me to come in.
"Hey I just came by to talk to you. That's it no drama. May I come in?" I asked nicely
"I mean I guess. Chandler ain't here if you decided you wanted to do a pop up." She said
I chuckled at what she said and walked into her apartment. It was very nice two bedroom apartment. It was just right for her. Walking into the living room I couldn't help but to wonder if they had sex on this couch. What about the table shit did they have sex on the kitchen counter?
"So what you want to talk to me about?" She asked breaking me out of my thoughts.
"Just wanted to see how you are adjusting to being a mom and college."
"Oh I'm doing fine. I'm tired but it's what I expected." She said smiling.
"Chandler helps you a lot too so I know you're thankful for that."
"Yeah I am he definitely keeps the stress levels down for me." She said trailing off into her own thoughts. Oh interesting I wonder what's she's thinking about. She bit her lips and then raised her eyebrows just staring off into space.
"Meaning?" I said sitting up in my chair.
"I'm sorry what?"
"How does he help with the stress?" I asked in a rude tone.
"Are you asking me if we had sex?" She said standing up.
"Yes. I mean I can only imagine what goes on at night when y'all are together." I said standing up with her.
I was a couple inches taller then her so I could easily over power her. She's nothing but a little chihuahua all bark and no bite. She rolled her eyes at me and then folded her arms.
"No we haven't had sex. Damn you so fucking insecure about this man. If you haven't noticed I'm in a relationship now." She said
"Can you blame me for wondering? I mean my own fucking god child sleeping with my husband right under my nose. Why!"
"Because I wanted to and then i ended up falling in love with him okay. Shit leave me alone about him! He's yours he's made it very clear that he's yours and that you're not going anywhere!! Okay, leave me alone you win Monica don't you see! You fucking have the man that I wanted!" She said now crying.
I couldn't help but feel bad for her she's so young and Chandler is the first live of her life. She's just as miserable as I am and the cause of it is Chandler. Wait is she still in love with him?
"You're still in love with him?" I asked
"No." She said drying her eyes.
Bullshit she wouldn't have cried if she didn't feel anything for him. Or maybe she just felt bad about causing drama either way there's still feelings between them two. The way she acts versus what she says are two different reactions.
"I'm sorry to attack you like this but I just wanted to know. I don't know if chandler told you yet but I've decided to move back with him when y'all go back."
"Good you can get him out my house I'm sick of him controlling me." She said but quickly closed her mouth.
"What do you mean by that?." I asked her
She didn't say anything she just sat there shaking her head. I'm sure there was a reason she said that. Her phone started to ring and I saw that it was Chandler.
"Nothing Monica but anyways you should go. Hello chandler how can i help you?" She said getting up and going to the door.
"Why when he calls you, you rush me out of here? Is he coming here?" I asked her
"Oh my god Monica he's yours leave me alone and yes he's coming by to get something for Avery and then he's going home to YOU. Yes your wife is here!" she said putting a lot of emphasis on the word you then screaming into the phone at chandler. Whatever this girl has to be lying and I know that they are sleeping with each other. I gather my things and just left knowing that Chandler is going to be upset with me for coming over here. I drove home thinking about everything and how she said I won. I couldn't help but feel like something is going on between them something in my gut is saying that one of them is lying. If not one then both of them. I got home and park my car and saw Chandler outside waiting for me he looked pissed off.
"Why did you go over there for!?" He yelled at me
"Hello Chandler. I just wanted to talk to her."
"Leave her the fuck alone.! She's not bothering nobody or even doing anything with me." He said
"Oh yeah. Then why did you say her name last night?" I yelled getting in his face.
"What? When?" He asked looking at me like I was stupid.
"Last night. When we were in our bed you said i love you too Alana instead of my name. What you be all up in her bed too?"
I was pushing all on him and punching him I was pissed off. I'm tired of being lied to and he's just keep on doing it. He looked at me with so much confusion it was like he didn't even know he did it.
"I don't even remember that. You crazy" he said walking away from me and into the house.
"I'm crazy? Fool I have every right to be crazy you cheated on me with our god daughter!!! We helped raised her! You changed her diapers! I rocked that girl to sleep so many times in her life!!! And you turn around and sleep with her? Hell fucking yeah I'm crazy Chandler. Crazy enough to think that you're in love with me but I guess not!" I screamed at him.
He walked away from me and upstairs into Mariah's room. He was mumbling shit under his breath and then he pulled his phone out.
"Who you calling?"
"Alonzo i need to get the fuck away from you before I say something I regret!" Chandler said
"What you have to say? Don't be a bitch say it!!!"
"Fuck you Mon just fuck you im out of here. Always pushing me away. This is why I don't want to move back here!!! Fuck this i don't need to be here. Call a lawyer I'm over this." Chandler screamed in my face before walking out the door with Mariah in his arms.
"What? What are you saying?" I said grabbing him trying to catch his attention. He kept on walking to his truck. I got in front of his doors preventing him from getting into the truck with my daughter.
"MOVE THE FUCK OUT THE WAY MON! I'm not doing this shit with you!" He screamed trying to push me out the way.
"So why I need to get a lawyer for? Huh?" I said screaming
"Use your damn imagination. I'm sick of this shit now move before I make you move!!" He yelled
I moved out of the way and crossed my arms crying. I watched as he put Mariah in her car seat then he got into his truck and sped off. I went into the house and grabbed my phone and called his number back to back but he didn't answer. I sat in the bed and broke down crying like my life depended on it. Is this really the end?